27.9.22


he went homehome was where his parents made theirs because to date he hadnt found a place he might call homeset roots
   all things temporary since he left home

he went home to attend his fathers transitionalfluid he hadnt sought it ninetyfirst birthday

when he left home his father older than his mother by almostexactly two years the eighteen the twentysecond she drafted off him
     50 60 70 80 drafting48 58 68 78
his father would be 89 
                         but that early Spring Trumpvirus his mother quit drafting 
  her death astonished himhe was devastated

if his father turned 88 of course she would too 
                                                   she did not   she let loose the reins
letting loose 
             she diminished his sense of homeof belonging reminded him of mortality to a degree he thought prior he understood 
               he did not
a broken tricycle is not a bicycle
                                 his mother was the wheel who turned and dragged his father and him forwarddragged them in her wake

now they were static 
side by side
             while they embraced their shared axle-axis their unbroken spokes did not turn
 

he still hadnt figured out what to do

griefs funny that way

approaching 1700hrs,  Day-between-Two-Ts, 14  9. 22
1558,  Twosday,  27  9. 22


    Ouchie 


Stop doing that

beat up with a bowling ball

wasnt his usual tavern

but the barmaid was hot

0535,  Moanday,  26  9. 22
1127,  Twosday,  27  9. 22
The Power Station  Get It On (Bang a Gong)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O2vHbXI2p4k


He understands that everything he observes doesnt have to be recorded documented chronicled commentated yah

Youve seen him workthe stacks of paper wha do you think 
                                                               when his innerMariachi talk about him behind his backso they think he listens  they thinkincorrectly that because hes able to shut them out of his internal dialogues their conversations are private 
often forgetting
                 no him no them

I think nobody has that kind of time

That kind of time will always be a matter of how one chooses to spends ittha he makes the effort is sufficient  He understands hell fall short

An thas because he doesnt seeNo no see is wrong   perceive doesnt perceive things like others do

Evidently 
           Recall the feather molt this morning bobbing above him  it coaxingcircling many many times before disappearing above the overhangthe hummingbirds at the feedertheir shadows on the window  a teeming he coudnt take his eyes off Whered he go  Suddenly he was vacantya did feel that

  Yes 
       The scant shooting star last night his riveted appreciation  he thought he might be the only person in the world who witnessed it

Yes The ghost of the English walnut in the yardthe apricot ghost beyond it vaporous but there

The bird shadows thrown on the ground around him as he walks and readscatching them peripherally then gazing at them

Then suddenly gone  Vacant

Wha is tha

I don know

addressing them they flinched 
                               Shoudoccur to you  Times I don feel Im of this place don belong  Long to be where I fit

Fit Thas odd to say 

Odder to be 


the Mariachi shrugged  the many gathered beyond them shrugged too

1045,  Sunday,  25  9. 22
1047,  Twosday,  27  9. 22
E.S.T.  Inner City, City Lights  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iajtly6zH1U