About time.

                 his feet

he was leaning against the cabinet the sink waiting for water to boil to make tea  he looked at his feet

they werent symmetric

    his right foot  his toes  longer than his lefthis left foot smaller

he pressed his heels against the kitchen baseboard

                                                         left was definitely smaller

It’s about time.

Back off woudya

                           Ive noticed  my face   it lacks symmetryits close  but its not symmetric

Despite gazing at it for years . unremittingly . . . it’s pretty obvious . considering when you started shaving.

Ja

       But Ive not paid attention

How have you not paid attention to your face?

                                                      Not been concerned?

    No

No Ive not

Since a boy Ive had a handsome face

                                          When handsome why woud one be  distracted

I was aware

I was aware girlswomen were attracted

    I took it for granted

Annot even as a boy when I entered Golden Gloves did I think about it being disfigured

                                                                                             Wasnt in the ring long enough to be badly damaged

    So. Ja.  Truly.

 

This is the first time you've truly assessed your feet?

    Ja

              Since my daughter died Ive made a point of grounding  Being barefooted  Connecting myself with the earth  ground  grass pebbles tarmac concrete

                                                            Feel  as my younger daughter woud say

Feel the feels

    I hadnt noticed

 

Well.

          Thank you for finally noticing.

Youre welcome 

1954,  Wednesday,  15  10. 25

she was an acquaintance

was trying to get closer

he wasnt having it

friendships come at a price he wasnt prepared willing to pay

 

quietly she began paying him a compliment

                                              as she did he averted his eyesremarked to others standing in the warmth of the propane fire ring that the full moon Beaver moon winked raised some chuckles would be up the following night  he was taking his daughters crystals out letting the moonlight cleanse them  was also making moonwater  enjoying a glass cistern he kept it in that was given to himblown by a friend for chuckled

a man who has everything  but nothing

Mistakenly he forgot my books art an vinyl

returning to their separate conversations she stepped very close to him

                                                                           You really can’t take a compliment.

No Come on now a little strong said mariachi  Donbe rude

                                                                 I appreciate the thought though find them unnecessary

Unnecessary?

Ja  I believe as me  you  understand your worthknow your abilities

Yes. But it’s nice to be complimented, nice to hearI like being complimented, you complimented me this evening, I looked attractive.

Donchadare tell her youre not nice  said mariachi

                                                      Ja  I understand you appreciate a compliment

However youre also aware albeit mystified I don

Theyre woven social   Society

                                   Im not            

You’re here.

Ive known our host since last century

                                        Whenever he chooses to invite me I come

An obligation?

Hes one of my very few friends

                                 Im not looking to make new ones saw her backbone slip

Time for a joke

                   I can tell you the last compliment I accepted

I accepted it because it was rhythmic  phonaesthetic  pleasing  euphonious to my ear

    backbone firmedup  Yes.

Made excellent sex

0920,  Monday – Indigenous Peoples Day,  13  10. 25

1134,  Wednesday,  15  10. 25