22.4.18


he woke one morning  five years ago  yah   easily five years ago   he laid there beside his girlfriend and noticed a spider working its way across the white textured wall at his feet  about an inch an a half down from where the ceiling joined the wall  if the house had crown moulding itd be negotiating it instead  but nobody fashioned houses with crown moulding these daysrarely  the last carpentry gig he worked he did  but that was better than twenty years ago and he worked for wealthy clients  craftsmen still get those gigs  carpenterson the other hand  pneumatic hammers  throw up slaptraps  were bitched  one could argue it was an unnecessary expense a waste of material that modernity is made up of clean precise lines  the litany of excuses  had crown moulding suddenly appeared it would crush his little bughis little transverser

he or she moseyed across the wall deftly defying gravity  nearly seven eight feet  then stopped 

she or he started up hesitated began again he thought to himself staggered  he tried to imagine eight legs staggering what would that loss of coordination look like up close

they stopped again


he listened to his girlfriend breathing she pursed her lips pouted  her look made him want to kiss her  she probably gnawed at her mouthguard  she grind her teeth  stress her doctor said her dentist said   stress
maybe just being a woman was stressful  

she wasnt the only woman he knew who wore a mouthguard to bed  his daughters   huh maybe he was their commonalitytheir criminal  they shared intimate relations with him   nah  he was chill he steered clear of stressful situations  stress was a killer he enjoyed life too much when his eyes popped open in the morning he smiled  he was elated he was granted another day of livinganother day to enjoy the adventure  he was nearly ridiculous about it


they never moved again the spider died before his very eyes

he felt bad

he reverse-engineered its life emerging from its gauzy egg sac amid a myriad of siblings all out for the same thing food  tiny mighty mites falling on prey becoming prey then somehow she or he found their way inside his house how long did that take how old or young were they


they were going to stay there pat until their carapace broke free




Are you ever going to brush that spider down off the wall?

he turned left took an elbow  Good morning beautiful

Good morning. I’ve been watching you. You’ve been watching the spider.

I have

You seemed lost in thought.

You know me Im always looking to get lost


So?

So

The spider.

No


It’s beenwhat four years?

Five years They died early winter of the fall we moved in 

Is its remains some kind of edifice?

No

Why haven’t you taken it down?

Reminds me of she or he he or she  that I cant walk on walls or subsist entirely on my wiles kill to survive


Jesus, Joe. That’s a tall order.

Aint it


0958,  Saturday,  21  4. 18