27.1.17



he went outside after fingeringrunning them through his hands  coloured seaglass  they collected them together from various California beachesthats not fair  not beaches  from grottoes strands places they usually descended precipitously into   mining adventure as they went down into and climbed up out of

outside he paused  he eyed his hawk that sat tight in the top of a redwood a few yards overthen distracted by a turkey vulture suddenly appearing cutting directly over his house roof following its streakand at once past it beyond it high in the sky he saw the contrail of a passing jetlinera black pindot bound north to who-knows-where  San Francisco Oregon Seattle  Canada?  and in that sustained momentthat sustained glancethat husky hoary black bird heavy before the soft distant contrailneither aware of the other framed in that consuming panel of blue sky  out of that abrupt reverie his hawk shook free of its roostcaromed downward and sliced to its left and south

                                                          Ah!  the illustrious freedom of flight 

and then for no apparent reason he recalled a man he met several times  Bruce is his name

Bruce walkedif one could call it walking he struggled on forearm crutches and wormed his way slowly(tortuously to him) down the street stabbing stabbing stabbing as he went

Bruce and he were tethered to the earth

compared to birds they were both stricken


Bruces legs were crippled years earlier by an unnamed diseasethey werent that friendly and he wasnt that rude

he admired Bruces perseverancehis endurancehis grit to get along under his own powerhis own steam and how he abjectly ignore the baleful expressions staring through windshields of those motorists whose timing was awful and were put upon to wait for him to clearto get the hell out of the crosswalkChrist!  they didnt have to say it you could see the pantomime workout in their facestheir sneering countenances  their utter lack of appreciation  that appreciation for their healththeir entitlement over him
strickenedperhaps undeserved health perhaps not

one afternoon walking alongside Bruce in the street gutterBruce took up the width of the sidewalk they talked about the upcoming election

their legs werent their only differences

Bruce was adamant Trump as he called him was going to win  Trump is Gods choice he said

Gods choice

Yes  God will see that Trump serves as our President

Drumpf as he called himBruces head turned sharply towards him  If God elects Drumpf hell fuck our democracy
The man has drifted far off of any legitimate moorings that I can see

Bruce snarled Hillarys a crook

And Drumpf isnt
No
No
No  Trump is authentic
Yes  Authentically a crook a liar a misogynist a narcissist thinskinned mentored by a man who should have been disbarred and vilified for his association with McCarthys corruption  Cohn . .
. . I dont know what youre talking about

And that in itself is frightening  If youre for a man you ought to know basic facts about his life  Shouldnt you  Those experiences that makes up his views his worldview

Thats not necessary  Bruce eyed him like a raptor

Not necessary

Its not necessary I know everything I need to know about Trump  Hes been chosen by God

JesusChrist Bruce


We shouldnt talk about politics

No we shouldnt  Particularly if God is involved
Im an atheist Bruce  The bulwark of your reasoningif one can assign reason to it is null and voidNonexistent

Bruce didnt respond he struggled forward on his crutches and abjectly ignored him as if he wasnt there walking beside him Bruce saw him peripherally through a transparent glass of some otherworldly bubble he slipped him inside of




his hawk was back

             harassed by a single blackbird that dove and pulled up and could have made sharp Vs in the sky if it emitted a contrail 

he could still feel the cool seasmoothed glass running through his fingers




1317,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  1. 17
1321,  Thursday,  26  1. 17
1454 to go  or less




1454 days remain  or fewer





fascinating     size mattersOhboy  does it
                                        an awkward concernan unnatural concern 

although its really just a matter of opticks  isnt it

say  one has little hands

                 those hands placed against or beside objects make those objects seem larger than they are(as etched onto sideview mirrors objects in mirror are closer than they appear)   mere opticks

most people however  when they reach a certain age(maturity begs) are confident of who they are theyre weaned of their insecurities(I havent heard whos been asked to fill as the Presidential shrink  to serve at his pleasureOhboy)

one shouldnt be surprised(gosh  thats how rumours begin) if his unnatural inadequacies didnt also possess him when he was younger to pursue a plastic surgeon(who of course signed a confidentiality clause to his contract) to perform an Ozian lipofilling and penoplasty Ohmy


       the wild things and animals have fled the forest  the trees tugged at their roots but couldnt undo the knots
 


occurred to me Saturday,  21  1. 17
1729,  Thursday,  26  1. 17