shed his green Pepper tshirt  shorts

                                          naked     Christ its hot

Thas whaya get when you think about it

Aint it the truth

                     Aint it the truth

Why didya think about it

                             You were fine until you did

Computer screen lower left corner 82degreesF

                                     SUNNY

                                                     I hadnt been out in the day

Thought Id dip my toe in it

Dippin

             Ya decided to cut the lawn

It was only 82degrees

A manual rotor mower

Woudnt have anything else but

But not when you were a kid hustlin lawns

                                                If we remember correctly you bought your own gaspowered mower

Had a lot of weekend lawns to cut

Lotsa of leaves to rake lotsa of snow to shovel

Jah  I was hustlin

                        Had albums to buy clothes to buy

Your siblings didnt

They were okay with the clothing the folks bought forem

                                                             Clothes I wanted didnt appeal to my Maw

Hence  Hustle

Wasnt the responsibility of your parents lawn yours

Jah

         I used my Dads gaspowered mower for tha

And the leaves and the snow

Jah

Anyour siblings

Ive no idea

No idea

None

          I paid attention to mine  Im sure they had theirs

Caught them at dinner on weekends

 

Virtually     No idea

I was divorced of their doingskeepin balls in the air

    Were you ever a kid

Till I was nine

                  I came out

    Came out

Swingin

             For myself

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1241,  Saturday,  13  6. 26

Es e

 

    Easy, what?

Was burdened with Es in my dreeams

she sighed

             What are you talking about?

Text  One dreeam was nothing but white words on a black screen

                                                                       Whichfrankly isnt any wilder than the night prior when I dreeamed in cartoons drawn by a lousy cartoonistnot me  I woudnt pickup a pen pencil paintbrush chalk to doodle nothing

    Not a doodler

You are

On occasion.

                  Yaremember the words?

Of course

            Began with creed the word held for a while  then like a slow slide projector it slipped from the frame to reveal the next Screed  Seed  Meek  Weakthank Gawd E  A not another pair of Es

Then a succession

Gave me enough time to wonder in between times if there was a message orif the nerd cartoonist had returned just to fuck with me another day  or night

 

I don’t know what to say.

Nothing to say Im just sharin

                                Thank you

I don’t, well, what the hell?you’re welcome.

Thank you

                Es e peesy huh

If you say.    

0655,  Saturday,  13  6. 26

1140,  Saturday

Crosby, Stills & Nash - Suite: Judy Blue Eyes  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZGT0P0XJRFM 

Woud you keep a bird in a cage

                                    Feelin Maya Angelou  I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings

Know it

Angelou. I’ve heard the name.

                                       It’s a book, isn’t it?

Autobiography

Not something I’d pursue, read.

    Why

Haven’t given it a thought.

Id recommend it

I’m really not interested.

Sympathy

              By Paul Laurence Dunbar

Maya lifted the line from him

                                Very capably

Claude McKay  Harlem Renaissance

                                           If We Must Die

Poetry.

Jah  Poetry

I don’t read poetry. If I were you I wouldn’t mention you do.

    Poetry

Poetry.

Wha the hells wrong with you

I might ask the same.

Id answer Langston Hughes

They’re black poets?

Jah

You only know black poets?

Shakespeare isnt

I was forced to read him.

His plays

                   His poetry

No.

Walt Whitman Leaves of Grass Muscular

Carl Sandberg Chicago City of the Big Shoulders

 

 

No

Toldya.

          I don’t read poetry.

You think its effete  Feminine 

You said it not me.

 

  Youre pitiful

2051,  reggaefriday,  12  6. 26

1043,  Saturday,  13  6. 26

Dunbar  https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/46459/sympathy-56d22658afbc0

McKay https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/44694/if-we-must-die

Harlem Renaissance  https://nmaahc.si.edu/explore/stories/new-african-american-identity-harlem-renaissance

Langston Hughes  https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poets/langston-hughes   

Sandberg  https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poetrymagazine/poems/12840/chicago

carrying the kids from the car into the house up to their beds without them waking

                                                                                        fortunately

they only had two

he didnt have another arm for a third

that was something he did since he helped his parents carry his younger siblings in

    he liked it then

he likes it now

they knew couples who woke their children and made them walk

learning that they decidedhe insisted  they keep those families at arms length

they could not correct whatever it was that was deficient in them

                                                                         learned behaviour

 

You’re spoiling those children.

    they werent someone to say

                                You have to agree an inexpensive way to spoilem

A time will come when we wont be able to

                                                 Then

Our hearts will ache more than our arms an backs ever did

he pushed it

                even when the time came when he had to carry them separatelywhen they feigned sleep to be carried

he got it

            they enjoyed it as much as he

 

thats when one night as they laid in bed to sleep his wife kissed his shoulder  said

                                                                    You know, you’re spoiling the girls.

Ahbabe theyre mine to spoil    

2051,  reggaefriday,  12  6. 26

0941,  Saturday,  13  6. 26

Kansas  Carry On Wayward Son  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2X_2IdybTV0

    incentivised ?

                               hed say enthused

enthusiastic

wasnt profiting

he was innately pro-fittedinnately bound by habitreminded him of a line from a series he was watching  Industry

           It’s only an addiction if you can’t afford it.  brilliant

                                                 

he could afford his habit

                           was 

in another manner of saying

                                habitchualised

third of three sweet bitches it was his great fortune to know

 

Brother. You need to get out, socialize.

                                        his Irish twin

Brother  Youre not one to talkbe very grateful your wifes not dead

 

 

awkward silence

 

What’s that supposed to mean?

Wha I said

I’m not following you.

You never havethink

                                Who do you socialise with  I see three people on occasion

    No

Correct me ifIm wrong

You see your wifes friends your daughters friends your grandchilds pre-school classmates parents

What’s your point?

Corwreckly his brother wouldnt question himthought  correctly  a form of socialising

                                                                                   But tell me

Tell me the last time you went out with a buddy for a beer coffee bite to eat hung with them or you entertained

Last time

 

 

awkward silence

 

Don tell me I need to get out

Im enthusiastically enjoying myself doing what I wanna do when I want

                                                                                   Unencumbered

    Cucumbers in my chopped salad

Coudnt resist

1132,  reggaefriday,  12  6. 26

. . . chopped salad of her unconscious

                                           paints a pretty picturewasnt hers  would have loved otherwise

from Bat eater and other names for Cora Zengcolon a novel by Kylie Lee Baker

an unexpected friend turned her onto it

on an American flight leaving Phoenix

she was on the aisle

unexpected  middle seat  tableback down scribbling feverishlylooked feverish  

                                                                                      You have to provoke me

she lookedup immediately

                             Excuse me?

Youre lefthanded

her look Duh

Me too

lefties relate immediately

                           they should have been otherwise

her grandmother when her Mom left her in Grammas care would bind her hand shut

Mama tore Gramma a new asshole when she returned unexpected and found her bound

Gramma

Old Country

A lefthanded child is an evil child.

she had a few boyfriends who might agree with her

                                                       exploring her sexuality she found them wanting

Hit the road Jack

 

unexpected and she hit if off

the flight brokedown when backed up

towed forward  deplaned   walked to another gate in another concourse

Phoenix is spreadout even wider than she could spread her legs

boarded an aircraft

no airconditioning

good thing unexpected was beside her

they sweat forty minutes though were cooler than other passengers for the conversations they breezed through

flight was cancelled  Mechanical

they were informed to go to another gatejah  in a another concourse

arriving at that gate agents informed them there wasnt a crew to fly the aircraft and departure would be the following morning

it was that following morning

                            unexpected took up Americans comped Uber ride and motel

she lefthanded Luddite  spent the night at the terminal

                                                              couldnt fall asleep   bugged

by the chopped salad of her unconscious

wish she recognised it as that and would have said so before Kylie Lee Baker published it

    shed have beaten Kylie

150preferred,  Wednesday,  3  6. 26

1048,  reggaefriday,  12  6. 26

The Mamas & The Papas  California Dreamin’  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wbld9mv9APw

raw clay

Tolkien

Suck on tha

Aren’t you being more than a little rude?

No

       Wish he were walkinround kickin

Id crossed the pond to West Midlands rural hamlet Sarehole where he grewup to Oxford 20 Northmoor Road 3 Manor Road 99 Holywell Street 76 Sandfield Road Headington  he coudnt hide from me if he tried

                                                                                                             So

Turns out death can be a fine hidin place

 

Raw clay doesnt impress you

shrugged Words.

    Poetic  Raw clay imagery

Imagery?

                No.  Nothin . .

. . Your fuckin brain deadyour brain could be raw clay

                                                          Were it Id scoop out a handful throw it at a wall see ifitll stick scoop out another avoid your optic nervesId want you to see an toss it on a potters wheel fashion a goblet fire it unglazed so when its filled maybe that wetness will relate to you better than   words

  

1430,  Thursday,  11  6. 26

1002,  reggaefriday,  12  6. 26

Emerson, Lake & Palmer  Brain Salad Surgery  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WTLsNRpxcuk

    they think youre alone

but they dont take into account your pets your ashes your ghosts the sixAM peacock alarm sevenAM neighbours fighting as theyre going to separate cars to go to work eightAM travel alarm that on occasion as this morning sets itself

                           she did say ghosts

It’s unhealthy.

Maw  You were married at nineteen had me when you werent yet twenty

                                                                              How can you say Im unhealthy

It’s implied her

                   her mother could be explicit although saved that for others wouldnt be with her

she could say I am my mothers daughter  but held her tongue

 

was it unhealthy her mother had eight children

were her ghosts  unhealthy

                               they have a fantastic relationship

she believed in her heart of hearts better than most

                                                          their ghosts terrified them

they didnt relatedidnt seek intimacy

 

No Maw

             Its healthy

0827,  reggaefriday,  12  6. 26

Alicia Keyes  Fallin’  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Urdlvw0SSEc

backhands work two ways

hes dismayed by too many people who believe themselves clever and jumps them when they insult him and theyby their expression are mortified

                                           Thought youd slip tha by me

You have no idea how many times people try to insult me but havent the balls to say so directly

                                                                                                      Cunts

Youre a cunt

               Honestly

I have no problem tellin you to your face

 

still  backhands come

who knew there could be so many idiots

his turn

          Im reading a book by Helen Lewis  The Genius MythcolonThe Dangerous Allure of Rebels Monsters an Rule Breakers

Do tell.

I am

I had to write this down so I coud share with youspecifically  you broheim   

    Im quoting

                  Something about the subject of intelligence  she cites IQ tests  has a warping effect on its most furious proponents broheim was though its probably the other way around  the subject seems to attract people who are neurotically fixated with dominance  broheim was

Lewis insists genius be applied to works

                                              Not individuals

    Whadaya think

Seems plausible.

Broheim  ya think

1344,  Monday,  8  6. 26

1531,  Thursday,  11  6. 26

taunting him in a text  :  :  It gives me a sense of purpose ended with some fuckin emoji 

this from a man who believes or says he believes nothing has a purpose except for a thing manufactured

                                                                                                      You know.

Has a designer.

Going Biblical on me

Biblical?

Designer  God

Maybe.

his return text  :  :  you have no purpose according to broheim  him

  :  :  I’ll try to help you understand this concept tomorrow… vet teleology

  :  :  nah  been beat like a dead horse

  :  :  Yet barely scratched the surface

  :  :  ruined the veneer

I’ll wait for next year’s model to come out

 

he decided hed revive the dead horse

vetted teleology

hed hang broheim

 

 

Listenup

What?

Were puttin teleology to bed once an for all

You vetted it.

I did

        You shoud have

Hit me with your best shot.

Ya listening  Im quoting

                            The philosophical study of nature action objects Explains why things are the way they are the way they are based on what they are meant to achieve

Woud you agree something is achieved by purpose

                                                          Donbe a prick

    asif he was thinking momentarily to be a prick  I would.

Teleology contrasts cause an effect

                                       It explains things solely by how they originated It looks at their intended outcome or function

Youd agree function is what something does

Yes.

Its function its purpose why it exists

    Yes.

 

Then you woud agree things have a purpose

                                               Because

Not a week ago you were insisting nothing has a purposeexcept  manufractured things

Being recreant

Recreant? You mean miscreant?

No  Abandoning purpose

                              Faithless

2057,  Monday,  8  6. 26

1237,  Thursday,  11  6. 26

Pat Benatar  Hit Me With Your Best Shot  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aU5aDqLUvug

GRIM  Chelsea Grin  Recreant  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ca6B2uMCoc