they were shooting pool boyohboys house man had a playground to himself after his children moved out his wife died

Where'd they go?

Go  he turned looked around   I didnt seeem leave we were celebrating

                                                                          Tha was an amazing shot

Might suppose theyre not keen losing to a woman

Could suppose they’re not keen on losing forty dollars to a woman.

An her partner

Of course, my partner.

Crazy shot Compounded frustratingem by going back an forth tryin to determine which way to shoot  lefthanded   righthanded

Were lefties

    I’m ambidextrous when it suits me.

Im bisexual when it suits me

No you’re not.

No Im not

            Though I dig your expression loved her deep dimples  So I covered you  put the Forty down

    Wha are you going to do for your Twenty

Do?

Your skin in the game

    she grinned wished he took a picture   What you thinking?

Oral sex

laughed

                You want me to blow you to for my money?

Whell  Actually

                       I was thinking youd let me go down on you

 

    Oh.

 

By all means.

               tipped her onto the game room couchLose the blouse she did laid the Twenty between her breasts  Thank you. was busycoudnt say Youre welcome

2143,  Wednesday,  21  10. 26

1004,  reggaefriday,  23  10. 26

was thinking about writing about kompromat

                                                         but             indica sounded better to him

in – da – couch is how he understood it wasnt kneedeep in strains

he smoked rag weed shitty weed shuck weed in the day

                                                                  schwag

those more in his lane

    sa – ti – va  no fuckin idea

                                      sa – ti – vaJah   no fuckin idea    which convinced him to quit indica

couch

A couch

A man

JD Vance

A meme  he had to go on mememememe  a meme is a copy and he was only interested in origi - - anals   he meant originals

indica

sativa

meme

anal

 

he had a question

Yes.

Never before have truer words been spoken clique   “What happens when you die in the ocean: bloat.”

                                                                                                   Gospel of Kraus 6: 13–19  Whalefall

    maybe there has been

                                  he just couldnt think of one

809preferred,  Wednesday,  21  10. 26

https://www.reneediresta.com/a-man-a-couch-a-meme/

Papi.

My man.

    Wha the hell

daughter springs Papi buddyboy returns from a fishing trip with bros and My man becomes his recurring address

          Woudya quit tha shit Im not your bro Im not your wingman

he recalled his daughter getting off a phone call  I love you, papi.

                                                                     thought he misheard

she slurred  a slip of the tongue

then on a later call

I gotta go I love ya, papi.

                      Hold on please  coudya hold another second

Yes.

Thank you

               Whas with papi

Duolingo.

Youve said Im familiar

Online, over a thousand consecutive da . .

. . Amazing

Thank you.

Youre welcome

    I use it when interacting with Duolingo. Seems odd to call you papa if with my exercises papi is correct.

Is that okay?

Papi papa  no sweat

                          Woud have appreciated to see it coming.

I’m sorry.

No sweat

            Im papi now

If that’s okay.

Papa was a swing from Dad but I survived

                                                Its fine kiddo

I gotta go, papi.

Have a fine day I love you I miss you

I love and miss you too. Bye.

                               she was gone had to go

    hed cut her slack

buddyboy coud go to hell coud be hep with the bros

2119,  Tuesday,  20  10. 26

1400,  Wednesday,  21  10. 26

Aes Sidhe or Aos Sí  supernatural race in Irish and Scottish Gaelic folklore people of the mounds  burial mounds  unearthed a can of worms

                                   learn something new every day

people of the mounds

 

as a kid his family peopled the moundsvisiting family members buried in the cemetery

have picnic lunches on anniversaries birthdays

                                                   celebrate them their lives  thats our oral history

we die twicefirst when we die

                                  second when no one remembers or says our name

that task is growing harder and harder

    of his nine siblingstwo have died one sibling is going to be buried he thought laid to rest but dead were really not resting

of his two siblings a brother and a sister  his brother was crematedplaced in an urn is in a niche in the same cemetery so many of his family members are tough to picnic  spread a blanket up the wall   theyd fall off

his sisters ashes all of them were scattered in the Rocky Mountains under Longs Peak watchful eye

hell be scattered if his wishes are fulfilled he wont be in any shape to confront them if they do not  at the confluence of two valleys East Fork Camp Creek where Louis and Clark entered the Bitterroot Valley  Sula Montana

1805

his five remaining siblings say theyre going to be cremated but currently where they’ll be scattered is unknown to him he might beat them to the punch therefore why labour himself with what might be useless information  

 

    wish fulfilling

                     has not gone well in his experience       Canya say . . . a crapshoot

several loved ones just couldnt bring themselves to grant their spouses wish

                                                                                he made his displeasure known hoping to square or cube their guilt

 

    a crapshoot  

1103,  Wednesday,   21  10. 26

https://lithub.com/on-the-history-of-the-aes-sidhe-irelands-seductively-dangerous-fairies/

WOD Jah  dislikes acronyms too  Word Of the Day

                                                               pied-à-terre Sounds like a dessert order  Faggy at tha

Should learn something new every day

                                                    Not tha hed hold onto it memorise it for a future date                                                       

pied-à-terre

              “(A) small apartment, condo, or house kept as a secondary residence for occasional, temporary, or part-time use in a city or town.” Like hed ever have a secondary residence

his heart belongs to motels

                             seedier the better

had a real knack for finding them

he didnt say that to pat himself on the backhis girlfriend patted

                                                                     old girlfriends did too

the appeal  what happened inside of them

                                              blacklight painted ceiling  tub just big enough for two

occasionally amatsunava lengths  nawaya  shibari  kinbaku   in a bind

                                                                               takeout sushi  pizza  barbecue

upscale beers  Redbreast  Late Harvest Riesling

                                                         dark chocolate

Fastest way to a mans heart is through his stomach  Fastest way to a womans pussy is chocolate

 

    Whas the word of the dayJah

                                             Hes forgotten too

0828,  Thursday,  1  10. 26

1653,  Tuesday,  20  10. 26

Fuckin criminal . . .

 

    What’s that, babe?

Listen shaking his head to this irately snapped the newspaper

                                                                       Onehunredsixtyseventhousand sixhunredthirtynine pounds of raw pork, beef, and goat products have been recalled by the FDA to be destroyed, discarded, or returned, after discovering they were produced, Star Meat Delivery Incorporated, without federal safety inspection.

Jesus.

I did the math

I saw you scribbling.

Jah

          That number is Eightythreepointfive tons

Yeller  who trained Asian elephants  elephants were most familiar with zoos circuses on the wall in the hall is the painting Taj  Yellers elephant  did in TwentyohTwo she told me Asians average between fivethousandthreehunred an eleventhousand pounds  Average weight mean eightthousandonehunredfifty

 

    Yes.

Now imagine a herd of twohunredfive Asian elephants

                                                            Their weight equivalent to the animals whose lives were wasted

Their lives?

Wasted

             Im tellinya Human beings callous   Were wastrels

Fuck

          Ought to get an average human weightmale weight determine how many croaked would equal eightythreepointfive tons

    Undressed  Ofcoarse

      

0920,  Saturday,  26  9. 26

1304,  Tuesday,  20  10. 26

https://www.fox13seattle.com/news/more-than-167000-pounds-beef-pork-goat-meat-recalled

Mother fuck

Son. Language.

No  Not if youll lookansee wha Im contending withwha a shitty can opener

Son.

Shitty

         Sis have a backup

A can opener?

                  In the drawer.

Ive been in the drawer

    Then that’s it.

Thas it

        he managed to hold his tongue

Are your tools downstairs or in the garage

What do you need tools for?

I need a hammer I need a screwdriver

    Alright.  In the garage beside the freezer.

Thank you

 

the can opener quit cutting not halfway round and intermittent slender tabs of metal  four cans

he set them one at a time on a dry cutting board

                                                   pressed the flathead screwdriver at the tabsbanged them with the hammer each can  a couplethree tabs  then using the screwdriver as a lever slipped it under the ragged lids atop the side of the cans ratcheted them open enoughpurchased enough to get his fingers under the lids  then his thumb heavy at their centers pried them open enough to empty their contents black beans dark red kidney bean two cans stewed tomatoes

Dad

Son?

Youll be pleased to know I didnt fuckin lacerate my fuckin fingers    

 

Sis who Dad lives with was on vacation called to see how things were going

                                                                                  I threw your can opener away

Ill text you pictures of the cans I tried to open with it

Why didn’t you use the electric can opener under the silverware drawers?

430 5PM,  reggaefriday,  25  9. 26

1209,  Tuesday,  20  10. 26

he and his father were building a onethousand piece puzzle

                                                                    it was maddening   exquisite

first time in a very long time that he had to prop the box cover the illustration up

                                                                                      things began to jive  gel

about half done he mentioned

                                   Look here Dad Theres four one piece holes  colour  shape  definitive

Theyre not on the table Ive checked the floor  None

his father biting his thumbnail

                                  I’ve noticed.

    You know wha

What’s that, son.

There someone you want to torment

he took his thumb away from his mouth

                                              Torment?

Jah

       I suggest if you identify someone   gift this fuckin puzzle toem

 

 

when they first began building it his father worked on the borders he set colours together particular tree patterns ocean wave patterns

                                   Care for a beer Dad

That’d be nice.

he returned to the room Old Styles his fathers favouritealthough  New Glarus Spotted Cow was sneaking up and may have exceeded Old Style if it wasnt for the fact that New Glarus didnt have distribution to Illinois had to go to Wisconsin to get it

                                            handed him a can

they tapped cansNa Zdrowie To health

                                              was working for his old man  ninetyfive

they set to work on the puzzle again

he eyed where his father placed the beer on the coaster just off his left elbow

                                                                                     saw him once a year 

figured he was alert knew his boundaries

 

in not five minutes the Old Style was on the floor

                                                   he bounded around behind himsnatched the beer up half its contents less the Na zdrowie toast remained in the can

                                                             bounding again he grabbed his fathers walker helped him to his feet

I got this  I need a little room Dad

 

roll of paper towels from the kitchen Fantastik spray bottle  got on all four got it moppedup  disinfected  dry as a desert bone

There we go  Done

Thank you, son.

Youre welcome

                   Can I fetchya another beer

    Please.                                                                                       

Figure out where you want to place it turned out to be on the bureau at his fathers back which he thought originally

          

the whole incident amused him

returning with the beertapped cans Na zdrowied again

                                                              Dad said  I make the mess.

                                                                          You clean it up.

                                                                           wry delivery

                                                                

                                                                         took no exception

                                                                             laughed

                                                                         Jah  Thas true

he could make all the messes he wantedhed clean them up  their deal  Dad kept living

1507,  reggaefriday,  25  9. 26

1054,  Tuesday,  20  10. 26

The Power of Refusal Claire Dederer published in The Atlantic June 2021

                                                                                 To other people his ascetic life might not have looked like freedom. It might’ve looked like emptiness. His life seemed to be made up of things he didn’t have, but to him, the not-having was the same thing as his freedom.

    not-having was the same thing as his freedom

he included that quote the article in letters to his father his siblings

he wasnt expecting letters in return

                                         none came

when an ascetic defends their freedom family  friends   dont get it

 

his Irish twin called  his tongue-in-cheek Wellness call

                                                            brother was always pleasantries before business

unlike him

               but

it was Irishs dime

the hahas chuckles slapped his desk threefour times behind them

                                                                             So, man, your letter.

 

 

Are you there?

    Speak

You have to be abrupt, terse?

Were finally gettindown to business not tha I didnt dig the foreplaydon think I didnt

                                                                                           When I last visited I said as much

Then when I came across the article the quote ever read The Atlantic

    No.

If not you then unlike the rest of the family have either

I can’t say, I don’t know.

I do

       The article restated wha I had said at Dads  

When I did  nothing   notnothing  registered in anyones face no one spoke

My lifestyle  removed half the country away does not appeal to any of you nor was I was appealing

I made a statement of fact

The article succinctly reiterated  backed me up

                                                   Eloquently          Didnt you think

I think . . it is odd.

 

Brother Be happy your wifes alive

                                          Your children grandchild within a stones throw

 

    I am not unhappy 

0003,  Saturday,  26  9. 26

0946,  Tuesday,  20  10. 26

turned onto his left sideelbow on mattresshead resting in hand

                                                                    Ya know wha makes me laugh

Every time

looking up at him her hair wildsplayed on the pillow

                                               Every time?

Every time

               The grim pair

Influencers  Life coaches

                                    Such crap

    It hasn't occurred to you that, at times, you're an influencer?

Me

You’ve influenced me.

Not in any sense tha influencers seek  Promote  Advertise    Ill be your friend for a fee

                                                                                               Not like tha

No, however you’re influential.

    Perhaps but rather I seek to open minds not change them

Sow doubt?

An opened mind mightbut being sceptical as long as I can remember pain in my parents ass them consistentlyconstantly Because I said. me countering Because don hold water

                                                                               Why

    How about your siblings?

I have two sisters who are similar but unlike me

                                                      Im me on steroids

You?  Extreme?  she laughedChrist he dug her dimples

                                                                   Thoughts of therapists, psychologists, psychiatrists? 

I cant say

No?

I cant  Ive not encounterinem soughtem don read How-To books   I cant say

                                                                                      I reason with books

I research I know my mindno no  I do not seek counsel

And you’re good in bed.

Im good in bed

                       Whastha have to do with anything

Shaddup.

                   And I'll show ya.

  

1750,  Thursday,  17  9. 26

1320,  Monday,  10  10. 26