theres probably wisdom cautioning others not to look back

                                                                  if theyre not fit

Thomas Wolfe  You Can’t Go Home Again

                                             “You can’t go back home to your family, back home to your childhood. . . back home to a young man’s dreams of glory and of fame . . . back home to places in the country, back home to the old forms and systems of things which once seemed everlasting, but which are changing all the time – back home to the escapes of Time and Memory.”

hed challenge Wolfes premise that memory is an escape

an occasion yesterday

                        something he hadnt recalled in years flashed across his mind  it was placed there by music he had a soundtrack Dire Straits  In the Gallery  Mark  a buddy  introduced him to the album

                                                                                                 they were mighty highhad finished watching the North Stars on a muted black and white televisionlistened to the commentary on the radio  thats the way Marko liked it  he preferred Marko to Mark  likewise he knew another cat who took to a nickname rather than George  spell it Georg or say it Georges he said he might have bought in  but not George  he looked in a mirror and a George didnt look back at him   Ofcourse not Sparky   Fuck you.   Doncare for Sparky either   Fuck you.   he did not have an elaborate vocabulary

throwing cautions to the wind looking back he Googled Marko  found his obituary

                                                                                    he died November 25, 2019

which piqued him somberly

                             he lookedup another Minnesota carpenter buddy  Brian  he died October 30, 2019  at least his obit said he died unexpectedly

                                     unexpectedly  from how he knew Brianremembered him made a mighty wide fucking lane

unexpectedly then reminded him of Kurt Vonnegut, Jr.  he read him incessantly throughout the years buying his book as he was published

                    it was reported he diedresult of brain injury incurred several weeks prior from a fall at his brownstone home

      reading thatknowing of Vonneguts recurring bouts of depression he read the article . . . a fall out of his brownstone home  jumped head first  latent   like the phenomenal artist photographer Francesca Woodmanbut a babe  apparently usedupexhausted at 22

yesterday was a day of unexpected informed death

was he upset he looked backharkened by memory then memoriesconfluence of memories

                                                                                             NO.

not looking back

not remembering

would deny that they lived

we aint dead until no one remembers us

1937,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  29  9. 21

1522,  Thursday,  30  9. 21

https://www.artsy.net/article/artsy-editorial-reevaluating-francesca-woodman-early-death-haunts-groundbreaking-images

Dire Straits  Where Do You Think You’re Going  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d59wsd9JsuA 

threats to American democracy

35 Republicans who voted to let the American government default on loans accrued during the 45th presidency and likely voted to incur them  Im disgusted and not ferreting out their votes

John Barrasso and Cynthia Lummis of Wyoming 

Marsha Blackburn and William Haggerty of Tennessee

Tom Cot Ton and John Boozman of Arkansas

Michael Braun of Indiana 

Kevin Cramer of North Dakota

Michael full of Crapo and James Risch of Idaho

Ted Cruz of Texas

Steven Daines of Montana

Chuck Grassley and Joni Ernst of Iowa 

Joshua your subpoena is coming Hawley of Missouri

John Hoeven of North Dakota

Roger Wicker and Cindy Hyde-Smith of Mississippi

Ron Johnson of Wisconsin

James Lankford who escaped with his life during the January 6 insurrection and James Inhofe who cant pilot a plane of Okie-lahoma

Mike Lee of Utah

Roger Marshall and Grald Moran of Kansas

Rand Paul of Kentucky

Rob Portman of Ohio

Rick Batboy Scott and li’l Marco Rubio of Florida

black Timothy Scott of South Carolina

Daniel Sullivan of Alaska

John Thune of South Dakota

Pat Toomey of Pennsylvania

coach and nothing more than a coach Tom Tuberville of Alabama 

Benjamin Sasse and Debra Fischer of Nebraska  

theyre senators INO though Ill not acknowledge their elected status shame on the people who elected them I hope their constituents are tickled-pink in a different historical time they might have been called Commies

                                                                                                    however Joe McCarthy and the formers Cohn are long dead and gone 

2235,  Thursday,  30  9. 21

https://www.newsweek.com/these-35-senators-voted-against-stopgap-funding-avoid-government-shutdown-1634447

 

here it comes hes affecting a sartorial speaking manner

                                                           hed been a teacher not a professor

an he didnt signup for his class                                                                                     

You know . .

. . I don know

               whenever he began with You know the professor tried to tilt the playing field to his advantage  the suggestion that if he didnt know he was out of step or misinformed  You know was his clarion call bugle reveille  his supposed Common knowledge

                                 it wouldnt be

itd be something he read but didnt remember where he read it 

which in turn for his lack of citation or authority hed knock him

                                                                   You know  affects your scholarship you not knowing  unable to provide verifiable evidence proof   

he may have been common Joe but he had a good education was no ones fool and because of his wide interests his reading his unquenchable curiosity he had a trove a deep well of useless information  simmering trivia

Professor  Youll have to do better than You know

Then . . throw cautions to the wind, trust me.

trust me sounded like a revolver hammer clicked back

                                                         An whadaya know about my relationship with trust

Comon  you know

You don’t trust anyone.

I do not

Then, then how about, how about we discuss it for the sake of argument.

Fine A discourse for the sake of argumentbut dont ya dare start with You know Ill tell you if I know or not Don expect immediate validationimmediate gratification yare talking to me not one of your old high school pals entertaining their glory days

May I continue?

Sally forth

You . .  aw nevermind. The first thing, the first thing a human being sees in another is their fac . .

. . Nope  Fallacy

What? Come on, that’s, I think, indisputable.

Puta Then use believe rather than think This is according to a citation you cant rememberright

                                                                                                     Are you implying it verges on dogma

Well . . yes. It’s the very first thing you see . .

. . You see  An me see 

                        You can speak for yourself an your dogmaticks  I don  not the first thing I see

Yes you do.

Im me you aint an Im tellinya I don

How can you not? You’re lying to yourself . .

. . Careful professor tread carefully now

                                                   Ya callin me a liar

No.

    Not a liar.

You said Im lyingIm lying to myself

                                           What is he who lies                          

if anyones has ever baited a fishhook with a nightcrawler pierced it several times saw it writhe he was twistingdoing a significant impersonation

Nevermind

            Yare mouth tends to go off ahead of your brain Ought to work on that Ill explain my denial to your You know premise

he cleared his throat

                     You can't deny it.

I can  easily  Strip away more than half the population men  they aint got a damn thing I want  Secondly  solely  women   breasts 

                    I assess the breasts first anif tickled then I look at their face  No tits no notice  Be it a superficial stroll through the park

                         Yaknow

You’re just being contrary.

No

    Whats the first thing you notice about a woman at a distance

Yacant see her face

I meant when you can see her face.

Ya didnt stipulate that

                        His face too  Speaking for you now  Yaknow

his wormsquirm must have affected his humour

                                                    his puss soured  I don’t like arguing with you.

Not much of an argument when you come illprepared

 

Anya began with You know

Just being contrary.

Back to classroom professor

                               That you were an educator buys nothing with me

1532,  Reggae Friday,  10  9. 21

1343,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  29  9. 21

Bruce Springsteen  Glory Days  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GLBnj159q3s