he was older

he was happy he stuck to his convictions he was a proper convict

there was nothing he saw as a boy that convinced him

nothing as a young man either

and older  still nothing

Hemingways prayer was spot on

                                    Our nada who art in nada, nada be thy name thy kingdom nada thy will be nada in nada as it is in nada. Give us this nada our daily nada and nada us our nada as we nada our nadas and nada us not into nada but deliver us from nada; pues nada.

there was nothing he ever saw or heard or read that convinced him of the existence of Gawd

 

1111,  Thursday,  17  10. 19

Elijah:

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1546,  Thursday,  17 10. 19

she crawled into bed with him usually around six silent  like a ghostscarcely stirring the blankets as she slipped under them and tucked up warmly against his side

he roused Heybaby

Grampa.

Good morning sweetheart  Sleep well

Good morning, I slept good.

Goodgirl  Any dreams

I didn’t dream.

No dreams  nuts  I’m sorry you didnt dream

Did you dream?

I always dream When I fall asleep I turn on something like a television and watch my dreams in colour in black and white cartoons text  sometimes my whole dream is written like a book  I have to read it

Really?

Really

Im sorry you didnt dream

Maybe I did. I just don’t remember.

Very likely I cant imagine you dont dream youre so imaginative

I think I did. I think I’m remembering.

Good Ill lay quietly and let you look for it

he almost fell back to sleep

I remember.

Tell me

I dreamed I was in school for three days.

Three days You mean all day all night all day all night all day all night

she giggled
              Yes, all day all night all day all night all day all night.

I came home at night.

At night You walked home alone at nightwerent you frightened Coyotes are restless at night

No. I wasn’t afraid. I rode a coyote home.

Wow thats some dream And you werent afraid

No.

Do you know why you werent afraid

Yes, I think I do.

Tell me

I was dreaming; it was only a dream.

Dreams can’t hurt me; right, grampa.

Thats right They can open your eyesmake you look differently at things in the daytime  sometimes even help you sort out daytime things But they wont hurt you

You dream what you dream for a reason If you want to try you can eventually work them out

Do you think so, grampa.

Yes sweet lil grrl  I know so

I don’t know.

You wont know until you try

Well go out this afternoon after school and buy you a notebook to write your dreams in I know youre just learning to spell but if you like Ill help when I can

Whaddaya think baby

I think I would like that.

Good And if you wantwhile Im gone  you can draw pictures of your dreams in it too

I could do that.

You can do anything you put your mind to love Anything

she didnt answer 


she laid still beside him

after a bit he said I suppose we should get up so you can have breakfast dress and we arent late walking you to school

from a far off place she said  Yes.  Yes, we should.
     

0929,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  16  10. 19
1056,  Thursday,  17  10. 19