12.5.22


MASTURBATE 
                           Makeya uncomfortable  Shouldnt

You can’t tell people shouldn’t. Moby flushed

Embarrasses you

No. flushes brighter his cheeks like an alcoholics

Your puss sez otherwise shit or get off the pot ya hang your hat on being honest lie to me baldface Whas your hangup
No hang up. 
Hung up
         Definitely  We aint among polite companydon pander to polite

Several people noticed when you said, they looked right at us.

Wouldnt notice
                Aint hungup on wha other people might think  If I wanted to know Id ask them to their face  Interlopers overhearers 
You said it quite loud.

I did yawere drifting on me Better than slap in the kisser Ya know how frequent ya drift

You confuse me.

Ya can interruptask for clarification Aint hard Ill remember where ya stopped me 
                                                                                      can do that
Like I can’t.
Not without a struggle 
                        Its painful to watch Moby

I wish you wouldn’t call me that

When ya dig out from under Ill stop 
                                      In the meantime it sticks like an unstrung spool of flypaper capeesh

Moby twisted like a fly stuck on flypaper  he was reticent to say

Capeesh

Yeah. I follow.

So be a good boy then an suck it up Ya don follow wha Im sayin say so none of this horseshit deer in the headlights act
I see it Ill call ya out  Imagine if I said CUNT
OhJesu . . 
. . Ya think masturbate unsettles people  cunt makes them loses their minds  polite peoplean suddenly everyones polite are offended  cunt spoils their ears  stabbed with a hot spike

But you understand you’re being impolite?

Im not talkin to them They eavesdrop at their own peril I don listen to them

It’s human nature . . but you’re not human.

No  not party to their Homo band of brothers an sisters

 

that conversation didnt happened

it might havecould have

it wasnt beyond him

he was provoked by masturbate
                                  writing it in a letter to his father he sat back  noted the -sturb- in the word  his mind loved his mind they were separate entities uttered disturbed 
                                                             made sense some people were disturbed by ma-sturb-ation

0931,  Thursday,  12  5. 22


   he didntdoodle   doodle

pen in hand pencil any lines he committed to paper became words 
                                                                      not hapless circles squiggles cartoonish creatures scenery seascapes sunsets

he might wonder why he couldnt relax  let go 
                                                but he didnt 
he knew
         he couldnt recreate what he saw in his head so he didnt doodle rather he used words 
                                                                                                     painted with words 
even now aware of doodling he didntcouldnt bring himself to try
WORDS 
         words occurred to him to make up to irritate to describe 
pages filled with print 
                       leave doodling to those artistically inclined

 

Granpaw, did you want to draw with me?

No thank you honey

Do you want to color with me?

No thank you

Why?

Yawanna go outside play catch take a walk

No.

Why

I don’t want to.

So then you see


they built a puzzle

they could do that together

0754,  Saturday,  7  5. 22
1232,  Thursday,  12  5. 22

peaceful coloured chalk protests

protests scribbled in coloured chalk aint vandalism Senator Collins

she knows that

but maybe someone told her it was she believed them then called the cops

he thought she was gullible

if he could hed tell her to her face

breathlessly shed deny it

0949,  Thursday, 12  5. 22
0303preferred,  Thursday
https://www.nytimes.com/2018/07/01/us/politics/susan-collins-supreme-court-nominee-abortion.html 
Tommy James and the Shondells  Crystal Blue Persuasion  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DQgunytVmIU


redemption

 revenge 
             was there an equation between them  a Venn diagram 
 he puzzled
had to dig in

redeem aint fucking couponsaint talkin capons  castratedneutered cockerels fattenedup for flesh
        regain or gain possession of something in exchange for payment clear a debt debt  sounded in kind like revenge
revenge ravenge rawvenge 
                           inflict hurtharm on someone for an injury or wrong suffered at their hands
clear a debt
             hurtharm someone for an injury a wrong  a debt incurred

not an = proposition 
                      but in the ballpark  an inside the park homerun was rare

Venning it a large crystallinered sphere of revenge
                                                     redemption far smaller less inflamed  a subset floating inside revenge  embryo feeding off its yolk inside an egg 
                                                    a chip off the old block 
glint in the milkmans eye



Milkman. Yawannashaddup?

Shaddup

Yare dating yourself.

Aint dating fucknah  Being honest called masturbating roll the b masturdating   Shesh

1753,  Twosday,  10  5. 22
1944,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  11  5. 22
When You Were a Smile on Your Mother’s Lips  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cHQi1TFRnJU