they werent funny the silent
accusations his books heaped on him from the barrister cabinet behind beveled leadglass partitions side to
side hobbled by their mates
their sneers smearing him chastising him as if they were involved in marital proceedings and he abandoned them and was
the cause of their feelings of isolation and disaffection
they were no more property or
belonged to him than he to them he
touched and handled them frequently gently kindly spread their pages read brief
passages out loud whetted his imagination satisfied his inklings and curiosities
coaxed and tried to arouse them from their silence
he was not negligent
it seemed however they didnt take
kindly to the library books he brought home and laid on top the diningroom
table in plain sight of them as if he were
cheating on them with let whores or klosed women who needed a stiff cock stuck
in them to feel needed or complete which
wasnt derogatory he knew cavemen who
felt worthless if they werent fucking someone anyone
fucking someone anyone struck him as a low bar
a bar laid flat on the floor
he supposed people satisfied
their own kind
though he wasnt made for someones anyones satisfaction
though he wasnt made for someones anyones satisfaction
and while sex undeniably has a strong appeal
if he wasnt with who he wanted to be with he wasnt one(eh Stephen) to love the one your with
if he wasnt with who he wanted to be with he wasnt one(eh Stephen) to love the one your with
tawdry came to mind
someone anyone was tawdry
someone anyone was tawdry
tawdry was a man and woman
killer
perhaps one could argue not in the short term but if one is a slave to their sexualitya slave to their cocka slave to their cunt through that optic their abrupt rashness and utter thoughtlessness spoke demonstrably that they would savage any trust offered them
perhaps one could argue not in the short term but if one is a slave to their sexualitya slave to their cocka slave to their cunt through that optic their abrupt rashness and utter thoughtlessness spoke demonstrably that they would savage any trust offered them
SEX!
if he felt an urgea strong
unquenchable urge
he masturbated
he saw fit not to cheat anyone and no one
to cheat him
so he let his books gawk
he let men and women gawk
he acquired his ethics when he
was young and didnt defy them
defying them he defied diminished and defiled himself
and he had to live with himself
it didnt seem many took kindly to
his sense of the long term
they shat where they ate
1507, Thursday,
15 12. 16
