20.4.19






he looked off the bridge down into the creek for the turtle he spied weeks ago during the rains 

it had been keeping towards the bank sunning on a concrete footing to what must have been an earlier bridge 

the water flowed just inches beneath its perch 

if approached it could step a couple of times and be in the stillquick flowing water

he looked for it

it wasnt there today not as it had been when he took random peek-sees


looking today he thought a quake in his gut Why do I have to look at soddensunken cardboard boxes shopping baskets a cart the sole of a ditched gym shoe Taint fucking taint everywhere  it reminded him of plasticsthe sinister microplastics in the oceans in the guts of birds whales fish turtles he was finally wrapping his head around the factthe fact that the worldthe way it was being treated by humans  by their enormous fucking brains  by sociopathic corporations who would win at any cost  who werent being competitive or ambitious rather call it exactly what it was greed  business greed synonymous the world has become nothing more a dump a trash heap  hundreds of thousands millions knew that but he inhabitinginculcated in the First World shouldnt the whole world be the First World was slow they knew EARTH/TRASH HEAP longer than he no apologeezs would suffice

his Homo sapiens species everyone alive are Homo sapiens the Neandertals Denisovans other human species were sent packing died more likely killed off his vastly communicative social species founded by Mitochondrial Eve she-whose-voicebox-articulations-created-language is kicking the can down the road for future can-kickers and refuses to assume the responsibility for deflowering despoiling the Earth more rapidly than any prior generation  


he wasnt a betting man
                       but hed bet his life savings he did save human Armageddon was going to be horrible  painful  ugly he could only wonder what dominant species would come next possibly cockroaches living doesnt demand overt intelligence or intellect they have slithered among us stealthily since living among the Terrible Lizardsthe dinosaurs or maybe soft pliable octopuses  landmass is disappearing    maybe theyll get a tentaclehold


maybe he ought to quit looking off bridges

noonish,  Monday,  15  4. 19
1227,  Reggae Friday,  19  4. 19
optimistic Zager and Evans  In the Year 2525  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zKQfxi8V5FA  




he looked into thingshe couldnt help himself   

he liked to think he might be curiositys fingersits wantonwondering prestidigitation planted on the planet to irk  invoke  evoke   a regular pain in the ass

his parents assessed him exactly that when he wasnt more than nine

at nine he suffered an epiphany
                                  his life belonged to him an no one other than himself 

he ditched any machinationsqueer gears turned by anyone who thought they would have him tender them service
if it didnt please him

he lived for his pleasure 
                        no one elses 
kids his age then didnt follow  What are your parents gonna say, your teachers? 

I dont care what they say

they like he had lives of their own an they were welcome to them  he wasnt gonna tell them what to do  the least they could do was not tell him what to do
                                  an like Magick
his contentions were so much horseshit
                                          who did he think he was

he would have posed it differently  Who the fuck do you think you are?   



he knew exactly who he was


1325,  Saturday,  20  4. 19 an he wasnt even stoned

Shakey Graves  Unlucky Skin  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UANygW0DA28 
Johnny Cash  I Won’t Back Down  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7LBYrDx_784