They werent there
it didnt bother him that they werent
there what grieved him was that she wasnthis
wife wasnt for if it was anyones
place to be there it was hers
she could have been there would
have been there if her family had been honest with hernot suffused magically
thinking enforced by hope
if they werent
selfish
but they knew what was best for
her
they never relinquished their damaged thinking
and
try as he may severely pathologically always bringing this memory to the fore it dropped in his lap left to him to inform her tell her her ally the greatest love of her life was dead
WAS DEAD
she should have been there
she would have been the first to know
instead . . . . he waited
five hours on the news caring for their three-month old daughter until she
returned home thoroughly unsuspecting
waylaid ambushed skewered
as her family
knew she would be
her eldest sister who he was devoid
of trust or any confidence said as much
This is
going to kill her
kill her
HER
in the abrupt minutes after their mothers death she couldnt call her sister
by name
callous
he was a fool if he thought more
of her
fortunately he never did
she was a perverse harpy squatted
happily on carrionsmacking her lips
licking her fingertips her bites
of dead flesh seemingly delectable Belgium chocolates
he replied strictly
Who
is this going to kill
(her
singular fortune at that moment was he couldnt get his hands around her throat)
Well Cece of course
he knew their mothers death wouldnt
kill Krisshe preferred being called Kristy
he made a point of never calling
her Kristyof never allowing any sweetness Kristy might imply
he didnt implyhe left nothing with
this family(his by marriage) implied
he was
explicit
hard-edged
he could cut diamonds
he gave his wifes family no brook
which curiously
his wife recognised and berated him although somehow was unable to see it fester in them towards her
his rejoinder to her anger was unremarkable
I love you Cece
Im treating
them as they treat you
it did kill her
it was a slow death
3 August 1979 2 January 2002 the half-life subset to the dates on her headstone
1644, Thursday,
3 8. 17
Molly Pitcher
The Kilimanjaro Darkjazz Ensemble I Foresee the Dark Ahead, If I Stay https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pnVaaKT9tg4
