30.11.19


       four slender men  unimposing   which was probably why the four came
approached him from behind as he gassed his car

they hid their identities behind tall limpnecked misshapenheaded giraffe masks
they did seem tall 
                      asif they believed height had anything to do with being imposing or threatening 

he caught their impracticalcomic approach a brief glance over his shoulder but ignored them  ignoring them even when it became apparent they came to the gas station in among the gas pumps for him

the one at the head said snidely You’re filling up with cheap gas.

You know you get what you pay for, right? 

Yes. Thank you  Twoseventyone a gallon  Cheapest Ive found in a while  Thats an excellent observation uh uhah Jeffrey that leapt into his mindthe Toys ‘R Us maskcot An while youre at it yamight also know Im not inclined to pay for your attention

It isn’t good gas; and you don’t have to pay for our attention. You have it.

You have our unflappable, dogged attention.

Wow lucky me he said as tossed an eye up and down the skinny mans googlyeyed lopsided mask Dogged Im hardpressed to buy dogged    

Anyways the gas gets me where Im going an yacan keep your attention

lazy lefteye Jeffrey strodesuddenly from between the pumps and violently slapped the gas nozzle out of his handdousing his pants and bleeding enough down the side of the car and under it to inform him of his peril 

he smiled unperturbed Think ya got little on your sleeve there Jeffrey he pointed  and pointing his sleeve dribbled gas onto the wetted concrete apron 

his smile fell when Jeffrey produced an worn nickel cigarette lighter flipped it openstruck it on his palm its flame was broad  undulating


Seems I find myself in a jam

Yes. A jam. You should walk this way he said as he slowly backed off the red edged platform the gas pumps stood on

he couldnt help himself  Yawant I should walk backwards  

I dont care how you walk, man, as long as you walk this way.

stepping after Jeffrey his shoes sloshed

the other Jeffreys swung in around behind himto his sides


nobodynot a fucking soul seemed to pay attention to the motley crew they comprised asif it was common that twoleguged queercountenanced giraffes walked a guy who looked like he pissed in his pants
not odd at all  huh
                     but he knew he was deep in times of when people kept to themselvesminded their own business didnt go lookin for trouble

if it was him hedve said something but that was his nature

his skin was also his nature 

he didnt wanna spend months healing from burned flesh  No

Bide your time bide your time

Its just a matter of time

its always been just a matter of time an the ability to recognise opportunity

he was no shrinking violet he didnt look good in a skirt

he assumed he was taking a walk with these gentlemen at least until they proved themselves not to be gentlemen



they walked across the enormous Truck Stop parking lot

at the far end of the lotobscured by distancewhen Jeffrey slapped the lighter closed the three other giraffes jumped him and held him down 

Jeffrey yanked a fashioned two-noosed length of rope from his jacketcinched his hands behind him with one noose slipped the other over his headaround his throat 

as long as he held his arms up high behind him he wouldnt strangle himself

they went through a rent cut the chainlink fence that was the lots demarcation Good old property rights then walked forward into the desert brown sand brackish sand startlingwhite sand Ought to be an ocean around here somewhere but the nonexistent sea was curtailed by thorny bushes thick forbidding brush happy alienshaped cacti and other forms of bizarre vegetation he couldnt identify for his life but dug that they made their solitary lives in the desert

give it time . . . the desert is beautiful . . . . and as desirable as a kid sister when all the other women had dried up and blown away because he wasnt a peach he must have been hallucinating  he didnt have a kid sister and women he met tended to be wet


deeper into the desert Jeffrey wrapped a leash around his waist as his throat was otherwise engaged and pulled him forward faster setting the pace  a pace he had been delaying
                                                          Okay  so he played a game of Trustclosing his eyesfiguring the bastard wouldnt walk him over a drop evidently they wanted himwhodafuck knew what for a little girl whose mother busied herself on her backher kneesher belly providing for her and her daughter took a fancy to him  Trust was a game the little girl liked to play Hold onto the end of my skip rope Close your eyes And I’ll walk you down the street, and you have to trust me that I won’t walk you into something? telegraphing

she almost walked him into a post
he was peeking slyly 
HEY!
Hey nothing You almost walked me into that post
You’re supposed to trust me.
Kid I dont trust anyone but myself Something you ought to learn
I know.

You know

I know.


So why were we playing Trust

I wanted to know if you knew.

You had doubts

My Mommie makes me doubt.

Youre Mommies tryin hard doin what she can

It isn’t working.

You eating

Yes.

Youre clothedhave a place to live

Yes.

Youre in school

Yes.

Whaelse yawant out of her


I want her time.

We all wantwanted our parents time  Its something they sell to provide for us

I want . .
. . I wanI wan  I wanTAH

Ya get whacha need if your lucky

she pouted

Come on Ill buy you a carton of milk and a donut




he opened his eyes in time to catch that they were walking up on a shell of a stone cabin its roof had collapsed into it a small outbuilding beside it that smelled of a coopchickens stacked tires to either side of the timber that formed the short entrance that the giraffes couldnt enter without defrockingdecapitating exposing themselves he was sure he didnt know them he was sure they didnt want him to know them

he smelled water tepid  that he could smell water and hadnt pissed informed him he was thirsty

the water smelled like rubber

water inside the tires

he veered towards the broken shacks entrance

Jeffrey pulled on him

Jeffrey was slight

he pulled Jeffrey

Miuthafucker!

You betcha I may have fucked your old ladymebbe why youre part of this getup Im thirsty

staggering over to the stacked tiresdragging Jeffreypushing bodily against the other three clowns who tried to impede him he made the tire to the right of the emptied doorway  no water 
                                                                      he crossed left  AwhChrist 
shallow water
two fish inverted in it
                       bluegills
bluegills inflated like porcupine fish they had sucked up what water they could hold and was recirculating it over their gills to breathe their tails and backs dryshrunken Do whacha need to do to survive  
                                                                                    FUCK THIS! in a suddenhe jerked his arms downstraightened his backjerked forward he didnt snap his neck choked briefly then rope snappedPOP!ped apparently rotted hemp

in the next moment he yanked his arms outwardPOP!
                                            he was a freed muthafucker
except for Eeny Meeny Miny Moe clamouring around him unsure what to do he conferred Moe on Jeffrey Moe had been from his Three Stooges viewing days  the apparent ringleader

he scooped handfuls of water out from around the fish drinking his fill 

the clods and Moe closed rank around him tentatively  Drink he said I heard your canteens rattle against your thighs CUNTS  


Now what

Moe said  We keep walking

Im supposed to follow you or youll pursuefollow me

We know where we’re going.

Theres that however I aint going anywhere without the fish

The fish?

Damnright  I aint leaving themtheyre innocent Im sick of Innocence being sacrificed for the selfish

I suppose Im drawing a line in theHA sand  or we can have it out here  I aint troubled by the odds


they balked
             Awright lose the hats all of ya Knot two of them  A bluegill in each Empty your canteens into them I hope to hell youre close to where it is youre takin me otherwise youre gonna get mighty thirsty


Eeny Meeny Miny Moe did as they were told


he humped the knotted giraffe heads onto his shoulder and followed the defrocked into the falling dusk and night



where they ended up was anyone guess 
                                             he woke from his dream
  

1037,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  27  11. 19
1720,  Friday,  29  11. 19
Everly Brothers  All I Have To Do Is Dream  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tbU3zdAgiX8 
War  Slippin’ into Darkness  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6L-2IQMDwcA