12:54 not 12:24 he was doing that a lot of late flipping numbers around or upside down
he might have been distressed if
he hadnt long ago given up on believing what his eyes told him
Thats
not a photograph photo-illustrations are not photographstheyre
manipulations Call them what they
are unreal not be seen in the living-breathing worldthe
real world blandly the editor told him
it was a photograph first he called him
a liar then a cunt then he reaffirmed his name and telephone number
saying hed be happy to tell him to his face if he wanted to name the place then he hung up
these days he trusted his earshis
sense of hearing trusted the inflection
of voicestheir timbre enunciation their
professed sincerity implied innocence
since more and more people were playing
games these days their inherent aplomb
overt assuredness revealed more than they meantmore often revealing their
ploy they wouldnt call it lying a ploy is a lie it isnt straight forth if someone couldnt be honest with him he had
no room in his life for them Go try an
convince someone else Im not swallowing
it
no he wasnt perfect
he wasnt beyond this kind of
prejudice
anif he bid adieu to someone who
was being honest well then he made a
mistake but he wasnt going to worry
it it was water over a fall a second chance would be dishonest no matter
how honest the mistake
he admitted times were
different however admitting it wasnt to
suggest he was happy with current circumstances or the argument That was then
this is now You better come aroundwalk in the light of reality
Yahright Ill cum
You can blow me who
didnt like a blowjobsdidnt like head he loved
giving women headrisking a broken nose his was broken three times
sometimes late in the evening hed
get up from watching a film or writing to take a leak
he didnt bother with the light
he honed in like a bat played off
his familiarity with the bathroom figured
his toilet hadnt gotten up on its own two hindlegs and hid giggling in a corner
or that someone had stealthilysurreptitiously entered his housekilled the
waterunbolted and stolen away with the bowl and tank
he was confidence it stood fast yawning
there was no reason the toilet
didnt yawn
it was his househe didnt have to
make allowances for womenwhich wasnt to say he wouldnt if necessary he wasnt a caveman
although the thought
was appealing
he couldnt see it
rare blind faith
he pissed
gargle gargle gargle a few shakes he was relieved relieved by the honesty of inanimate
objects
things he could depend on
0029, Saturday,
13 10. 18
1402, Ywosday,
18 12. 18
