30.5.24

GUILTY

hed stubbornly brayednailed his hat to the wall ABSOLUTELY

after verdict was reached family friends called him
                                                      Now.  Are you happy?
soberly
         Happy
happy had nothing to do with his ethical understanding his state of mind
                                                                              he replied  Long overdue  Donya think
Formers been delegitimized 
Witch Hunts over
                   We have the blue suit red tie witch dead to rights  Redhanded 
Burn Baby Burn
                   Brought it on himself

Ive been edified  Not thatha is necessary
                                               My ethics morals cannot be diminished

1410,  Thursday,  30  5. 24
2224,  Thursday

he was positivesure the words werent his
                                               although their sentiment  not lost on him
writers
         The name of some is lent to streets – Paris? – and boulevards, of others to gallows and almshouses.

Who wants to alter the world?

Let it rot, let it die, let it fade away!


he scribbled the words on a strip of paper he used as a bookmarker

it was keeping his place as he read John Addington Symonds The Autobiography of Benvenuto Cellini  1948  illustrated by Salvatore Dali

Cellini  a Sixteenth Century Florentine sculptor goldsmith writer

to be honest
              it was Dalis illustrations that encouragedimplored him to purchase the book
frankly it was a steal
                         he knew what he was getting
he stole

did he feel bad

he bought it last centurycouldnt remember
                                             but  NO
probably didnt
his mothers son
                  Don’t feel bad for them they made their bed, now they have to sleep in it.
sounds pitiless
it was
        probably the provocation that originally forced him to make his bed  mornings – before his fuckin paper route – 5AM – but it had become a source of habit comfort routine   not ruetine  regret
                                                                                       hed sleep with women
when they woke in the morning
he made their beds too

You gotta do it?

Yeah  I did you didnt I rhetorical  had scratches on his back to prove it if necessary

best thing about it then was fucking in the made bedtearing it up again
                                                                            like the bed begged for it
that was terribly possible nothing was inanimate to him
                                                            thanked his grinder for grinding his coffeebeans coffeemaker for making his coffee toaster for toasting his bread silicone garlic peeler for peeling
                                                                                         get the picture
he used themthanked them until the failed despite how ugly they became
                                                                              his inanimate car was 30  he thanked her whenever he drove stroked her dash her name was digger
she like he kept plugging along

when she ultimately fails as he would ultimately fail
                                                        they could be ditched
two inanimate objects 

   side by side

   Two Hangmen*


the words werent his
    
vintageSaturday,  6  3. 04
1221,  Thursday,  30  5. 24

* Mason Proffit  Two Hangmen  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hk3eP0bO0zY

before going to sleep she muted her phonehe wouldnt disturb her he sent her texts wishing her various sweet dreams hopes for deep restorative sleep  I love you
                                         they were in a long distance relationship
not for the weak of heart or the Jealous

he had just returned home from a walk in the waningmoon a day past full it was yet huge
                                                                                                 he loved how his blackshadow was elastic stretchedetched ahead of him on the street  he wished he had his mothers eyes in the back of her headhis head so he could admire it as he walked into the moonlight
                                                                            thirsty
he drank from the glass pitcher of moonwater created the night before
                                                                        it enthused him
maybe not a good idea before bed
                                 found himself wanting to articulate a different good night
remembered it was knocked around when he was a kid yet again his mother  until the cows came homeYES went on-lineYES BINGO  found it in German Viehscheid

he texted  :  :  German  Viehscheid  I like the -ieh & -hei of it
Means, loosely, when the cows come home – Yes – Time for spac Polish for sleep  Sweet dreams, my beautiful girl
I love you

set the phone down

did his toiletry

began the washing machine for white noise

lying in bed eyes closed he remained humour by the –ieh –hei
                                                                   a desperate palindrome
which triggered Kennedys Ich bin ein Berliner June 26,1963 which triggered June 12, 1963s cowardly assassination of Medgar Evers Mississippi Civil Rights leader which told him he better shut the works down the cows came home
Go  to  sleep

I cant sleep Maw

Lay down. Shut your eyes. Go to sleep.  seemed harshWasnt
                                                                   she wanted time with Dad
they had eight kids
he was the eldest

he got it
          –ieh –hei  heeheehee
white noise swept him away

1234preferred to 0034,  Thursday,  30  5. 24
1104,  Thursday

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hw1t7OCESUw *

scalded himself
                 whell fuck  thadidnt go how he hoped

Wha a sucker

   Really

If you would have listened
To you mongrels

   To your mongrels  A little respect Mutt

Respect they humoured himwhy he hadnt evicted them  
                                                         Touche

Appreciate tha Thank you

Don thank me
                So many more of you have takenup refuge while I was abandoned  wrecked   a derelict

incredulous  Derelict

   Really disbelieving

Yawanna really really us
                            We can play rough too


Rough  Right on
                   The derelicts right on

Anyawere for all the right reasons


   Pity

Empathy

sometimes  better no words

2320,  day-between-2-Ts,  29  5. 24
* Power Station  Some Like It Hot

Robert Palmer  Simply Irresistible  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SoHpSY3IoAI     

Guns N’ Roses  Sweet Child O’ Mine  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1w7OgIMMRc4