I just can’t imagine.

Its simple

            Football on TV had been social

Im no longer social

Ive never been interested in the athletes their lives celebrity  what theyre paid to pitch

Not since Dandy Don Howard Costello Frank Gifford have talking heads said a word I want to hear

    Its about the game

When its over  highlights culled  assembled

                                                 I watch online

I enjoy its muted distillation

You wouldn’t go out to a sports bar?

No

Go hang with friends?

If invited Id decline

                     I cant tolerate the commercials the challenges the games natural flow interrupted

Its humanity diminished

Not only can’t I imagine . . . can you imagine what not watching says about your masculinity?

 

 

    You evidently have concerns about yours

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. . . we’re concerned.

                        You’re alone.

Whos we whas your concern

That . . that was a little abrup . .

. . Warranted

                 Who

    The family. That you’re alone. You must be lonely.

Lonely thats an interesting concept

                                  Thas an interesting concept  You lonely

No. Heavens’s no.

                      I’m surrounded by family, friends, no, of course not.

    Why woud you think Im lonely

Because you’re alon . .

. . Thas   thas quite the loop the hamsterwheel youve got going

                                                                      Id say my environment is virtually stressfree you live stress freeI  I woud dare to think no

                                                            Youre welcome to correct me

You’re honest-to-God tellin . .

. . I am

Whas your truth  Stressfree

                                  Youve negated my pets   My ferals

Theyre entertaining as shit great company  No lip

They stress more than me

                            Terrorised by Latter-day Saints other Bible enthusiasts suddenly at the door

Disappear an hafhour hour at a time

                                        Become my incentive for me to terrorise whoever knocked

Fun an games

The delivery trucks UPS FedEx DHL United States Postal Service set them off too Packages to be had  DoorDash Uber Lyft groceries restaurant items  my cats freak

Though speaking for myself

                              So much water off a ducks back  I pay no attention  Nones for me

So no

          

         Not alone not lonely

You can inform the family please

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1524,  Thursday,  4  9. 25

DMT   didnt know prior to last night would be nice to say a li’l birdie told him so  in a senseJa  a female comedian

      the active ingredient found in the powerful Amazonian psychedelic ayahuasca vine which makes sense

a twiningclimbingclinginginsinuating vine  had a girlfriend like that once very briefly

   its also found in the pineal gland of rats

the acronym is for the chemical  dimethyltryptamine

                                                        tryptamines  he knew them their chemical structure is a shared feature of certain aminergic activated by or relates to an amine amine forms when one or more hydrogen atoms in ammonia are replaced by alkyl or aryl groups  can you say rabbithole? aminergic neuromodulators including melatonin serotonin psychedelic derivative now were talking such as psilocybin psilocin & yes DMT

DeMenTed

turns out it presents in human minds at deaths doorstep or immediatelythereafter a surge as the brain throws down everything is has to survive concerned only for itself theirself which most human beings excel at

he imagined his reptilian brain trying to eat its tail ouroboros our borough conceptualising eternity dying hell enter timelessness cyclical renewal reincarceration the elastic unity of opposites

Got to get me some of that

                                be it a chemical cocktail hed even take it on the rocks

he really didnt want to wait to die to have the most stupendous trip of his life  ?    

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1116,  Thursday,  4  9. 25

https://thehill.com/homenews/state-watch/3982026-human-brains-show-larger-than-life-activity-at-moment-of-death/

tryptamines  https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/25877327/

Heybaby  Wheres your chicken  october  wheres your little chicken your mauled fowl it knocked-for-a-loop

    Wheres your little chicken

the shabby stitchedfabric chicken has bonded them 

                                                   FETCH

its their toy

october enters the study  oncecurious mews muffled

                                                        chicken in her mouth

she drops it at his feet where hes sitting

picking it up he acts like hes gnawing on it yumyumyumming as he does This soo good honey

he holds it out to her

                       Did you want a bite

Frisbeelike he flings it out the door into the hall shes in hot pursuit

                                                                      it bounces  she boundsshe pounces

prey stuffed in her mouth she bolts into the livingroom mewing around it

shes back in five for another bout  bond

 

    october fetches

some people think dogs are smart Lassie for example  Rin Tin Tin  because they can do tricks Heel Rollover  Play dead

KILL   

because they fetch

october isnt really playing Fetch

    shes mocking dogs

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0834,  Thursday