10.4.15



on occasion
                    she sucked every bit of oxygen out of the room   crowded it with her
undaunted presence
and that  Overbearingness(if he would) 
  
she didnt have


had she  it would have favored her

unfortunately she sided with making nice
usually at her deficit
                                  making damn sure everyone else was lined up ahead of her
he couldnt turn her around or otherwise

when he needed her help then
she refused
                   Now when she comes around he finds
she wields it flawlessly  
held confined in a brisk steady hand
 
never occurs to him to chide her   
                                                   remark   Its about time
                                                                                         Time was no longer theirs
to play in
   
she came Now wholly at her discretion  a nonblinking Singularity
                                                                                                            seeking him   and he 
it was his to Wait
   
until she came

he had no force to deliberately invoke or provoke her presence
he had to sit there and take her when she came
                                                                                                                                          How very  Strange  it is
                 
how very strange she didnt have it when having it would have been marvelous  Then
pertinent
a keen edge held to the throats of those who diminished her when she was here 

before    
           she chose to leave

and now that she has it she wastes it on him
when he                           
               was the one who adamantly tried to take her by the shoulders   firmly
and keep her at the front of the line 

she didnt like it when he did it
he knew it
hed say
--   Thats too damn bad
curtly
because he was done with the abuse they heaped on her
if he wasnt with her  an outlier  hed have been in their midst with mad fists and sharp elbows before they knew what hit them

violence   has its purpose
maybe a last resort
  
and they were due

they were long   overdue


Too damn bad now

he supposed her breathless stops Now
harkened him
                         --   Thats too damn bad 

                                                                                                                  
                                                                       but shes just too damn polite to say so herself

 


0939,  Saturday,  4  4. 15
1347,  Easter Sunday,  5  4. 15