26.11.20


he had to give up two of his outdoor catsHIS is incorrect they werent his they found him he was their human 

ashe  because she was all grey  spook  because she was purewhite and found him shortly before Halloween

he lost them because his landlords didnt want him to have them 
                                                                  they got a puppyAww how sweet  they were dog people one is either a dog or a cat person their puppy was more eager to play with the cats than be disciplined broken  the pup was ignoring their commands and without ashe and spook itd be easier for them to train the pup

it was frankly for that reason why he loved cat they were undisciplined free-spirited their affections could be had for freshwater and kibble which wasnt to say that any cat is always affectionate
they were affectionate on their terms

hell for that matter he was affectionate on his terms

they were like-animals 
                       and that cats are feline intelligent exhibit stealth have a sleek prowess  they reminded him of women who he found attractive  each and every one he dated could have been cats

if he were introduced to a woman who wanted to please him even to their detriment who did what they were told or asked what they should do reminded him of a dog  despite their physical charms he wasnt attracted

 

the Humane Society took ashe it didnt accept spook because they discovered she had a bad toothbroken 

he took spook to a vet he explained hed pay to have the tooth extracted but he wanted to return her to the Humane Society to a person staff said thats not how it works if he released her to them they were required to turn spook over to Animal Services
his hands were tied
he submitted

he sat for a while in the parking lot weeping angered  quelling the violence he felt

as he began backing out of the parking space the attendant he worked with primarily came out of the building to tell him spooks tooth was extracted  her distress was obviously alleviated

her words helped take him down a notch
                                            still  he drove home with tears in his eyes

 

that evening it occurred to him what was going on with him TRUST  his landlords insisted they would help him trap the feral cats

Trap! I can pick em up an hold em nuzzle em when they let me  I dont have to trap them

the TRUST ashe and spook had in him trapped them


it occurred to him that he preferred an animals trust to a human beingshe trusted no onequestioned everyone so he couldnt give a rats ass if anyone trusted him

he preferred the company of animals to people

an animals trust could be won 

he could endeavor for their trusttheir animal honesty

peoples trusttheir honesty can come with a price

hit their mark

theyd sell you down the river in a heartbeat


even illiterate negro slaves in their unfortunate day knew they didnt want to be sold down the river

 

he betrayed ashe and spooks trust

it cut him deeply

as it should


they were sweet girls

he was confident theyd be adopted and treated well  indoor cats  their trust would return

for the while his heart would hurt badly

he wasnt ashamed of how he felt

 

middle of the night,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  11. 20
1224,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  25  11. 20
Al Stewart  Year of the Cat  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cqZc7ZQURMs