15.11.18




he thought hed have timehe always did  when he died hed be muttering Wait I dont time right now got stuff to do usually meaning reading or writing
                                   he thought hed have time to begin a highbrow history published by Oxford University Press What Hath God Wrought: The Transformation of America, 1815 – 1843 he wanted to confirmwithout a doubt that the contempt and despise he held for Andrew Jackson wasnt misplaced or erroneous recently hed read Lincoln Steffens

It is our knowledge – the things we are sure of – that makes the world go wrong and keeps us from seeing and learning.

but his barbecue of Italian sausage roasted peppers and onions outside and inside assembling a fresh potato salad fresh sliced tomatoes and basil were docking himtaking him off the cerebral read

so he opteddownsized to scifi  Head On
                                           which isnt to say that speculative scifi was truly downsizing

the two simply exercised a different muscle in his brain


frankly God Wroughting and Head On werent separated by much  though he could juggle the scifi abstract better while barbecuing assembling and slicing than digesting historical hard facts and sociopolitical wrangling



who was he kidding
                      when he looked around himself going between the outdoors and indoor he had hundreds of books on shelves in cabinets stacked on tables on the floor  his library  his antilibrary  more books and memorable lines and words than hed ever have time to read  which nevertheless didnt stopped him from acquiring more

when he died he wasnt leaving money to his children and grandchildren (greatgrandchildren yet remained to be seen  although given the climatic clusterfuck we seem intent to hand down and WE if were displeasedif we were offended that nothing was being done except loose Lip Service to confront the impending Horror then we ought to throwover the governments that are the intention of the stratified Status Quo they are people who believe in their spheres of influence armed spheres pharmaceutical spheres Elysiums that they can extend theirs through and beyond the Calamity and out its other side -- there was a game he played as a child  Time Bomb  you threw a black ticking sphere topped by a red fuse back and forth and whoever had the bomb in their hands when it went offCLICK! not even BLAM! you were out of the game – its not a game)   

nothing in history as yet is comparable to us handing off a BOMB to our unsuspecting generationgenerations its misery  its dystopia 

it was too soon to know if his grandchildren wanted childrenhe didnt want greatgrandchildren  a helluva admission  not unless the myopic len and blinkers were taken off and crushed  not unless rampant militarism Nationalism was defunded and those resources were turned like a loaded gun on the gamboling tentacled monster meant to disfigure and consume us

                   nothing otherwise could convince him his family ought to suffer hell on Earth


he was leaving his family books and vinyl records and Art



his hardworking body and liberal mind never could wrap itself around selfishness or avarice


his Fortune was  his want never outlegged his modest needs


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Time Bomb  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jZzZO-OZQCk