What do you do?

    Thas not original

Original.

I hope your making friends

                               Yawont with me

I won’t?

              Because I asked what you do?

Precisely

           Was there anything I said as we talked tha suggested I had any interest in whaya did rather than whaya liked to do read like to watch film  like art like museums  aquariums planetariums   he chuckled

                                                                                                            Walks in the rain

You’re throwing me a lifeline . . . aren’t you?

                                                       Aren’t you?

Youre a sharp cookie

                        Im attracted to intelligence friend calls me sapiosexual

Anif tha aint enough he describes me to others as a sigma male

                                                                     Which maybe a knock

Also calls me antisocial  Which is incorrect

                                                  Im an introvert                                                                                          

    Isnt this nicer than wha I do

2105,  Sunday,  15  12. 24

I have a frien . .

. . End   End     The end

                              Not interested

Hear me out, don’t be a prick.

See   See how easy you IDd me

                                    Crushed it

Really?

   Reallys are so terribly useful

                                       Drives me nuts

Really

   Won’t you hear me out?

Catchin my drift

So you’re pulling yourself out of the game?

Game

        Hear yourself

        

Its not a game Ive no interest

                                Strikes me curious whaya think love is

Ive said timeanagain many times  Im in love with my girlfriend

But you haven’ . .

. . Which is none of your business

If I understoo . .

. . All you need to know understand

                                          Its none of your business

2008,  Sunday,  15  12. 24

Doors  The End  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BXqPNlng6uI

where does he go from here

                                his sighs have lessenedbut he still  sighs   deeply

hes not one to sigh

                        which means

hes done something right

he chuckled

                  out loud Inadvertently

wished he had a mirror to see his expressionreflection

                                                           despite mirrors not kind to him

    Mirrors

Yah  You heard me

Mirrors

           Really

Yah

    Youre not kind to yourself

                                 Then when you arelike right now  this past week

You struggle to treat yourself  well

You are worth it                           

Can you admit tha

                       Youre worth it

Im afraid youll have to take tha up with someone elseconvince someone else

You are worth it

Wellsee

            I play the long game

The long game

Its too early to call

    Ifya get to the end

                          At least the end you imagine

You coud come up short

I like you

           Cold comfort

I like you too

2027,  Sunday,  15  12. 24

Booze bagels boychoy booze bagels bokchoy booze bagels bokchoy

                                                                      Canadian whisky was thereCrown

swinganamiss bagels

                        days old wouldnt shell out $5.79 for 5 yakiddin mewhos gettin pinched   a buck a bagel

its a fuckin bagel

    almost threw himself a curveOrganic Greens blend of organic baby spinach baby chard & baby kale $5

eleven ounces

                 almost

first rule of Fight Club

                         Never fuck yourself

boychoy .72 lb  $1.43

.72 lb  12cents an ounce

Organic Greens 

                  46cents an ounceA FUCKIN OUNCE

Fight Club

if he looked ridiculous at CheckOut

                                     booze zipbagels bokchoy  so be it

would have considered frozen edamame but there wasnt the shelled one pound  $1.99

there was a frozen package  $4.99/lb

                                           cleared his throat  muttered Somebody blow me

1454,  Sunday,  15  12. 24

What do you mean by that?

    Wha I said

Thrilled by a stairwell.

Arya kiddin meOh fuck youve probably not had the opportunity to enjoy one

                                                                                 Never been urbannever been to a sixthfloor walkup

Bro

        You havent lived

Your lifes been nothing but sunnysunny rural California

This isn’t rura . .

. . It aint urban

                 Got to go to San Jose LA before buildings grow tall Anmost ofem three storeys have elevators

Theyre amazing

Can be artful

                I love a good one

    Like admiring an attractive woman her curves  lines

                                                                 Purpose 

You’re likening a stairwell to a woman?

    Built

           Care to refute me

Tellinya    Cant beat a good stairwell

                                         Youve missed out

2106,  Saturday,  14  12. 24

1310,  Sunday,  15  12. 24

Sorrow Dark Ambient Music  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9r68r3V-GIo

. . . best intentions

shy jumped up in his lap

he asked her Whas the sayin

she nudged his chin with her foreheadpurred

                                                 otherwise mute

as cats can be

                  silent their middle name

their last name

                 unlike they who keep them insist cats take on their surnames like wives are put upon  until they flashanbare their hyphen

                             is stealth

    The road to Hell is paved with good intentions

                                                     hes sure there are others

this was the one he was thinking of

Whadaya think shy                                             

she jumped down off his lap without remark

she said

          she knew he take her on circuit carnival circus freak shows late night television

monetise her

thought There wasnt enough salmon catnip silvervine in the world.

the full Cold Moons best illumination was at One0two Sunday morning

he set an alarm on a travel clock hes had since he was a paperboy  EATON  QUARTZ

manufacturer probably now long gone

                                               any one that makes a superior product has to go away

alarm set

went to bed still dressed in sweats

high Thirties that time of the morning

hed see Her

would spend ten minutes with Her

back in hed undress

slept naked

hasnt understood pajamas since junior high

told Santa to return them

alarm went off

                rolled up on his right shoulder reached across his body depressed the button on top it

ALARM off

shouldnt have rolled back on his back

two deep leftie sighsLights Out

woke in the middle of the night

dejected

undressed

back in beddidnt masturbate

                                hadnt earned it

some lucky imagined woman would have to wait

    had the best intentions

woke in the middle of the night,  Sunday,  15  12. 24

1036,  Sunday

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