itd been awhile since he sported a
shiner
What did you do get in a fight
Yah
suddenly theres this vague unease
a
skittishness
and after very little time it becomes a blatant discomfort
he wasnt going to say anything more the ensuing silence the discomfort didnt belong to him
it wasnt his question he simply answered it
they excused themselves and left
and that was alright with him
hed be
damned if he was going anywhere
as if he should be ashamed or apologize for
having gotten into a fight nary askd the reason
for the fight
violence has a remarkable way of
making other people uncomfortable
coloring the one bearing the bruises as either stubborn or irrational
Really what rational person gets into
a fistfight
You dont think theres a rationale that
precedes a fight And whoever said it was a fistfight
Theres no need for violence
he could smell the condescension
None huh Youve lead a sheltered life Always at the front of the line to shake hands after a team competition huh
Theres nothing untoward about that Its
a healthy display of sportsmanship
Excuse me my mistake first in line to
shake hands Youve never been in a fight
I have not
You know I would have preferred you
had simply said no then I could have held out that you had though such an
admission now wouldnt truss your point
No I have not
I believe you You make me worry for
young men growing up You promote passivity a lack of passion
I think youre wrong to associate
violence with passion
I do Ive had sex that was damn near
violent I think the vernacular is rough
You havent have you
I dont talk about my sex life
Im not talking about my sex life Im
talking about violence and passion Put simply is there anything you feel
passionately about that you would fight for
Id have to think about it
Dont bother Passion isnt about
thinking Its reaction lust emotion and
sometimes if youre lucky you get away with only black eye for your trouble
So you find violence worthwhile Your
violence doesnt impress me
Youre ignorant My black eye isnt to
impress a fuckin soul I fought to offset odds
four on two improves on four on
one I take it youd call someone in
authority on your cellphone to manage the four on one And I dare say youd be the first to call it
in too
We choose our fights
Please stop youve never chosen Ever
maybe a conversation would have gone
that way
but they excused themselves and left
he wasnt going anywhere
between
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