truth

           I am who I am  an wha I am is fortunate to have loved her  to have held her

1252,  Thursday,  3  11. 22

wink

she was lousy at it 

                       Baby no no  thas not seductive

Dammit . . which eye am I supposed to wink.

he laughed 

            anwhile laughing he winked 

Oh shit, that’s hot!

Which eye

  Oh  she thought  

                     Could you do it again? I got itbut I missed it.

Again

        Yawatchin

she laughed 

                Okay I swear I swearya flustered me my brain went out of my head.     Okay

he winked

she thrilled 

            Left eye left eye!

Shoot me one doll she was fucking beautiful

she winked

he startled hercame over the table scattering the Scrabble game grabbed her by the ears and kissed her hard  then relaxed after their laughter kissed her again   deeply

 

I love you buckwheat

I love you too.

2310,  Sunday,  30  10. 22

1230,  Thursday,  3  11. 22

Thas a great idea! he thought   made a mistake though 

                                                           rather than immediate penning the seed which had fallen out of Submergence the film he watched he penned the time and date  2208hrs  Sunday  October 30 

                                                                                                       then going to write

he stared at the empty page

 

which grew more empty more desolate

he finally scribbled  the fuck – went out of my head

                                                       at that particular moment he was frustratedwasnt thinking  and because he wasnt he didnt recognise the mordantly obvious solution

  Stop the film finger the time slide rewind rewatch the seminal scene    find the seed

four days later he discovered the time and date stamped page  the fuck -- went out of my head  not frustratedthinking he reverse-engineered the episode went to the prior timestamped entry 2126hrs approximately 40 minutes apart he went to Amazon brought the film up Find the 2126entry yahoo it was approximately five minutes and fiftysevenseconds into the film

              I realised I’ve never been lonely before. 

it took him fifteen minutes ridiculous he broke an hoursixty minutes into convenient fifteen minutes or a halfhourproperly chopped in quarters 

            no  probably took him sixteen to nineteen minutes he downgraded himself to asshole

the characters James (James McAvoy) shows Danny (Alicia Vikander) the headlines of a horrific jihadi bombing in Africa  he asks her to read the article

Did you read it?

Yes.

And?

I feel . . there’s nothing I can do about it.

hes abrupt You can read about it, we could get interested, we could educate ourselves and get involved in a solution.

timidly How is there a solution to a problem that has roots in ancient conflict where religion . .

. . What are you saying, you don’t think there’s a solution?

quietly  introspectively   I don’t know.

terribly forceful It is the same as your work Danny, trying to get people interested in potentially life-saving information that lies at the bottom of the sea in the dark that nobody wants to know about . . it is exactly the same thing . get them interested, educate them, get them involved in a solution and that is amazing.                                                                      This is our world too, isn’t it? 

yet more quiet  I don’t know that.

Oh. 

      So you can be stupid as well. 

very oftenunfortunately hes flummoxed how people refuse it is easier not to they refuse refuse to pursue their own information  reference cross-reference ferret it outbe fucking curious  he really hasnt the imagination to believe that othersa huge swathe of others are incurious  have to beare lead by the hand  told what to think and think what they are told 

he has been told he holds his bar too high

   maybe he did 

                       although he wasnt going to waste his time with those who couldnt get over it

redundant  2208,  Sunday,  30  10. 22

1147,  Thursday,  3  11. 22

Mogwai  The Precipice  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FXOa94FPRTU