Trump terrorists

well . . he couldntve said it better 

                                    https://www.msnbc.com/morning-joe/watch/joe-scarborough-this-is-what-republicans-in-the-senate-want-you-to-forget-100083269700

lily-livered Congressional Republicans

                                         cunts (an some actually are)

1747,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  27  1. 21

 

I ate a hot dog it tasted real gouhood  then I watched a movie from Hollywouhood 

I ate a hot dog it tasted real gouhood  then I watched a movie from Hollywouhood 

a Zappa song  Cheepnis  itd been reoccurring to him over the past few weeks 

some might call it guilt

Guilty

       dog eat dog

he got over on the cop

cop had his way he would have gotten over him

thats the way it was then 

probably still today

it was bullshit

really grass  some hashish

some brassbuttonshining dick thinking hes gonna bring down the world for some righteous pounds of marijuana  Wha  three kilos of hash  mebbe  

really

criminal 

         only because some milquetoast politicians got their panties in a knot and passed legislation so some hard-ass Americas Great! cops can enforce 

                                    enforce against blacks and freaks

just because they were black or freaks didnt mean that they were stupid

go to a cats shack and he didnt have art or posters on the walls didnt have books on shelves or smut or albums strewn on the floor beneath a stereo 

                               much like a cunt priest without a crucifix and palm frond on his wall above a prayer rug

who were they trying to kid

he wouldnt have had animosity against this cop if he hadnt brutalised a friend

brutalised him to death 

and was given a pass 

I was fearful for my life.

cat  Danny  listened to Jimmy Buffet

Buffet wasnt the Devil despite wha he thought

even if Jimmy Buffet was on acid had painted his face with warpaint was reading Mein Kampf he wasnt the Devil

cop killed Danny

just a guy selling some grass to make ends meet ends up dead

cop fearful for his life

he wanted to meet that cop in the worse way

he reversed-engineered things 

got a line on the hero Boy in Blue

dribbled out some tantalising bits and pieces

cop would be full of himself

had a notch on his revolver

was thinking he was a real deal

what better time 

he drifted word that he was making a huge score the Keys 

he had run a couplethree undercover cops as taxi service down to the Keys for scores

copped their gas 

cops usually ran with full tanks

dead give away

cats he ran with couldnt afford a full tank of gas

he ran them down to fumes and when they finally had to pull into a station while they refueled he wandered off to use the can and instead went down to the ocean to meet boats who hired him for diving or fishing

legit activities 

               activities that hid his real purpose his real livelihood

 

Little Miss Muffet on a squat by me

couldnt turn Zappa off in his head 

Danny didnt threaten anyone

cop erased him

do onto others as you would have others do onto you

like flyfishing in Michigan

had the right fly mimicked the right hatch fish couldnt resist

if the fish happened to be a cop

OhWell

hash

he lined up kilos  Key West

it wasnt bullshit

thered be kilos

he ran him around Miami for a bit

taking his tank down 

then onto Highway One before he could refill

cops loved full tanks

they ran out of gas

Sonofabitch!

Be cool be cool were almost there  Ill doubleback to Sugarloaf for gas  I thought we could make Key West too

We thought wrong.

We did

when he returned he poured more than half the jerry can into the tank  he sat down in the passenger seat setting it between his legs pleading exhaustion  Just a second bro  a breather  bringing his legs up into the car he sighed  then with his left punched a hole in his heart and slashed his throat

he practised

he dumped the remaining gas on the cop inside the car stuffed his soaked shirt into the gas tank and lit the works on fire

if authorities could determine crispy bacon had its heart popped and throat cut more power to them

the One and Only for Danny

approximately 2045,  Twosday,  26  1. 21

Zappa  Cheepnis  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=etQm3gzjyNw  

 

        

 

Com’on pe . . !  and that in midair 

                                     priceless came out of the mouth of a balding raggedybearded white Muppet  he waltzed out into parking lot trafficstepping in behind a passing pickup and camper his nose stuck in a cellfone  

he didnt look beyond the truckdidnt pay attention or likely did it dawn on him that there might be a vehicle passing on the other side

his Com’on pe . . ! his suddenfright jump straightup lot of good that did him let him return to earth where he left it and get taggedknocked ass over teakettle rolling like a once-bitten jelly donutraspberry-not-strawberry  wobblewobble flat

his pride hurt more than he

the old woman behind the wheel banged her brakesscreeched to a halt not that she was going fast their inertias commingled and he got dumped their weight differential was the difference though facetiously Roleypoley almost outweighed the womans car

from where he was walking he watched the calamity unfold  had Muppet been in the game and not assumed his pedestrianship made him Loom and invulnerable Muppet could have stopped sooner than the woman despite his ostensibly forwardprotruding belly  that considered  it might not have stopped his gut from being taggedhim spinning like lopsided top  though the glance wouldntve hurt the protrusion  it wouldve jiggled like jelly

Ass over teakettle got up enraged and stalked towards the old woman

Whatcha thinkin bout fatty  he said

Muppet stopped and glared at him  That old lady nearly ran me over!

Im a witness  You walked out into traffic with your nose in your cellfone  Came out into traffic right behind that passing truck and camper  utterly oblivious Muppet continued glaring  Obliviousness can buy you oblivion man  But ya got a pass Ya got some scrapes for your ignorance  Yadon want do anything  do ya

That old lady! . .

. . Did you a favour 

                     Count your blessings an walk on 

it wasnt a Mexican standoff

neither were Mexican

I suggest you keep to your obliviousness

Oh you sugges . . 

. . I do

       Go near her  shes obviously upset  anyer little bump and scrapes will be the least of your problems

Yamight wanna take it that Lifes being good to ya in this instance  an that yall learn from your mistake  Because if push comes to shove Ill testify to wha I saw  You struttin yer nose in a fone disregarding conditions

Nobody should have to look out for you man

Aint yall growedup 

Fuck you! 

           he wandered into the parking lot 

he approached old woman  she opened her window  Hes fine maam hes just fine  His mistake  Ill offers ya his apologises for frightening ya 

he stepped back into the diagonal parking between cars off traffic to make sure Muppet got into his vehicle and left

he didnt wannabe the Hand of Gawd  but if push came to shove

1359,  Twosday,  26  1. 21

Joe Walsh  Life’s Been Good  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BXWvKDSwvls 

 

You keep running around here laughing and smiling I may have to fuck you to wipe that smile off your face.

Why woudja wipe the smile off my face

Because I’m a notoriously bad fuck. 

                                    she cupped her breaststhey were ample slid her hands down her ribs to her narrow waist then her right went between her legscupping herself her left went behind her and grabbed a firm cheek 

                                                                                                                   I’ve got the components but they don’t jive, seems I’m crosswired, they just don’t fire, try as I may. As is, I’m uninterested in sex. I am asexual.

But youd fuck me to wipe the smile off my face

Who knows, maybe you’d keep smiling, maybe you like having sex with corpses. 

he had no comebackhe was a bit weirded out 

                                              and a bit tempted kinda like a woman who meets a gay guy and believes he just hasnt met the right woman yet 

he knew that gambithed played it  because some women are just gullible

frankly he was waiting to meet that dike who hadnt met the right man yet  thats a joke  when a woman told him she likes having sex with other women he believed her

it was a rare No but No meant No

 

0615,  Thursday,  21  1. 21

1128,  Twosday,  26  1. 21

the craziest things seeped into his soddenbrain when he took hot therapeutic baths

all the lights in the house were off 

it was silent

             rather silent after the echoes of crashing water filling the tub subsided

he went inlaid downthinking nothing at all

      then 

             his latest trick was to close his eyes and in that dark  against the back of his eyelids summons an opaque shimmering paleblue colouring and try to make heads or tails out of unorthodox shadows appearing beyond it

he thought of it as an artesian well a tunnel backback back  a mythic wormhole and if he was sufficiently lubed greased oiled up transactions occurred 

                                         he saw thingsnot that he had visions  he saw thingswatched them  and people and places which materialised ad hoc irrespective of Time or era or anything static or unable to mutate or transform

he was transfixedonce he accomplished the shimmer by the chaotic morphing or selective recycling loopinglooping looping  seeming to question if he truly was paying attention before an aspect or suspect would breakout to stand stage center for his appraisal

                          anif he tarriedif he was too slow on the uptake  it came apart like a childs toy puzzle fragmented  blew away like hot searing ash and scarred the face of the reemerging inky blackness 

                                                                                                         then it churned away whirledswirledabsorbed forcing him to begin agonagain

 

he was getting better at it

somehow beyond the agitatedmire reseizing his eyes blackening them he had become aware that despite trying to still himself his fingers defied him like octopus tentacles rolling and tapping at the porcelain tubs edge  and that their subtle metre caught the shimmers attention and like a sounded whale it resurfaced exhaled and blew colour onto the screen of his eyelids granting him another try 

                                     written in a suddenscrolling sharp whiteedged scarlet electric script demimondaine  because it ran so fast he first guessed demanddance but recalled the o  demondance  not demondame  ahno demi he remembered his college roommates wedding  he stoodup as an usher  demimondaine 

                                                                         a disembodied voice I told Alexandria you’d escort her into church and seat her on my side of the aisle. 

Right he heard himself answer again An Ill know her how

You can’t miss her, won’t miss her.

Cant wont  an I know nothing of her except for her name

No. You remember a few night back, I said she prefers being called a demimondaine, not a kept woman.

Yes  I do 

And of course she knows your name.

An whaelse nothing else  The grooms men are dressed alike

I told her that she can’t he snorted a laugh won’t mistake you.

he didnt mistake her 

                       out of a long black limousine  the chauffeur opened the door  it swang back  a vision in a sparkling silverwhite gown emerged  Alexandrina

he tossed his arms wide I got this boys 

                                          but they pressed himthey werent in on his roommates plan  they wanted to get this

the churchs stone treads were deep the risers short he almost went from nose to nose on his leather soles beating them down the first eightnine steps  had they pursued any furthur it would have seemed gauche

extending his arm to her she took him by his elbow he placed his hand on hers   Alexandrina

Joe. How quaint is this, our meeting finally? Michael’s spoken of you for years.

Quaint Anif I may you look splendid 

                                      the shimmer returned and shared their words with him asif they had been recorded and paintedstreaked broken images with dry brushstrokes reflecting funhouse mirrorshards and crumbling mosaic pieces inklings queer origami but revealing enough so he could see again by binding the bits together see like a projected film of missing frames half-frames frames deteriorating decaying

more than thirty years ago

he hadnt visited it since the time passed

a broken glass bead off a snapped lost chain 

                                                   then it was gone 

the black returned like clotted mold

     he tried 

                          he tried

the water grew cold

his shivering upset the metre of his rolling fingers

between 2340 Thursday and 0040 Friday,  21 & 22  1. 21

2302,  Sunday,  24  1. 21

 

its a queer thinghed been caught if caught is the appropriate word even when he was caught redhanded he didnt avert his eyes theyd keencatch him hed nod his appreciationhe wasnt leering theyd smile they took it as he meant a compliment

it was particularly queer when he was found admiring an attribute  say their ass when he wasnt an ass man

he supposed if he took the time to make a list breasts at the top asses wouldnt crack the top ten

breasts

widespaced eyes

throats

armpits

 

                  he remembered coming into an aisle in a grocery store where a young woman was reaching on tiptoes for a can of something or other her armpit was cleanshaven appeared sculpted he could either trace up her muscled arm or dip into the side of her ample breast  an intriguing no-mans land

Can I help he asked

Please, if you would, it’s just beyond my reach.

I can see 

           Did you jump

Excuse me?

Did you try to jump and snatch it off the shelf

Jump?

Yes

The can is heavy, it’s also awkward; its bigger round than I can comfortably hold.

Sounds like excuses 

                       You should try and jump and knock it free from the shelf then catch it as it falls

You really think so.

Tell ya wha I couldnt help but notice you all stretched upreaching youll excuse me if I tell you how attractive you are and were in your attempt 

                            I was particularly fascinated by your armpit which if not striking you odd struck me odd You have an attractive armpit as well

she blushed

The colour looks good on you

                               That admitted if you jump earnestly to try an rock the can an cant Ill get it for you I have to admit that this is an odd happenstance but its nature is quite revelatory Prior to this moment an forever beyond you have informed me of the beauty of a womans armpit

she blushed a deeper shade 

Thank you Ive been petty  Thank you for the illumination

she jumped once 

                   twicea third time without him cajoling her hed run them over in his mind that night and nights since

OKAY Yer killin me 

                      a peal of deep laughter rolled from her throat she didnt cover her mouth

You keep that up Ill fall in love with you

One can

through her big smilethrough bright tears in her eyes 

                                                        Yes, one can, please.

I may not be here next time

Okay.  Three cans.

Smart Theyre on sale today

he handed her two more cans 

                                 That was delightfulthank you

Thank you.

Yare welcome 

he was happy to help and over the moon to recognise a womans armpit as worthy of admiration                                                                      

1702,  Saturday,  23  1. 21

John Coltrane  Ascension  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-81AEUqHPzU

  

nice thingbout bein drunk soakin in a hot salted tub is how discordant things want to come together although sometimes kinda like an orgy he didnt wanna be a part of 

                                                 Who me  You.  Me yahsure me  Me  You.

in confounding blitzes of liquor and drugs he found himself gettin head by cousinsfingerin cousins fuckin kissincousins cuz  Why not it was sexthey had no desire to procreate   ooooh  or makin monsters

 

he walked in a carpeted hallwayhe couldnt hear his steps 

                                                              doors at either side were alternated so emergingopening one it did not open to a door across from it  tasteful he thought  and every door he passed was different than the next  heavy wood doors  elaborate plain painted stained  they were fascinating and drew him down the hall to admire the next and the next  the hallway ended at a beveled paneglass door which exited onto a broadbut not deep outdoor balcony where he breathed fresh air and mused about what door he would go through 

                                                                                           it occurred to him suddenly that overhead was another balconyanother floor  he reentered padded slowly down the hall again admiring the doors their possible selection and nearing the end of the hallway he could either veer left to go Up or right to go Down  veering left onto a wide staircase he realised he had no idea how he came to be there    seems  he materialised

the next floor the next hallway was alike and inkind every door was different and different from the ones below 

returning again to the staircases he went right for on the floor below was the door that keened his imagination and remained unequaled

it was a chalky paleblue whitewashed door that was no taller than his shoulder 

he tried the bolt

it slipped aside noisily but without hesitation or trouble

he ducked pushed it in and entered a room  it was dark

he closed the door behind him and slipped the bolt back in place  this time it was silent

he stoodfast letting his eyes become accustomed to the dim

one large room  to his left off the threshold were two stuffed chairs a small threelegged table between them pole lamps aside each chair on the wall opposite him was an enormous wardrobe a dressing chair to its left 

                                                                                                      furthur to its left was the reminder of the room occupied by an pale apparition a huge bed  white linens  under them a form  a womans form 

he walked to the side of the bed

he could hear her breathing she wasnt asleep  she was tentative  she was listening to him

when he went to gently pull on the sheet to reveal her she murmured No almost breathless she had been on her side facing him she rolled onto her back still disguised he liked what her form suggested the way the sheet lay on her face he could see hints of widespaced eyes a wide nose prominent though not big high cheekbones a firm jaw small shoulders large breasts narrow waist wide hips and while admiring her hips asif she had been following his appraisal she spread her legs

                                revealed through a slit in the sheet her sex like a flower unfurling  soft curled pubic hair

anonymous sex

 

hed decline 

             he couldnt begin to say how many times he refused to turn out bedroom lights to  make love Nah  to fuck  whawas there to be shy about  

they were there

they were naked 

                   he had every intention of turning them inside out takinem in crazy positionswarming them up on topface to face  bland missionary but making eyescreating the sense of him and her  then breakingout and flipgetting behind above under  later flicking his tongue like a snakes at their perineumthem jumping over the moon him grippedholding them by their hips and feasted fore and aft 

Guaranteed

 

he put his hand at her belly above the slit and gripped her she squirmed just a bit

he released his grip having enjoyed her marvelous radiatingwarmth 

                                                                        then stepped back and awayshe was alert

he turned walked to the door  noiselessly slid the bolt and left 

                                                                  the door and she indelibly etched in his memory 

 

0101,  Reggae Friday,  22  1. 21

1343,  Saturday,  23  1. 21

Pharoah Sanders  Ole  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LEfOkuigXsk

 

 

piece of shit

 

Donave yer fuckin computers call me following matriculating orders of thoughtless algorithms 

                                                                                                  Don call me whoever yare unless yawanna man up  unless yawanna foot the bill  pay a human being to call

Ifnot doncall

Anif I ever find out 

                     not that Id waste my time but if I were ever to find out who you are

I aint callin

Im knockin on yer door

Might do yerself a favour 

                            Annot answer  

2020,  Thursday,  21  1. 21

 

to wander near an opened dictionary on a stand in a library was like a set trap he its unsuspecting prey 

                                                                                                            he couldnt resist

among the manymany things he had trouble resisting the widespread dictionary was like a woman who beckoned him 

anhe couldnt wait to get his nose down inbetween its pages 

he entered it looking for agon which he read in Lawrence Durrells The Black Book

first he found anile 

                     1. of or like an old woman 

                     2.  senile

( Latin anilis, from anus, he imagined hed sidestep anilis spewed from an anus  old woman )  anwhy was old woman was derived from anus 

            he didnt know that anwhen he learned things such as that he look madly around for anyone to tell there were only librarians old librarians anuses not like he could stroll overinterrupt them yawanna bet Excuse me Yawanna hear wha I just learned from the dictionary theyd lookup over their glasses at him humour him its not wise to humour him  Yare an anus

                 nah he didnt do thatwanted to do that  but he didnt   but he wanted to

returning to the dictionary his eye fell on anilingus  n. oral stimulation of the anus for sexual excitement hed definitely take the bubblegum out of his mouth for that either for not wanting to lose it or to stop himself from blowing big pink bubbles ( New Latin: Latin anus (a grapheme over the a  making it a long a) + Latin lingere, to lick; see leigh – in the Appendix ) OHMY have to go to the Appendix getting in the weeds no idea what he might find there he held his breath and dove like a high dive into water he hadnt plumbed to know if it was deep enough hed know soon enough could be thats a rushthats like walking on thin ice and listening to gentle fractures listening to its gibberish and cackles hoping the ice would forgive him  his trespass

BINGO  made it   leigh --   important derivatives are lick + lecher

leigh --  to lick 1. electuary (a medicinal substance mixed with honey or another sweet substance), “.  just a spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down” thanks Mary lichen, from Greek leikhein, to lick … B. lecher, from Old French, lecher, to live in debauchery DAMN no address (from Germanic * likkon grapheme over the o  a long o 3. nasalized zero-grade form * li-n-gh anilingus, cunnilingus from Latin, lingere, to lick)

                                                      went round in a circle   whagoes round cums round

 

back on track Durrells tapping his foot waiting on him  agon 

                                                                   agon --  1. a conflict

3. a test of will ( Greek, agon grapheme over the o  a long o SEE AGONY )

      agony

            1.  suffering intense physical or mental pain

            2.  the struggle that precedes death

            3.  a violent of intense struggle 

                                                   Durrell wrote in Black Books preface  the book is only a savage charcoal sketch of spiritual and sexual etiolation FUCK Durrell  whadahells etiolation 

nose back between those heady musty pages

etiolation 

           2.b. to make weak by stunting growth or development estrus or oestrus state of sexual arousal, excitement in female mammals, excluding humans  in heat  he knew heat  he knew more than a few women who went into heatwho said as much  Sometimes I just need a good fuck. somewhere overhead angelas fingering themselves beat their wings while accompanying angels beat their meat    

that threw him for a loop or mebbe he had too much slack in the Bunnings bondage rope he used heat  why would the definition exclude human females 

                  an earthlings an earthling and speaking of estrus or oestrus  esurience  n. hungry, greedy 

the anuses eyeballed him  he was tapping the dictionary stand with his cock Whacha lookin at  Im reading here

LOOK at this demisemiquaver  a demisemiquaver is a 32nd musical note  he tried like hell to hit them on his saxophone  he wasnt agile enough 

                         but he digresses

     not really 

                 demimonde 1. a. a class of women kept by wealthy lovers or protectors (he had one of those but that was a story for another time  she was a hoot)

                             1. b.  women prostitutes considered as a group 

a demimondaine a woman belonging to the demimonde 

                                                           fucking lyrical mebbe in his next life he would return a woman and tear it up as he was tearing it up now

probably would be frowned upon 

                                   mebbe not if he was a hot wealthy woman 

going down the rabbithole

 

                            demisemiquaver 

amusia the inability to recognise musical tones or reproduce them otherwise tone deafness

aphasia partial or total loss of the ability to articulate ideas or comprehend spoken or written language

agraphia a disorder marked by the loss of the ability to write

Almost there

alexia loss of the ability to read  he dated an Alexia briefly she was beautifulbut dumb

aboulia loss or impairment of the ability to make decisions or act independently 

                                                                                    never his trouble

Oh shitAWW that thrust against the stand did it 

he ejaculated 

messed his pants

better beat it before the anuses fall on himcatch a whiff of his funk 

no telling wha the library fine was for masturbating

at least he was in the adult section

                                       hur

0101,  Sunday,  15  8. 93

1231,  Thursday,  21  1. 21

Harry Nilsson  Coconut  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TsSuueEGQSM