. . . (Eileen -- George Orwells wife) . . . looks at you for a minute before answering . . . At first we thought her affected, and were impatient of waiting for her comments. Later we realised that everything was important to her because her sense of life was so intense that she got the full impact of anything that turned up and saw it not isolated but with all its connections.

                                                                        Wifedom  Anna Funder

. . . not isolated  but with all its connections

                                                jah  thas was not him

he immediatelyisolated things 

his training indoctrination as a young student

outline form

I.  Intro

    A.

    B.

    C.

II.  First Supporting Point

  A.    Supporting Detail 

 1.    Example 

a.    source 

    B.s

    C.s

    D.s

        2.s and 3.s and 4.s and a.s and b.s and c.s unmercifully on and on and on until the Conclusion

whoever he argued had better have their ducks in a row or hed kill them on the ground in a pond without giving them an opportunity to take wing

Why you got to be like that, man?

Me

     Im prepared

Why arent you

     Im to take you at your fuckin word

 

Growup 

the connectedness Eileen absorbed in her silence her deliberation

                                                                        perhaps because she was a woman

had he been a woman

with his temperament

he would have been called a raging bitch

                                                 he got along famously with raging bitches             

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his kids came to him

they had every right to think he was born yesterday

they asked

gave him wide taxidermy eyes

    Didya ask your mother

they didnt say Fuck

their taxidermy eyes didnt

                               but deep

very deep in the well of their chests hanging in their bellows surly among their alveolus they whispered  Fuck

  echo  unmistakable

he knew that  why

because he hadnt brains enough to withhold Fuck but brains enough to hack out his belligerent character and make his folks realise that not backing down from them hed not back down from anyone

 

I thought as much.

fella picked him up to play in a sanctioned Minneapolis league no equipment tackle football

played two seasons

Runner-Up to city champions season one

City Champions second season

Thought as much

Yeah. You play a lot bigger than you are.

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Because  I said

    brother when he was a boy and his parents postedup with tha hed almost lose his shit

as a teenager

lost his shit

            No Thamay fly with the other kids but not me I ask a question I want an answer a legit answer  Youve an obligation If not to me why woud I be obligatedobliged to you

it wasnt until then that they quit shortchanging him

                                                          people treat you the way you let them treat you

crossed him he was immediately rudely in their faceno hesitation he wouldnt allow a nanosecond of assumed agreement acquiescence

 

his brother laughed

                        You could be such a prick.

Tha remains unchanged  Im proud of my prickdom

That’s my boy!

                You know what else I really disliked?

Nice  This in regards to the folks

Yes.

Im all ears

Ask your father. Ask your mother. Like they weren’t in accord, on the same page.

Eight kids  Ya better be

Always made me wonder why I was asking.

No wonder why we quit asking an just did caught suffered the consequences

                                                                                      Otherwise

Valhalla  Heaven

                    Slipped it pastem

Although

On occasion

You ratted me out

You were the big brother.

Can you recall a time I ratted on you

 

 

No

     Cuz I didnt

That’s on you, man, should have, ain’t cheatin’, ain’t tryin’.

    Fuck You

                         I may fly twothousand miles

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talking with his brother Irish twin on the telephone about their aged father

                                                                              . . . an he tells me whatever

Whatever?

Jah  Canya believe it I detest tha

                                     I can remember the first time my eldest rolled tha out on me

Bout lost my shit

Told her stand right there Id be back

I gathered the other kids an wife

We returned to the livingroom

                                    Pay fuckin attention

This one told me  whaever

Youre welcome to abuse each other  if you wish

Use it talkin to me

Ill rein hell down on your head

That work?

On occasion they slipped

And?

They were so rare I wasnt a cuntcoud have been  wasnt

I dislike it too, although I wouldn’t have expected it out of Dad.

Not at all

            Nearly blew my mind

But he was correct, Friday. You didn’t nail down the date.

On a Tuesday a Friday  if not the forthcoming Friday  would have been appropriate he said not this Friday next

He’s eigh . .

. . Quit  Quit with tha excuse

                                 Someones age is only a calendar event

Ones age is how old they are in their head

No matter.

Im not a fan of no matter either

What?  You gonna rein hell down on my head?

No

        Not travelin twothousand miles to deliver tha

they laughed

 

Know whaelse I detested  Never used it with my kids

Oh.  Your detest runs deep.

Rooted in my childhood

                             Because

Remember when the folks woud cut us short   Because

Ohshit, yeah. I wasn’t keen on that eithe . .

. . But  yawanna know wha I detested more than tha

chuckled  This ought to be a doozy.

When they said  Because   I said

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he kneweven before mentioning it  buddyboy would be a pain in the ass

it was obviousutilising an old adage to a blind man

                                                        Curious or inquisitive  Which is on top

Why does one have to be on top the other?

    Because its obvious

I don’t see it that way.

Awright

              Lemme helpya

Well make the pair linear  utilise your two parallel horizontal wavy lines  approximately  or the two parallel horizontal arrows  one above pointing right the second pointing left  indicative of chemical equilibrium

    Tha satisfy you

Which word woud you write left an which right

Ill even go so far as to identify the word left as A an right Aprime

I don’t think so.

Sorry bro cant have your cake an eat it too

Either one over the other or side by sidewhich  is left  is A

                                                                Were not entertaining a Venn diagram

I think a Ven . .

. . When you author the comparison youre welcome to it

 

 

Curious lef . .

. . Was it tha hardChrist

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once Naomi Wolf

now  whatever this shit is

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if he had to guess  forming up with all the other cunts  they be malesmostly  an females