it had been an outdoor terra cotta
paver patio
the last home owners coopted it
and incorporated into the house
they did it poorly
or they hired
someone who did it poorly
few electrical boxesoutlets sketchy overhead canned lights set on dimmers
that maybe worked or didnt
lousy insulationlousy glazer illfitting broad doubledoor way which bled
energy when hot air was run during winter or airconditioning during hot summers
if
a parasite could be a room itd be this
spacethis sunroom
however it wormed its way into their livestheir
hearts
his daughter and soninlaw seldom
utilised it like a scab they didnt want to
pick so not to scar
it was an empty room save for the
far end that abutted a common wall with their office it was a wall of shelves and held their
accumulated library photograph albums and Blu-rays before they opted for Cloud or iCloud
he wasnt a fan of
electronics and its thievery
the sunroom was ten feet deepeighteen
wide
he told them itd be great for a
ninefoot tournament pocket billiard tablehe was ticklingtempting their memories
of pool halls and bars they played in before they married
he thoughthe wasnt sure if he
heard it in his daughters voice his soninlaws or their voices commingled When I was a child yadayadayada I put away
childish things Fuuck you Yaplay computer gamesya create avatars Dont talk to me about putting away childish
things
he hustled
pool he made a lot of money he had scars on his head from his scalp split
by cues in the hands of bad losers
which was better than a knife in the guts
Nevertheless he said the room has character Eventually
it will present its purpose
when his daughter became ill –
fuckin genetic monster ALS – her bedroomshe
and her husbands bedroom wasnt conducive for her care
she needed a hospital bed
they had Hospice place the bed in
the sunroom
it amused themthey laughed finally the room had a purpose
24 / 7
her husband her sister and he
tended her
she struggled for three months
she taught them
she died
the sunrooms empty again
not truly
it holds a void that cant be filled
not ever
0702, Thursday,
23 1. 20
1118, Twosday,
30 6. 20
Phoebe Bridgers You Missed My Heart https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pK1cwjGw74s
