16.3.21

 

sounds like maudlin  aint though     maudlin  maudlin  ahh  Madeleine  remembered  unfortunate manner to recall her name but when she said it he heard maudlin before Madeleine registered 
                                                                                 he wouldnt admit that to her she was a looker and better when she worked she put her nose to the grindstone 
                                                                           he liked women who tried to keep up with him
women tried

men gave up

he found that interesting

he didnt make it a competition

shit needed to be done 
                        fucking do it you can eat when its over                                       

apparently men needed more comfort

or these men who presented for a days work 


Madeleine was all elbows and knees

he pointed That needs to be done

he walked away

how she did it was her business

Done. she said

he walked over to another quadrant in the building That

shed hit it 



he had to go outside

he went to his rucksack 
                          Goddamn his rebreather was low looking at it he calculated itd be good for the trip back but just the trip back 
                   he fucked up by not replenishing it he was accountable
no shame in erring

he walked back over to Madeleine watched her work as he approached  she was oblivious

MADELEINE maudlin echoing in his inner ears as he said  made him smile slightly 

she turned and caught his smile 
                                   Something funny?

Im funny My rebreathers short My mistake I gotta head outside for a bit Do you think you have sufficient reserve to share with me

You mean, do I think I replenished my rebreather last night? now she was smiling a superior smile 
                                                                                                          she was correct

Yes Excuse me let me restate my question I did not replenish my rebreather last night may I borrow yours

Yes. It’s in the maroon leather bag at the door. A newer rebreather, configured differently from your . antique.

My antique

she raised her eyeslooked left towards the shambled ceiling dangling fixtures

You noticed

Noticed? I haven’t seen anything like it in years . . maybe . last time . . . in a museu . . 
. . Hey now  ya tryin to hurt my fee . . 
. . Aren’t you the guy who said he has no feelings? 

I am

Then . . shut up. 
                  Help yourself.

Thank you

You’re welcome. 
                 Thinking though, maybe I ought to come with you to fit it properly.

Thats okay While I may not have one I am familiar with them  Just prefer mine

It’s cumbersome, why would you prefer something cumbersome?

One old habits die hard Two it worksworks like an old hammer Would you quit using a hammer because it was old 


Good point. I will admit it is refreshing to see a relic.

Ya gotta look at me while yare sayin that

Was I looking at you? 
                       she smiled widely

Ya got a handsome grin

Thank you. 
            Maroon. Only one like it by the egress. That’s my . individual flair, if you will.

Thank you

You’re welcome. 
                  she turned her back to resume the salvaging and demolition

 

Damn he said to himself these rebreathers are crazy compact  
                                                                  her bag wasnt much larger than a modest purse a pullstrap threaded through eyelets at its neck they were brass and verdigris 
                                                                                 Someone else favours functional older things alsogive me a hard time he chuckled

he untied the looseknot pulled at the neck it retained its pursing he stuck two fingers in began working it  Gawddamn  Tight  anworkin it he didnt wonder why he felt a shiver at his perineum that cinched his balls thickened his cock 
Motherfuck
                this was sexual

 

HEY

she turned from her work she was almost as faralong as he would have been

Thank you  Your . ah . . bag

Yes? Like my bag? 
                    she smiled lasciviously It gets me right here – she grabbed herself between the legs – when I try getting into it.

Yah I gotta get me one of those 

Erotic, huh?

Ohyah

dreamed through early morning,  Twosday,  16  3. 21
1533 or 333,  Twosday,  16  3. 21

 

 

Fort Campbell Kentucky

he only knew of it because his father was stationed their during the Korean War he had two skillsets the military became interested in other than he was conscripted a warm body
he had a steadfast skill for clerical work organisation time study  and he volunteered to be a paratrooper 
nobody did things faster than his old man once he analysed and determined what were needless steps Waste. he said  Time’s a wasting!                                                                                                                              his old man meant it
paratroopers werent utilised during the Korean campaign                                                                                                                               his old man knew that  and thats why he volunteered to become a paratrooper  he analysed that and determined its uselessness  its needlessness
his old man was a sharp cookie
he was nobodys fool
nobody  except for his mother                                                                                                                              head over heels fool 
but when someone falls in love they should be head over heels  otherwise  dont waste your time  pay for a clandestine fuck out of the neighbourhood so nobodys the wiser 

he could imagine then as now there were lots of wisenheimers who would want to play around in anothers life for no other reason than they could cause them grief with innuendo gossip anif that didnt cut it malicious lies  some kind of perverted satisfaction  it gave them something to do  they were precursors to the end-of-century reality television shows  precursors to Shit television  Crap cable 

he quit watching television at their advent

he recognised he couldnt buy into their extentions that sudden spat of social media My Space book of Face dazzling breathtaking shit which imagined influencers or talking heads could seduce audiences 

he realised that they were talking out of their ass FOX  then with their text  then with commentators  asif hed fall for their lines that hed buy into were they informing himHA he didnt need anyone to tell him what he just heard or read  these clowns certainly didnt fit into his old mans scheme of efficiency his old man saw to it that redundancy was decapitated naturally it was reasonably and intellectually the first thing to be disposed   A  Waste  of  Time  

 

Joe, you remember Canary Barbecue on Carrol Avenue where meat turned on spits in the front window to bring you in.

No Dad  believe that was before my time

Ah, yes, yes, correct, you were probably just a baby last time we went; but I took your Mom there on a couple dates before I was drafted.

After Donny Bohrisch Jimmy Goodman introduced you to her at the company picnic yah

Yes. She was in an art class with them at Tuley. Chicago Printed String Company. Papa Vogl’s enterprise, or rather I should say Charlie Weiner’s enterprise too. I worked at the Western Avenue facility, you’re mother worked at Logan Boulevard, Logan Square. The Company threw picnics for employees. If you worked for them they treated you to a summer picnic and a Christmas Gala.

They were Jewish right

Yes, virtually all their employees were gentiles though, at least those who worked on the floor or in the lunchrooms. They treated us very well, and we didn’t ever want to disappoint them. Everyone worked hard. No one took anything for granted. Everyone benefitted.

 

 

the reason why he called and brought up Fort Campbell was because he wanted to be sure his Dad still had the little porcelain skunk figurine kept inside in a wood cage he mailed his Maw while they were courting

since she had died a lot of things were leaving his fathers house and he wanted to be sure no onehis siblings had liberated things they shouldnt have

Shit his sister took his parents wedding album                                                                                                                              Take it back
He told me I could have it.

I could give a fuck Take it back When hes dead you can have it Wha are you thinkin

I asked him and he said I could have it.

You asked Why would you fuckin ask him to have his wedding album Ya ever hear of elder abuse Take it back When I come to visit he doesnt have it Ill come see youya don want me comin to see you about his wedding albumChrist awmighty wha are you thinkin 

 

I sure do, it’s on my highboy. his father kept it on his highboy for as long as he could remember he had a long memory Ain’t never gonna lose track of it. I mailed it to your Mom from Missouri, bought it in a dimestore in a small town outside Camp Crowder when Gene, Mr. Sands, Gene and I were there to escort prisoners back to Fort Campbell.

Your mother was my My Li’l Stinker, as the label on the top of the cage says.

She still is now and forever

Thank you for saying so, son.

Of course Dad                                                                                                                              Its the little things isnt it

Yes it is. Thank you for reviving some memories I might not have returned to without you asking.

Yare welcome I promise to be a thorn in your paw the burr under your saddle

The pea under my mattress?

Lets not get ridiculous

 

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