You know how it is.

I don

You do, it’s good to talk with the female species.

    waited    Sex

It’d be great to have sex.

No

No. You don’t think it’d be great to sex; leave our incel ID behind?

Its good to talk with the female sex sex  sex not species

You know what I meant.

Its not whaya said

                      Might be next time the person youre talking to wont be me I cant imagine the turnoff if you told a woman she was of the female species

If they were a woman it’d be unlikely we’d be discussin . .

. . Sex

         I’d recommend fucking.

Quoting Brad Pitts character Tristan Legends of the Fall talking with his brother Samuel

You have to pull out some obscure film referenc . .

. . If pertinent  Jah

                         Another lacking of yours

You think not knowing movies is lacking?

 

 

Ohwhat?whatever that is that you pull off in these instances

    Tacenda  Jah

                       Better left unsaid

Tacenda

My point is is it’s good to talk with a woman

Then thas whaya ought to say

Her 

        I don think of her as a woman  A friend

They can be both.

Can be

          Usually when Im conversing with someone I scrub their sex

Or is tha species  laughs wholeheartedly

    That’s so androgynous of you.

Not sure androgynous works

                                  I negate their sex One is as good as the other   As are all pronouns

Different, yet equal.

Ya got it

Kinda Zen.

Kinda human

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1423,  Sunday,  24  5. 26

Legends of the Fall  2:45 minutemark  Sorry for the censor’s BEEP  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mkjIdoX6YVE

34 count felon acting president like more and more of his cabinet as happened during his last administration

LOSER/S

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hTbicOp4Exo

https://ecf.dcd.uscourts.gov/cgi-bin/show_public_doc?2026cv1402-15

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and as is his way he says after he asked

                                            Is a dream a simulation

No

he knew he wasnt prejudicing broheim with his answer

broheim if he dreamed  rarely remembered 

                                                But I’m sure I do.

which begged for a meaningful analogy

while he waited for that to surface he sought to irritate him went to the well of sure bets

                                                                                              You absolutely sure

what a great stone face

                          You’re really going there?

Butofcoarse  Monsieur

I dream.

No reason to get testy 

                           Not only did you open the door  But you walked right in

I asked  is a dream a simulation

Youre not the ideal person to ask but the thought just occurred to me

                                                                         Beggars cant be choosers

Ya got a brain in your head

Whas your considered thought

 

    It can be.

Dreams are generated by us, by our day’s events, news, what we thought, what problems presented, how to solve them, what pleased us.

We work all that out while we sleep.

So you think theyyour the odds guy are more than a fiftypercent chance a simulation

Sixtypercent

I’d say the odds are good they definitely are.

 

They definitely are because you want to be contrary to my no

No.

I think their symbolism is a reenactment of our days events, things we want to consider.

    Not shabby for someone whos sure have conviction thathey dream albeit do not remember

Why do you say no?

The way my head works

                             Dreams are similar to movie trailerstake last night for instance  Im by myself in a bar at a table sipping a beer nursing a whiskey writing four women come up to me hand me a Polaroid of them in states of undress sexual poses one clutching her breast as she masturbates

                                                                                           Can we join you, buy you a drink?

The World According to Broheim  

Problems solved            

afternoon,  Thursday,  21  5. 26

1305,  Sunday,  24  5. 26

John Lennon  Whatever Gets You Through the Night  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sAkhvBSoMSw

You talk to yourself?

Of course

    Of course.

                 Just like that?

Just like that

You don

    I’m not comfortable admittin . .

. . Yet comfortable to ask

I thought you’d ask me why.

 

I write

           Words on a page dialogue has to be spoken to be sure the intonation syntax vocabulary is true to the character

Say out loud test it

                      Best way to understand if you have it the cadence the punctuation right

Now

        Given I live with four cats

Every morning at breakfast as I feedem I tellem the day the date if theres an anniversary birthday or something special about it

I ask if they know the year

                              Figurefingers crossed one might belchsay Twothousandtwentysix

Then I make my mint

Take the show on the road

Whas the year

belch Twothousandsix

                         Strike while the irons hot

Year over they wont know twothousandseven

 

Compelling reason to defend talking to yourself.

    No defence

                    Me an my cats

afternoon,  Thursday,  21  5. 26

1932,  Saturday,  23  5. 26

So what do you think?

Between the two  obviously

Yes.

I like the adjective serving  heart failure

Congestive heart failure?

Jah

       Heart failures bleak Congestive gives it some colour some   excuse mehope

Either.  Chronic.

    I understand

 

Your echocardiogram hasnt been returned

No.  It hasn’t.

Thas the Gold Standardjah

                                 Confirmation   Jah

Yes.

Whas the holdup

I don’t knowmy doctor’s office doesn’t know.

Somebody ought to get on it

You want to know

his expression was disconcerting

    Donya

I paidinsurance paid for it . . . I’d assume.

You don read the communication readouts from insurance

    No.

              Eventually.

Were you billed

                   It happened  didnt it

Wasnt an electrocardiogram

    Theyre different  Electro  Echo

 

I don’t know.

Its your body

This is the mind  brain body dilemma

How’s that?

All of us

             Growing older our bodies weighdrag our brains down

We acutely remember whawe once  coud do

                                                   Why when I coudnt perform as I had I walked away from sports

Had no interest in excuse me  no interest in beating a dead horse

 

afternoon,  Thursday,  21  5. 26

1754,  Saturday,  23  5. 26

I guess a question you have to ask yourself  is the universeyour univers . .

. . Mine?

Yours  Ive the multiverse

                               Is your universe symmetric or asymmetric

A lemniscatethe lemniscate is symmetric

It The endlessness limitless concept

It Describing something without any bound larger than any number

It Figuratively  Eight laying on its side

I think you’re getting off on a tangent.

No

        You insist the universe goes out an out an out

Correct

Yes.  guarded  or goaded

                              What’s your point?

Askin if the universe is symmetric

                                     Asymmetries corrected by symmetries  balanced ifya woud

I might suppose.

As I

 

 

Therefore

             Woudnt exteriority equal interiority

Quantum physics quantum mechanics microscopic  balance  woud follow

                                                                                  Coud possibly become so minute it slips into other realms

An because of its continuity  Either smaller yet or  expands   grows

    Possibly loops

So like  without  within

                           Unlimited    Unbound

    No.  At some point smaller must end.

Larger must end

No.  Grows only larger.

                           As you said, larger than any number.

Smaller than any number

 

No. It must terminate.

Infinity terminates

                         Universe slams its face on infinite facets of the Multiverse 

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1214,  Saturday,  23  5. 26

https://bigthink.com/starts-with-a-bang/universe-symmetric/

https://www.adlerplanetarium.org/blog/top-multiverse-theories-niyah-and-the-multiverse/

he stumped himself

                     I know this . . .

What’s that?

    Wha she must have said a hafdozen times during our telephone conversationreally making itpushin the point about her

Im like it but not

                       Youll say synonymous but Ill disagree because words are particular

Theres one right word

    Synonymous.  Means the same.

Theyre not equal

                  Same  Nearly the same   Isnt equal

She was using it to describe herself?

Jah

        Maybe you can help

How’s that?

Im unorthodox

                     Youre about means the same   Whas the word I cant come up with because Im not

You’re not?

Im not

 

Synonymous.

I am not

Unconventiona . .

. . Jahya got it

                    Knewya woud

Why would you know I would?

Convention

    What do you mean . . . convention?

Right up your alley

                     Something I woud not attend

And  a usual accepted way of behaving  Particularly in social settings

You socialise

You have to socialise

Which you should do more often.

Unnecessary

               I have books an youtube Chautauquas

People out an aboutfrankly woud not share my interests

                                                                  I am absolutely confident

Absolutely

    Yawanna dance

Nothing’s absolute.

Nothings perfectly absolute but some things are ninetyninepointninenineninenineninenine toss the mathematicalline over their heads  Approaching   One  Hunred  Percent

                                                                               An convention

Dig in this is absolutely you

Followin old ways of thinking

Or a custom in society

                         Socialising baby

Im unorthodox

Not unconventional

I deviate

Much much much narrower than unconventional

                                                         Ya gotta give me tha

That you’re a deviant.

Thank you

1415,  Thursday,  21  5. 26

1039,  Saturday,  23  5. 26

Bowie’s Lazarus  “. . . this way or no way”  “Isn’t that just like me?”  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JMJf2nSJ9Q8

Awcomon    Im not being ridiculoustheyre your ashes 

                                  

                                                           Certainly you have some idea where youd likeem parked

Parked?

Laid   To rest

                        Better

I’ll leave that to the kids.

To do with you what they willhave you  have you asked them their plans for their ashes

                                                                                                 Ive asked  Theyve said

You’ve asked my kids?  tinge of anger in his voice

It came up in discussion

                             They were adamant not to be divvied up like their mother

Divvied?

              That happened because she never said what she wanted done with them. Rather she was more concerned that she be cremated.

    She never said.

So you parsedem parcelledem out to the kids

                                                        Have to imagine you kept some

I did.

Leftem in places you an she enjoyed

I did.

You traveled to those places

    I did.

 

So wha do you find so ridiculous about my suggestion

I didn’t think it throug . .

. . Kneejerk reaction

Yeah.

           Maybe not ridiculous. 

Odd.

Destination weddings man

                                   Why not cremated remains destinations

I don’t know. Struck me wrong.

                                      You know where you’ll be . .

. . Scattered  Jah

                       Montana  Sula

Confluence of two valleys where Lewis and Clark entered the Bitterroot Valley

                                                                                   Theres family as you know

I do.

        I’ve heard.

I told ya

            Jah

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0934,  Saturday,  23  5. 26

Its one of the key determinants of ones personality

she folded her arms across her chest she could do that all day long bunched the grrls together her cups overfloweth

    Wha  You disagree

                                Such a puss

You really think so?

I said

          Thas my thought

Yours

    To be honest.  I’ve not considered it.

Might you consider it to be plausible

 

Will this turn into a discussion . . or an argument?

                                                          You’re argumentative if crossed.

Discussion

              This wont cross me   Your favourite my least favourite It is wha it is

   

I can see where you’re coming from.

                                         Trauma can be determinative.

Jah

        Is

 

However.

Jah

Can we possiblycould we . . . possibly . . remember?

Jah

You don’t remember.

I remember when I was two fell out of bed split my chin on the floor

                                                                        I remember my Dad holding mepinning my armsholding my head back as Dr Bonebrake stitched my chin shut without anaesthesia

Stitch  by  stitch

I remember my pajama top was covered in blood

    Traumatic

 

Yes.

Our first trauma is birth

Frankly

I can imagine that for many their births caused them P T S D

It’s called P T S I now.

                         Injury, not disorder.

If troubled disorder is more accurate

Would you agree that injury would reduce stigma?

    Stigmatised

Yes.

 

Might you agree tha stigmatised woud more accurately describe someone who was really fuckedup by it

    Their birth?

Their first trauma

 

I don’t know.

Food for thought

                     Anthasaid

Care to go to Macleods for dinner  Heard limited time only theyre serving haggis neeps an tatties

Yawanna talk about trauma?

Please  Theres other things on the menu

Yeah.

          But I’ll be sitting across from you. When you relish a meal you really relish it.

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1150,  reggaefriday,  22  5. 26

https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC10257468/

How to Change Your Mind Michael Pollan  cats been a big influence of recent

                                                                                              writing of Sidney Cohen a Fifties LSD researcher quotes his first experience  October 1955

“. . . the problems and strivings, the worries and frustrations of everyday life [had] vanished; in their place was a majestic, sunlit, heavenly inner quietude . . . I seemed to have finally arrived at the contemplation of eternal truth.”  Halleluiah brother

convinced it wasnt temporary psychosis Cohen called it “unsanity”: “a state beyond the control of the ego.”

reading that he squealed L’Eggo my ego https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=siVVmjkd-7I

                                                                                                             not a flashback not that one would offend or render him had memories plenty and if they wanted they were welcome

dug the differentials psycholytic versus psychedelic  tickled him

                                                                      psycholytic  non-ordinary state of consciousness while remaining in touch with the present moment

                                                                      psychedelic  an ego-dissolving experienceWhat present moment?time bleeds tie-dye all over the floor mop it up squeeze into a bucket slosh it round dismembered remembered

                                      out of sorts roulette round and round it goes where it stops no one knows again and again and again

                                     too enthusiastic

   

Jah

      A fervent enthusiast 

             LSD  

          Eucharist

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1043,  reggaefriday,  22  5. 26

Jefferson Airplane  Sunrise  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d0Ds7QQf0q0

https://pratigroup.org/psychedelic-therapy/the-differences-between-psycholytic-and-psychedelic-ketamine-assisted-psychotherapy/

Whell  Get a load of you bold as brass

Not really.

    Yare here

You thought I couldn’t be?

Jah out like a dogs bark

                                Why woud I think yacoud if youve not influenced menot  intervened  earlier

I thought ones either has or hasnt

An Ive not

No . . . not consciously.

                            Dreaming however, dreaming lucidly, isn’t consciou . .

. . I have to be conscious  lucidly  in order to manipulate the outcomescreate   situations  I want

So if not while Im conscious

                                 Why here

Simply.

          Because I can go everywhereanywhere I want.

    Lo . . and behold.

The Andy Warhol effect of Hallies portrait wasn’t your doing.

                                                                I know you know you flinched.

Your dreaming self did when I . . interjected.  laughed Injected . . . the hues.

    Synesthesia

Correct.  Or as you prefer . jah.

Some type of battlefield promotion

No.shaking their head  I go wherever I want.

I assumedno  Didnt   Determined

                                          I determined since I hadnt experienced youHallie ha . .

. . She has.    

I’ve alleviated, to some degree the, disadvantage, she’s, unfortunately, had to endure.

                                                                                            I’ve pleased her.

You have

               When you occur she tells me.

And you believed her from the get-go, even when you weren’t aware I existed.

                                                                                    You didn’t question her ability.

No

She told you you’re the only person who hasn’t questioned her synesthesia.

Jah

    You were jealous.

Or envious

             Her ability enhances her unique creativity.

I have.

You have

And what are you thinking right now?

Im thinking   Thank you

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0927,  reggaefriday,  22  5. 26

Chicago  Colour My World  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cWkXmx-0phc