entering her room he was at the foot of her bed

the nurse said she had awakened earlier so they bathed her and changed her bedding She’s fresh, all spruced up!

he appreciated the nurses enthusiasm

she fixed him with her marvelous luminous huge hazel eyes personalityplus growing in expressiveness and nuance since she became ill and then lost her voice altogether

he hadnt heard his daughters voice in fourfive months

her eyes had discovered a vocabularyimpressed upon him everyone the necessity of asking only Yes – No questions

Yes – one blink

No – two blinks

he asked her if she slept well

blink

Did you dream baby

blink

she texted on her cellphone she downloaded an app that allowed a voice to repeat what she wrote he hated the recordings female voice  pasty flat  no inflection Did you?

he smiled

           he blinked twice

:  :  You look like you didn’t dream.

his eyes opened wider

he didnt ask her I do  his eyes spoke

                                          they had learned a vocabulary too

2150,  Thursday,  2  1. 20

1236,  Monday,  18  5. 20

Hee Haw!  Drumpfs the ass  https://www.msnbc.com/morning-joe/watch/the-atlantic-compares-global-virus-response-with-u-s-response-83593285823

                                        100,000 American dead by Jume 1

Bets? hed bet well be beyond 100,000 by June 1  well be there in a week

1844,  Monday,  18  5. 20

Vaccine or no vaccine, we are back. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UEDWTs9_d0I

Clownie thinks hes Arnold Scharzenneggers Terminator cyborg 

Fuckin limp dick He cant willthough he thinks he can to make people put their heads down on the chopping block

Maybe if he obliged – Gimme an axe! -- put his dull head down first  he might be convincing  till then hes just a pair of flapping jaws 

1802, Monday,  18  5. 20

Maya Angelou When people show you who they are, believe them.

https://www.msnbc.com/the-beat-with-ari/watch/-damage-done-trump-s-virus-purge-backfires-as-congress-zeroes-in-on-fired-watchdogs-83615813858

while Drumpf campaigned he revealed himself a piece of shit

                                                                 an he hasnt said or acted any differently since then though he didnt think anyone would lie as much or his electorate would quaff his cum that would change his mind or make him think Drumpf wasnt a piece of shit

1734,  Monday,  18  5. 20

$90.694 dead Mr. President

limp dicks   Drumpf Navarro Eric Drumpf 

https://www.msnbc.com/deadline-white-house/watch/trump-s-glaring-absence-on-the-world-stage-as-he-blames-his-own-cdc-director-for-the-crisis-83611717840

                                                  even an overdose of Viagra or Cialis cant help these miserable laughable examples of dismal manhood erect

1650,  Monday,  18  5. 20

1  1. 20

Wednesday

0929

      he eyeballed the time could only have been better if the twenty were thirty Make sense woudja? Twenty? Thirty? The time’s ninetwentynine.    Ah yes, whaelse could you have meant, I wasn’t paying attention.  I’m a little slow on the uptake. The new year   It is a new year, isn’t it? It is  Indeed

he took off his reading glasses set Clan of the Cave Bear aside laid the glasses open on the book picked up his penthe paper clasped on the Bear-Of-A-Clip clipboard  and wrote

he wrote for the first time in the new decade

                                                One January Twentytwenty  1  1. 20  Wednesday

sometimes he was more present than he wanted

present  meaning different minds and senses

                                                  keen tookeen dull combativearrested observant then servant to nothing and no one a presence monocular bifocused creeping insectified senses like a cold deep pond an artesian well senses roiled a bowl of soup carried sloppily by a misfit a cripple  someone newlyblind

present 

         though dismayed by a limited field of vision if it were wideronly wider  his peripheral more acute

                                                                                                                 rather than being forced  his head on a swivel    restless

he supposed this morning January First Twentytwenty  was apt

                                                                         how he was feeling

remaining a work in progress

1204,  Sunday,  17  5. 20

he found himself juggling words wordplay  it tickled himan something hed done for so long that it was automatic as automatic as when a woman bent before him he played his eyes across her exposed chest an often more

morphine

he hadnt had any experience with it before now he was up to his eyeballs in it

it helped her breathe

it lessened her pain

lessened it

            lessened her pain he wondered if her physicians knew her first birth was 40hours without pain medication

he understoodhe got it

anything that would lessen her laboursrelax her was to her benefit

he wanted her to squeeze any good out of her circumstances

it was dire

morphine  morfiend

she was in and out of consciousness

he approached her bed with a syringe of water to flush her feeding tube a syringe of morphine a second syringe of water Hey baby its Dad Time for your medicine  he didnt call it morphine

she mewled in her throatacknowledged him

itd help her sleep

morphine

morfiend

morphin'

morfriend

Twosday,  31  12. 19  New Year’s Eve

1118,  Sunday,  17  5. 20