. . . was haflistening

                     had put the ball in buddyboys court a changeup to take a break  but as he anticipated buddyboy hadnt consideredhadnt prepped anything worth interest

. . . I fixed a gay yesterday . . .

a bolt of whitehot lightning skewered him

                                            Whadyasay

snapped back to reality

                         he had to restrain his animosity kept it on a ridiculouslyshort leash he held taut so that it couldnt get away from him so he didnt rain hell on someone who offended him by offending Others

Ja  Capital O   

What?  What did I say?

Whadya just say

looked at him with alarm bugeyed

                                 I said . . . I said I . . I fixed a gate yesterday.

A gate

Yeah.

          The gate down below heading out into the pasture.

he wasnt going to apologise

                          Why do you call tha field a pasture You don run animals

But animals run on it. Deer. Turkeys. Quail.

                                                An occasional pig wanders through.  Roots.

 

    You got a little irate

I did  I wasnt listenin clearly

                                  I had hope youd dazzle me with something youd read  something scientific political societal something I didnt know tha youd blindside me with

                                                                          Something fascinating  Informative

Like bison bison One ton Able to run thirtyfive miles an hour and maintain tha for fiveten miles if necessary Leap seven feet high

    Ya know tha

Read it in the book Blood Memory

 

What did you think you heard?

You fixed a gay yesterday

                             You hold them in contempt 

They cant be fixed anymore than someone coud fix your heterosexuality

We are wha we are

 

    he wasnt apologising when buddyboy bored him   relentlessly   

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    Whastha . . .

hebephile one fishhook rest on line   though seemedonce he learned  one toe over the line

                                                                                  out of context  lover of a Jew

                                                                                                       but

was tumbled in with ephebophile two fishhooks still one toe over the line according to state statutes

                                                                                                  out of context

epidermis lover of skin

had to look them up

 

   Ohwhell . . .

now he knows

                  hebephile sexual preference for children in early adolescence

eleven to fourteen

ephebophile

              sexual preference fifteen to nineteen

paraphilic two fishhooks disorders  wasnt familiar though it has a deep bench

                                                                                      eight to be clear

theyre referred to as disorders in disarray

                                                      in no particular order

exhibitionistic disorder

fetishistic

frotteuristic recurrent intense sexual arousal from touching or rubbing against a nonconsenting person

paedophilic

sexual masochism

sexual sadism

transvestic

             last but not least

voyeuristic disorder

 

    he wouldnt have known if he hadnt ventured

was true to himself

to his insatiable curiosity

he couldnt wait to tell his mother his father siblings anyfuckinbody who would listen

                                                                                         his job  an enlightener

shining lights in dark corners  

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“Epstein has come to be known as a pedophile, to the displeasure of Megyn Kelly, who for some reason points out that there’s a difference between a 5-year-old and a 15-year-old. The ‘well, actually’ crowd never tires of arguing that men who have sex with teenagers should properly be called hebephiles and ephebophiles.” 

https://www.thenation.com/article/society/jeffrey-epstein-circle-teenagers/

. . . the name of tha travel agency tha I thought yawere full of shitteasing me

she laughed gaylydidnt cover her mouth he loved that

                                                                     still teasing  Which one is that?

The one you were going to go to the Orient through

Nobody says Orient anymore.

If Im Occidental theres an Orient

                                    Edward Said woud have my back  His book Orientalism

When did he write that?

Nineteenseventyeight

Times change.

Titles don

Whatever.

Cant deny its legitimacy

                              The Orient

Lifes a comedy club cant take a joke shoudnt have come in Fuckem

You and your comedy club, comin’ in.

Also legit

              But thas neither here nor there

The travel agency

Exceptional travel experienc . .

. . Ifya woud have went

Blessing we didn’t.

No doubt there

                       Fortunately you bought the insurance   Only delayed

Its name

she trilled

Youre funny

I’m a fuckin’ riot. The only reason we went through it was because of its name and how that would tweak you.

It didfamously

                       Why I cant remember throws me

Wha is it

Yawanna sit?

Ill stand take it like a man

 

    Wingbuddy

Thas it  delighted

Says the wingman.

Aint nobodys not before not ever

                                   Who the fuck needs a wingman

Got to be a California thing

Not where Im from    

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dictionary definition  informal  “a man who is the friend or close associate of another man, especially one who helps them meet or talk to potential romantic partners.”

                                                      Jaysus  

Stoic  Stoicism

                     Fancy names for common sense

You think so?

I woudnt have said so buddyboy

                                   Finally got my hands on Meditations  Marcus Aurelius

His recitationsadmissions are in linerather  mine   are in line with his

You’ve read portions of it before?

No

      Ive heard of itfigured it time to pull the trigger  Received it through the library

And, meditations, heady title, heady labor, coincide, you believe, with your sense of common sense.

Indubitably

              Gawd I love tha wordlike bubbles in the mouth

Id recommend the next time you    whell  not you

                                                       If you were to go down on a woman keep repeating it over an over between tonguelashings an shell go off like a rocket

Indubitably

    I’ll take your word for it.

Youd be lucky if she didnt tear your ears off

Yeah.

         Right.

Tellinya man youre missinout

You can pickup the slack

Ill slake it

              Again

Common sense sexual sense

                               Leave no bush unturned

Rock.

Hard

Would you quit?

Only when my tongue cant wiggle like a worm no more

 

  Meditations.

Common sense

Stoicism.

Common sense

You’re an anomaly.

Im not

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lithe

     brief  no fishhooks

she was

    she cameup from behind himover his right shoulder The test has commenced. Why are you not taking it?

immediatelyturning to her voice anxious  seemed overlooked  thought her lithe

                                                                               A test hasnt been provided me

At the door, the paperwork, you should have collected it there.

My thought process too as I saw others going through them According to the alphabetised fileboxes what should have contained my paperwork did not

Look again. We have been thorough.

he stood Ill look again excuse me steppedslightlyturned his body as he went between her and his seat

    enjoyed an unmistakable tension between them

turning  she watched him go

the file that should have contained his papers was slender Ws usually were

stuck to the back of anothers test was a piece of paper with his name on it 

                                                                                 an Interview request

he had been interviewed

returning from the back of the roomshe hadnt moved stepping again inside her and the chair he handed it to her

Whas this

she took it  began reading it

standing beside her he warmed himself in her litheness longer  no fishhooks

                                                           inhaled her scent

was mildly aroused she wore a sheer white blouse at the throat two buttonsunbottoned small breasts smart tancoloured skirt that played well with her hair hued by paintbrush strokes of pale strawberry shapely legs no stockings soft oxblood flats small heels 

                                              lucky if she was fivefour

You’ve been interviewed.

I have

          Otherwise I woudnt have been invited

absently  No.

                You should come with me.

Follow you wherever you go

glancing over her shoulder  a smile

he smiled

              Youve read my name whas yours

Weird Mary

piqued him 

                 made no comment

 

Grade school.  School.

They called roll in the morning. Last name first first name last.

                                                                      It stuck.

I like weird

               Appears to suit you she pulledup short turnedhe almost ran into her  Careful No taillights

she laugheddidnt cover her mouth really liked that  was warming to her

                                                                                Joe.   You have no idea.

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