1.10.14



Seek
and you shall find   not necessarily what youre looking for 
but youll find something

or something shall find you



he wasnt thinking  --  not really  --  that he was seeking

one doesnt typically seek a shot an a beer

he was thirsty
and it wasnt a thirst water slakes  and it could have been in any of a number of bars
on the street or around the corner 
he just happened to stop there and take what he got
house whisky
whatever was on tap



out of nowhere                                                                                                                        
                         Hell  he was from out of nowhere
she sidled up beside him with glass rattling with a couple of rocks inside it
their edges still sharp
holding it with both hands
--   Barkeep  Another double please

the barkeep moved as if he was a carnival animatronic
50s Time-studies would have shit at his efficiency  even the flair of tossing the bottle up
like an Indian club behind his back and catching it with his pouring hand was
voluptuously seamless

gurglegurglegurgle
she was a happy girl
--   Onmatab please

--   Yes maam

as she started off towards wherever she had come from  she gave him a sidelong glance
saw he was holding his shot to his lips
--   Wanmeta throw a nipple on it
 
he glanced at her
a filled blouse  cleavage
--   Seems ya got enuf to spare

Yah  
--   Smartass
--   Heads even smarter
I dont sit on it

--   Dont think
ya need a nipple

--   Nah  Though I didnt want to hurt yer feelins  Ya actually seemed concerned
And if there was a nipple in it for me  I should stand in my way
When a need be I can be very accommodating

--

--

she held out her glass to him
--   To nipples

--   Aw comon
he smiled
To hard nipples
she smiled

And dimples

--   Awright

Nipples and dimples 
they tossed their drinks back 
       

You havent either

--   I dont  The toast was to you

--   So  Yagonna buy me a drink

--   No

--   Nothin 
Just foreplay

--   Got ya hard too huh

--

--

--   Barkeep                                                                                                                                           she touched her tongue at the corner of her lips
A round  --   as she turned a circle in the air with her finger   --   here please

she yanked the stool behind her out into the aisle at their backs and put her foot up on
its footrest
she leaned up against the bar rested her elbow on it
Maybe thins ill get innarestin

--   Theyre plenty interestin

--   Are you sure
the barkeep turned the bottle label towards him
what shed been drinkin
he nodded
--   Am I sure

--   Yah
Are you sure

--   Sure
Of what

--   Are you  sure

--   Yer fishin for somethin

--   Fishin

he smiled disarmingly
--  Assuredly

--

--

--   Yer not sayin
the barkeep slipped the double up to her elbow and doubletapped his drink before him
--   A double
he looked her in the face
Thank you very much

--   Youre welcome

he held his glass up and she genteelly touched hers to his

they took sips


--   Back to the matter at hand  she said

--   Yes  Quite

--   Yer not sayin are ya

--   I can assure you Im confident Im not gonna say whatever it is you thought I was 
gonna say

she leaned forward so their noses nearly touched

peered into his eyes

--   I thought I saw it in thar
Hesitant

But I really thought I saw it

their faces were still very close
he could feel her breath on his
--   Yereyes are beautiful

--

--


--   Thank you

--   Youre welcome

--   I thought yer were gonna say you were  cocksure  where this is goin

--   This
he looked away from her into the mirror at the back of the bar taking them both in at 
once
pointed with his finger back and forth between the two of them
their reflections smiled at them 
                                                                                                 
That
 
--   Cant say I care for coy boys

--   Im a pushover
for coy girls
bareback ridin and rope tricks

What pushes you over 


--   Boys who aint coy


--   Youll love me

he smiled very large
until youre utterly passed out spent and exhausted and cant coy no more

--   Yer vergin on cocksure

--   Im havin fun

--
  
--

--   May I

--   Sure
Please

--   I was cuntsure  yawere cocksure



cuntsure

WOW

he may just have walked into the perpetually-revolving maddening door of love



                                                 Its never what youre looking for even when youre not looking


1653,  Monday,  29  9. 14 
Matthew 7:7  --  a busy guy