when he and Cindi began their lives together they had each other 

they didnt have a pot to pee in  

but that was plenty

they had their youth enthusiasm  brains inside their skulls 

thats not enough anymorenot enough for anyone or any couple in their youth now

they went to college brieflywasnt their bag

so heads down they eked a living  50/50

he was physicalan athlete hated being indoors

he swung a hammer worked with homophobes humourless thickskulled yahoos

Cindi was an athlete too her acclaimprowess exceeding his she didnt mind the indoors

she became a flight attendant the big jobcorporate job one of them had to have by their reckoning

when Cindi athleteCindi got a little too full of herself he had to take her to the mat  that be mattress  and repeatedly took on her fire flames and dragons he couldnt say which he preferred more 

                                                                                  she got uppity he dressed her down

Ohso you think you’re the man? girl had spirit a goodly dose of testosterone

Fuckyah man for the job    

she had to beg him to stop 

Cum one more time an Ill think about it

thats called entertainment

they didnt have money

they couldnt afford a television a radio or the electricity to run them

Whadaya wanna do

I donknow, whadaya wanna do?

Donknow

Donknow?  You donknow? her eyebrow ticked up  Must be something yawanna do.

Yah  Now that you mention it there is 

Whadaya wanna do?

I wanna do you

shed laugh outlouddidnt cover her mouth That’s funny. I wanna do you too.

they stitched purpose and sex an sex an purpose seamlessly recharged hit the pavement the next day and didnt come home until they made enough for the day and the day after that

paycheck to paycheck

                        until Cindi broke out got the corporate gig

he wasnt there to celebrate with her

hed taken a fishing job

he didnt see her again until she was a full-fledged flight attendant

it was nice to be together again and for the first time ahead of the game

the game today isnt meant to get ahead of

                                             its slavery in its newest form  ITeration

there are still slaveowners

there is still another Nat Turner to rise

1309,  Sunday,  3  5. 20

1022,  Monday,  4  5. 20

Survivor  Eye of the Tiger  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FLZS3jQPnKw

4 dead 50 years ago

4 students died at the hands of the National Guards in Ohio 50 years ago

good to learngood to remember

                                  a lesson for today with a government not adverse to students or citizens dying in droves

https://www.nbcnews.com/news/us-news/kent-state-massacre-shootings-college-campus-50-years-ago-changed-n1197676

1902,  Monday,  4  5. 20

Neil Young  4 Dead in Ohio  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J9INnMMwvnk

Tennessee Ernie Ford  This is My Cuntry  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-zqoR3yWu2k

Jesus  Christ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fRea4yIE7_8

                talkin out of both sides of his face Secretary of State Pompeo – generously labeled and self-inflated – insists significant evidence has revealed (5:53 minute-mark) the novel coronavirus was created in a Chinese lab  however when Martha Raddaz questions him insisting that US Intelligence disagrees with him (6:05 minute-mark) Pompeo flawlessly reverses himself and agrees with Intelligence

cant have it both ways prick

2000,  Monday,  4  5. 20  

Dr Fauci virus jumped species  

https://www.nationalgeographic.com/science/2020/05/anthony-fauci-no-scientific-evidence-the-coronavirus-was-made-in-a-chinese-lab-cvd/

69,579

             Ssssh  don tell him   its a secret       hes killin his base

1757,  Monday,  4  5. 20

Thats a nifty trick Herr Drumpf

                                 muzzling your White House coronavirus task force members from testifying before Congress  denying Congress it oversight responsibilities

White House deputy press secretary Judd Deere whod he blow for the job said in a statement “We are committed to working with Congress to offer testimony at the appropriate time.”

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/politics/white-house-prohibits-coronavirus-task-force-members-from-testifying-before-congress-in-may/ar-BB13ABG7?li=BBnb7Kz&ocid=mailsignout

he didnt knowhe could be wrong but he thought during the coronavirus pandemic might be an appropriate time

bunch of entitled knuckledraggers at the tippy-top shape

1514,  Monday,  4  5. 20

U S A

a chant went up  U S A   U S A   U S A  in the wings of the Lincoln Memorial Sunday evening   

                                                                                                        then it occurred to him  it wasnt a chant for the United States of America No  

it was a chant for the United Sociopaths of America

                                                       three and a half years in he finally got it   Fuuck 

1340,  Monday,  4  5. 20

Ahyah  yah gotit    he remembered   it had been grating his brain like a coarse wood file  Ey got it

                                                                                                              Big Bang  thats what happens when you get pulled out from under your routinethe yokethe grind ya gotta remember things aint at your elbow no more

some people needed routine 

he wasnt sure he was one of them
                                     but there was that glaring obeisance to hardwork putting his head downdigging in the grunting and sweat

thats why his body was in the shape it was

nobodys going to do the lifting for younot for your benefit 

it falls on your shoulders 

so fuckin shaddupquit bellyaching   do it

Big Bang
           not forgotten misplaced  but like most things he couldnt find or remember immediately he bet on a family trait
it was in a safe place

it was a trait or characteristic founded by his wife and ran replete through him and their five childrenfive daughters – he was surrounded by a hoard of old souls – he often remarked “growing up” which included him – there was something to be said about growing up in a house surrounded by beautiful fiercely-intelligent women

and he and his wife ran a democratic household 

if he wanted to watch pro football on Sundayscatch a Monday Night game  they voted  he had to go out

it didnt trouble him as much as he thought it would 
                                                      for it also bestowed upon him BEYOND HIS WILDEST DREAMS which werent democratic or aligned or a crapshoot that anyone wold have bet on that Time of the Month when all his girls were bleedingsix women and they bled at the same time  I LOVE YOU GRRLS!

besides not all the games were worth his a while 

so shining football the only professional sport that interested him his democracy could have been hell but he rather enjoyed the weekends with his wife and daughters his six beauties for the shortest portions of their lives

he didnt use the word knew it typically refrained  however to say he was blessed wouldnt have been inappropriate

Big Bang
           it had gone out of his head for the time beingother things filling itthings he didnt imagined in his life hed negotiated
            Whasa time being

                             an extraterrestrial a sensate peeking inside his skull playing with re-wiring neurons forgetting to post a warning or caution an informative sign of its entrance serial obscuration stretching oblong an oblonger an obloonger

hed written a text to his brotherinlaw of his dilemma hed left a key with him in case his brotherinlaw got luckyfound that he could get some loving his wife was restrictingwithholding his brotherinlaw stopped over to feed his cats

he told him which cupboard to find the coffee beans in  :  :  Tell me, man, Peet’syah, whats the bean? It’s slipped my mind.

:  :  U fucking kidding me? Big Bang? A tenet of our astrophysics, our source of Heavenly Bodies? We have stardust in our bones!

he hadnt forgetten he misplaced it and he remembered before his brotherinlaw chastised him via text

:  :  Ahead of you. I recalled. Peet’s Big Bang is the coffee. I remembered. Thank you for looking in the cupboard.

if his brotherinlaw texted back that he hadnt remembered hed coldly lambast him for putting up with the poor excuse of a woman his wife was

he didnt think hed have to

his brotherinlaw knew his wife was a piece of shit 
                                                      she was the right sex the wrong politics and religion

0259,  Day-between-Two0-Ts,  18  12. 19
1722,  Sunday,  3  5. 20