12.5.19



he tried
          anif he couldnt or didnthe always held onto his want wantondesire to fly above the fray fly like a hawk at hunt above a creek bed 
                    later feasting on its unsuspecting denizens  unsuspecting because from his boyhood he understood that people were few an far between who thought to look up  
                                                                and for those childhood lessons his head was always on a swivelhe was always imagining what could be or what might be  he exercised the violent possibilities that occurred to him fascinated by the possible fictions 
                                          which perturbed his sister when he shared it  Why do you think like that?

Because theres something inside me that doesthat wont let me rest



being awarepaying attention to his fictions he imagined what he would he do if his worse imaginingsif his genies lamp rubbed raw went south

an when he went south

he didnt just cross the borderline

he went deep




then the holdup he bitched to Corporate about happened
                                                          the same Corporate who tried to take his knife from him

apparently the only knife he was allowed was their safety razor knife with guard so an employee didnt cut themselves KahRIST  Barking up the wrong tree he told them he submitted a signed dated document that if he cut himself with his knife he wouldnt hold Corporate responsible hed pay his own medical bills  Whered these clowns come from


he was walking towards the back of the store when three guys came in behind him  

turning to greet them as was Corporate mandated he sawrecognised their deliberation

maybe buying liquor was far from their minds 

they fanned out the wingmen forward of the apex man

it looked like a dance  

hoodies

sunglasses at night

their heads tucked like turtles

their mothers wouldnt know them


they held their hands inside the pouches before their bellys

the pouches looked heavy

apex called to him Could you help us, please? polite he couldnt see either wingmen now  they were obscured by the liquor shelvesthe upright bottles

he didnt move towards him

his coworker was to his right stocking an endcap

he glanced at them casually

they had heard apexs call for help

quietly he said to her You need to leave  Go out the back door

she looked at him docilely

I  said  go . .
. . Excuse me, can you help me? asked apex

the girl left 
             How can I help he asked he still hadnt moved forward he glanced left and right trying to locate where the wingmen had manoeuvered

Please, I have a question apex said

Yes 

still he didnt move forward 

he anticipated they knew the safe was forward


Yes


COMHERE GODDAMMIT! apex yelledpulling a revolver from his pouch  GET UP HERE! MOVE!

he dropped to the concrete floorrolled then bellycrawled to the aisle immediately to his rightthe endcap where the girl had been where she was stocking grain alcohol moonshine
YOU! HEY YOU!

his knife was out he torn in half the bandanna handkerchief from his back pocket unscrewed two liters of Everclear stuffed the halves into their necks upset the bottles and righted them again when the wicks were wetted 
he stood
         as he walked forward he produced the cigarette lighter his father left himthe only thing his father left him when he died 

he stepped back into the center aisle where apex had walked deeper into the store YOU! COMHERE!

he flipped the scarred metal lighter open with his thumb

he had stabbed his knife through his jean pocket  used it as an impromptu holster

COMHERE! menacingly

Might wanna rethink this asshole

COMHERE FUCK!

with one Everclear tucked under his arm he bent his elbow raising the other he held up the lighter in his opposite hand  You should imagine youre standing in the middle of a glut of flammable liquids  he lit the lighter  the wingmen emerged to either side of him aisles away  revolvers drawn YOU might imagine the inferno that will start with you
he didnt wait to hear what apex had to say

he lit the wickdropped the lighterlit the second Everclear off the first  GAME TIME 

apex reared back turned and fled

DADDYS GONE BOYS

the smarter of the two turned up an aisle and fled first 

he gave them a moment and rushed after themwent through the pneumaticsighing doors hurled the bottles into the empty parking lot

they made ecstatic exclamation marks on the tarmac   


he imagined they had enough imagination to go in three different directions


he burned his hands 


Corporate was paying for that
  

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