Service Model  Adrian Tchaikovsky

                                          credit where credits duehowever

he was certain the sentence wasnt meant a sentence for comedians

                                                                          maybe bad ones

wheres the old Vaudevillian hook dragem kickin an screamin offstage

wasnt going to hold his breath

 

Tchaikovsky

               It had a plain humanoid chassis, grey plastic and a blank face, not even the suggestion of features. Whatever adornments it had once worn, whatever distinctive look it had carried into children’s parties or comedy routines, only the bare name was left.

grey  plastic  comedians

                             wouldnt wish that on his worst enemyhadnt any  beauty of hermitic ascetic living

neither communicable

he liked dark comedians

                            jokes told heard  groaned firstlaughed maybe the laugh drowns out the groan

Carlin  Hicks   Marc Maron

 

    religion would do well to suffer some comedy

great venues

acousticallyfashioned

broad pulpits

occasional runways

                      made mingling with the masses easier

some had moats

                   runways actually drawbridges

the congregants faithful  trusting

                                     fail to eyeball their confineswhy he didnt like church

every one he had a legitimate reason to attend had him sit his back  to the door

                                                                                       hed stand on the aisle

one or another Station of the Cross glaring down over his shoulder

he wouldnt sit in any establishment with his back to the door

long longago he determined since he has no choice but to go he wanted to see death coming

                                                                                                   no sneaky World War II Jap shit

                        hed no sooner fall for someone looking past him over his shoulder What the hell is that? an turn to look than if someone approached him with a subpoena called him by his name

   glances  a stranger

acts like he didnt hear

they blew their cover

he waltzes on by

                   hes John Doe

he has to face the door

    stupid doesnt

2234,  Thursday,  21  8. 25

1534,  reggaefriday,  22  8. 25

I cant keep track of time

hed written 2202 on the prior pagehad a thought

thought seemed lingering

went to write I cant keep track of time and time-noting as he did it was 2206

                                                                                  felt a mightylong four minutes

mariachi flushed like bats at dusk 

                                    Ya know why

I don

We witnessed it up close

                             Your brain informed your body you havent long to live so it gathered your senses an not only did they conspire to slow time

people observing   Would you look at him. He looks like he’s moving in slow motion.

                                                        They actually won  Prevailed

They slowed time for you

    Im the beneficiary of Lucretius De Rerum Natura First Century BCE   Nature is chaos

                                                                                                 A chaos of inexplicable and contradictory phaenomena

Riot restored  Tranquillised   Composed

Adam Smith wrote

                      . . . while we have been endeavouring to represent all philosophical systems as mere inventions of the imagination, to connect together the otherwise disjointed and discordant phaenomena of nature, have insensibly been drawn in, to make use of language expressing the connecting principles of this one, as if they were the real chains which Nature makes use of to bind together her several operations.

    an assault on the objectivity of science

 

was Smith sincere in his provocation

he thoughtchuckled louder than usual

point of contention

worked for him

he was dying

    hes been dying since birth

no sweat

Thursday,  21  8. 25

1137,  reggaefriday,  22  8. 25

eyes slipping  doing what they want

                                       Hey man   See  anew

Donbe a pill

A pill  Annoying

                     Youre really mine

Yah

       Come now  seal the deal

Fetishist looked funnyhuh Silent Catastrophes   Catastrophes looked funny too   Wha did you see

they were lookin mighty superior

    Awright  Ill admit it

                             Fetishlust  Castrate trophies

Fetish   Again

I blinked to clear  youse

                           Fetishflushed occurred

Castrate trophies really threw ya

Ja

     I thought Idve seen tha on my own without youse going rogue off the reservation

   Reservation   Insensitive

OhferChristssake

                       Bored

Nah nah

             Our condolences

We thought with the deaths of two people dear to you you might  lose sight   of whaya usually command rule lord over

    A wellness check

Wellness

Yah

Thank you

              I appreciate your concern  consideration

Eventually I woud have

Weve no doubt absolutely no doubt

                                         Might say we missed you

2136,  Thursday,  21  8. 25

1033,  reggaefriday,  22  8. 25

Heart  Crazy On You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EZ7inhwScSQ

have to like Freud quite the Jew though he was partial to Jung  . . . it is natural “a certain degree of fetishism is

[. . .] habitually present in normal life, especially in those stages of it in which the normal sexual aim seems unattainable, or its fulfilment prevented.”

accordingly W G Sebald the fetishistic tendency only becomes pathological when the fulfilment of the sexual goal proves, by comparison with the previously imagined bliss, to be a bitter disappointment.

slipped into fetishism before he had coffee  it was still percolating

                                                                         Freud & Sebald reiterating what he believed common sense

Are you kiddin’? Common sense?  What you believe common sense isn’t held by the majority of people.

Comon Yaneed to quit speakin for everyone an speak only only   Im beating this drum all the time speak only for yourself

                    My concept defies yours  Whas true

I didn’t say that.

Then wha do you say

                         Ill quote Sebald again  . . . fulfilment of the sexual goal proves, by comparison with the previously imagined bliss, to be a bitter disappointment.

The epitome of common sense

                                  The actual sex act pales in comparison to imagined gymnastic sex

Yea or Nay

One or the other

    Are you trying to say that imagined sex is better than actual sex?

I didnt say tha

                  Comparatively   A bitter disappointment

Cant have the classic orgy  you – me – me an me – you – you

                                                                 I cant have sex with my girlfriend doubledup

Or she with mes

Probably kill us if we coud

Yasee  understand   the disappointment

 

I don’t know why I bother talking to you. You’re ridiculous.

If you didnt thered be no ridiculousness in your life

                                                        Youd be buried with your inside-the-box life

Or cremated  Distilled  Blendered  Mycelium bag hypae-denatured

Whaevers your bit

    Ya truly don believe if not bitter   a disappointment nonetheless

I can’t say. I haven’t thought about it.

Howbout this

               Next time youre masturbatingimagining some unattainable gal  Think

Tellya wha

  

Sydney Sweeney

2132,  Thursday,  21  8. 25

0948,  reggaefriday,  22  8. 25

Stones  Angry  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_mEC54eTuGw

Ja Ja  once upon a time yacoud call a woman a homosexual   Not no more

                                                                                 Shes a lesbian

Unless pronouns she prefers to be called something else

a scent of disdain Lesbian. She’s just trying to be more like a man.

point of contention

Karl Krause

                The bleakest prospect for a fetishist is having to do with the whole woman.

point of contention

W G Sebald

                . . . afford(s) an insight into the pathological reciprocity of love and coldness [Liebe und Lieblosigkeit – lovelessness] which appears to constitute the holy state of matrimony.

point of contention

            . . . laying bare the impossibility of a continual renewal of intimacy, presents, by contrast with  the earlier ideal, a truly appalling degree of estrangement.

point of contention

he thought about it

                     he had buddies whose girlfriends chewed gum

same girlfriends the twoanhaf years their relationships lasted  he left  yet during that time not one of his girlfriends chewed gum

if they needed to chew on something he gave it to them

point of contention

he thought

             the only thing uglier regarding human anatomy than a penis  is a scrotum

 

1900,  Thursday,  21  8. 25

0835,  reggaefriday,  22  8. 25