2.6.19


sometimes you find yourself in places you wished you hadnt been

he was never one of those guys who woke up in the morning and wanted to go coyote gnaw off their arm so they didnt wake the woman they spent the night with

everyone  inexorably   ends up in a bad fit on occasion


recently and he tried to forget prior times but they had a habit of coming rushing back on him like frat wannabes who he wished died of alcoholic overdoses Hey, man, that’s severe! Nobodys talking to you 
                                                                                         he figured everyone had selfexaminating gnomes cretins sitting on their shoulders passing hifalutin judgments  consciences  probably everyone except sociopaths psychopaths an blithering idiots 
                                                     he was damn sure retards didhis brother did  though belated
what did that say about the aforementioned  maybe they ought to be euthanized I’m right here. I haven’t gone anywhere Just checkin wonderin if you took coffee breaks  

as he was saying  recently   recently he found himself waiting in line at magazine and snack shop on an airline concourse

some guy stood behind him

uncomfortably close

the guy hemmed and hawed and hissed maybe trying to not be so quiet  hemming and hawing at the fat woman in a colourful moo-moo Or tent Hey! Again?  the fat woman was purchasing several fashion magazines gossip rags and chocolate candy bars

out of the mans contentious hisshe couldnt make out his words  though he ought to be able to keep that shit to himself he did he never audibilized but still he was reprimanded soundly 
                                                                     hisses dont have consonants or vowels theyre just composed of syrupy sounds stuck together on spittle  his seemed to suggest You really need chocolate?

he never coddled – who was he kidding – veiled contempt really drew his ire drew his sneaking contempt of contempt like a viper hunting and unrecognized by its prey

slowly he halfturned 
                       haaalted  
                                 but his head continued continued  continued its deliberate slow ratcheting strained at the muscles and tendons in his neck his eyes grew predatory then eyestalks grew and wiggling he transformed from a viper into a crab munching on pale greywhite corpse flesh

he fixed him with beady eyes You may not be saying but I hear you  I can hear you

his pinchers were anxious to pluck flesh from bonesthe man probably saw his hands working in and out of fists  not that he was conscious that he was

the message transcended his I can hear you

he saw his point was taken

then
      the muscles and tendons in his neck relaxed

and then 
           he pinioned out of his halfturn

the clerk called to him

the fat lady was gone

he was next in line


he smiled at the clerk

the clerk smiled in return and said  I appreciate your patience, sir.

Thank you  I appreciate you saying as much    



1019,  Thursday,  16  5. 19
1646,  Monday,  27  5. 19


                                        a flower doesnt know its dying until it sees its petals fading  and falling

1106,  Sunday,  2  6. 19