NOW (2113 – Saturday – 23 11. 24).

                                         What do you got?

Guess well find out

    You don’t sound very optimistic.

Im tryin to get past tha baby girls head

                                         Like marzipan  bright blue eyes

I usually don care for sweets

     She was delicious

That . . . . that . that’s not . optimistic.

Optic-mistic

              Youll note I said it asif it were hyphenated highfiendnated caffiend  callowfiendnated

An immature

inexperienced

fuckinup fiendishness

                        Like anything it takes works  It doesnt appear out of nowhere asif Touched by the Hand of God

    Hand of God.  Creating fiendishness?

Yakiddin me I bet sometimes He throws a handful of mud at the wall to see wha sticks

Hes a funny motherfucker wicked sense of humour

Hang your Son on a cross

                             Bit like eatin a babys head

I don’t think you got anything.

    You

Me?

Whayagot

Why you asking me?

You asked me

                Goes two ways wha ya got

I got you’re troubling me.

I said you’re troubling me.

Nothing?                                                                                                                     

As I understand an interviewing technique

                                                Remain silent  Anfor some reason it provokes the interviewee They become uncomfortable think they answered incorrectly or insufficiently an need to explain but theyre not givin a lead in any direction so they fill it with noise that has absolutely nothing to do with what was asked

    I have nightmares too.

It wasnt a nightmare

That was a nightmare.

Time comes I have one Ill tellya

    Now you sound optimistic.

I am

       Were treading in my reality my long an unwinding real

Long and unwinding . . .

                            Reel? Or real?

Spell

R E E L.   R E A L.

You said it

What do you mean?

Either orders accurate

he thought REEL REAL REAL REEL

                                       That’s uncomfortable.

However

            Accurate

    Wasn’t a nightmare?

Not according to what Ive witnessed

    You think you have PTSD?

Who doesnt   Baggage

                          Nobody gets out of childhood without baggage

taking in sun taking in vitamin D . . . or is it A

   dream

some may call it a nightmare

                               his dreams were other peoples nightmares

hes known this a longlong time

been insinuated he ought to be ashamed

he countered

              Like being wealthy  shitty job but somebodys got to do it         

    usually floored who tried to shame him

so he does his small part in the big scheme of things because

                                                                  this thingLife has to be a scheme a hoax

nothingNo Thing can be this full of shit by accident

or chaos is shit

or else were evolving into shit

    he called it a dream Wednesday night/morning to Thursday 1/17 – 1/18/2007

A DREAM

              eating a beautiful baby girls headHUH

maybe shouldnt be writing this in the sun in the light of day

                                                                   Darkness Required

from which it spawned

a sharp clean cut

                    amputation

rather than a decapitation

the childs face

wideeyed

serene

a hint of humour

                      she gurgled

Friday,  19  1. 07

1507,  Saturday,  23  11. 24

Paul Klee: One eyes sees, the other feels.

Octavio Paz: Truth is the vision closed eyes see.

Jonathan Swift: In the Land of the Blind, the one-eyed man is King.

    he watched the moonwatched Her  did not believe in a Man in the Moon

he is beside himself when the moon is fullbeside himself when her thinnest white cuticle present

they incite him

               the foreplay interplay intercourse innercoarse  grasped gaspedemptied

evolved 

revolved

rollved

ovoid

       not avoideddisregarded

    he watched keenly

saw

      witnessed

Hes out again

Whas in it for him

Come  You feel it

Yes

      Like a tide

An overwhelming tide

Yes

      

I always grab ahold of something so Im not shed Once I saw a Mariachi go

Their scream was horrible

Ive heard tell of tha Mariachi 

                                 Its true  I thought tha was a myth

No  True

    Eyes are the windows to the soul

Yes Hes graced us with tha

                               We see because he sees

ThankGawd for his eyes

either paperwork to either side of it January of 2006 or 2007

1214,  Saturday,  23  11. 24

it is a place

we never made

or arrived

a place of best intentions

a place together they could describe

if separate it differed only by slight shades

they could see it

                 feel the heat of its blush  its promise

just on the other side

of the next rise

it never waned

                 

                   not rise after rise

                                       after rise

                                                  after

                                                             rise

                                                                        after

after . . . .

it was a place

we never made

                  or will

cant

because

only he was now

he hadnt the will to be there without her

    to share

Tuesday,  2  1. 07

1133,  Saturday,  23  11. 24

There you are

she sat near the end of table in the lunch room facing the door she did that right half her sandwich was eaten remnants of fruit

she was chewing

napkin in hand

I was looking for you

stopped chewingcovered her mouth  Why? began chewing again

Your bio Mimieux  Yawrote onehunredanforty words of threehunredforty  I know I counted in those oneforty you twice described her stature

Coud have written Mimieuxs small a contraction a word saved the other onehunredanthirtyeight for composition  Id bet FourNine by her photo despite zip scale

You don’t bet.

No  Blackrimmed glasses Dutch Boy haircut   Oriental FourNine 

Oriental is inappropriate.

Not if I describe as Occidental

                                chuckled  An accidental to boot too   She looks all of eleven or twelve

She’s a woman.

ID her

I didn’t.

Fourteen tops Makeup makes the woman

    What’s your point?

Its a lousy bio of a person of interest I wanted to tell you to your face unlike your shenanigans

Oughta stick to your Neighbors column Question at the head Three responses vetted photos names ages cities beside their quotes

I don’t want to.

No you don

             Nepotism has advantages

she pushed her chair back stood straightened her A-line skirt

                                                                 It provides the benefit of Ironstone plat . .

. . Burleigh 

Yes.   Burleigh.  To eat your lunch from, silverware, mugs for your coffe . .

. . I eat from my lunchbox drink from the top of my thermos

    You do. Others don’t.

                            Could suppose they suffer benefits.

Letem

 

    You’ll excuse me.

Teed it up but Ill let it go

he left the roomdidnt hold the door for her as she came around the end of the table leaving her sandwich plate an coffee for someone else to cleanup

rainy dark AM,  Saturday,  23  11. 24

1000,  Saturday