“Life is a rental proposition
with no lease; for everybody, tall and short, muscle and fat, white and yellow,
rich and poor. I know that now.”
a sobering confession
a confession he
concurred with he
loved concurring
he loved concurring almost as much as he loved fucking You concur? Fuckyes.
life is a rental proposition
he rented his entire lifehe understood it intimately
never did get close to buying owning
too many billstoo many health
emergencies and obligations
had he boughtthey bought they would have lost their home
they stitched paycheck to
paycheck and surprise! they didnt go
under
some people went on vacation
they met doctor bills and
hospital bills
met their daughters college bills priorities
it would have been nicewonderful to do something other with their money
when his wife complained Why is life so hard?
from his experiences before meeting her all he could reply was Whoever
said it was going to be easy
maybe he could have been more
gentle more compassionate
maybe
but compassion from where he was
from would be phony
she was the last person in the
world he would ever lie to
he never did
he was skin and bone and
brassknuckles busted jaws
he wouldnt tell her anything other than what was true
an while she loved him sometimes she didnt like him very much
which was too fuckin bad
he made a vow to love and
honour her
he didnt remember any bitch or lie to lessen their pain
it was their pain shared an sharing somehow made the pain tolerable
fortunately their pain thresholds
were extraordinarily high
they pitied people who whinedwho
cried Ouchie ouchieouchie
Get a fuckin grip endure
they endured
they endured until she died leaving him to endure for them
he had no doubt she would not have endured
for them
not a single moment
1400, Monday,
23 9. 19
1704, Saturday, 16
11. 19
