18.2.17





sometimes    though not all the time  he struggled to distinguish between what he dreamt and what is real(realities are different)



                           he knew her  and not from a dream  she stood unashamed across from him  frank  there wasnt anything in the world more attractive to him than a straightforward woman without the utility of wiles or coynot that she didnt possess them    but that she didnt try to use them on him

her lack of shame hinged on what she said to him
Youll forgive me if I am if were not  greedy   We cant help knowing what we know

she stood before a table around which other women sat 


he had not presumed greed accompanied not knowing
                                            stupid he was being stupid
of course greed attended ignorance

the week prior he read several ancient treatises translated under Ecos pen  and they were shocking  they revealed the learned men who wrote them men who could read and write when few did  were exceptionally cruel and ignorant
misogynists for the Church  Inquisitors

greed wires and binds and cobbles and disturbs and frets   

they were perfect cowards

yet at ease  unbound   she freely pronounced We cant help knowing what we know 

greed didnt inspire them



he liked her a lot

            he was confident hed like any of the women who sat behind her

they had bright cat eyes 

white teeth like wolves

and from out of their mouths when they exhaled curled deep blue breaths  they sighed with intelligence



when he bade her goodbye he wished her with his cock and tongue and fingers a sensational day(Heres mud in your eye) and if she could have stopped panting or didnt have her mouth full surely she would have thanked him politely

he thought to himself when he first saw the black leather collar she wore it was gauche  though he soon realised its utility  it was a fine handle to hold so not to lose her from behind and it assured she couldnt back away when he was before her

not that it didnt happenit wasnt a dream 



preternaturally he possessed a gift
women liked himfemales liked him

                         he convinced twins to try him together incited a curiosity if thered be a difference  anChrist there was  when he woke in the morning laying between themwho was the redhead   ahyes their best friendalso a twin  though her twin was stillborn   he was the last person in the world who would abuse or chide her of her sexual and drug anesthesia  and since he didnt fear clones he didnt fear if scientists got their hands on Hitlers genetic stuff  it could easily differentiate into a benevolent artista woman  he remembered reading of a Pharaohs sperm discovered in a canopic jar  the Eastern specialists conceded it might be viable  he remembered the Ice Man  when he was scientifically thawed for study an energetic imaginative scientist basted away and had his bastard    
                                  



women liked himfemales liked him

                          ever since he was a boy
ever since he tipped the scales at six months old at twentyseven pounds  warmpink and gurgling smiling he assembled a six-pak of wetnurses to feed him because his mother was tapped out  she really needed help and they were good-neighbor anxious

although had they peeled back his innocence-baby-veil they would have discovered he was as anxious as they



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