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sourmashed

sourpussed

soursopped
              a large acidic fruit

souredwood
              fallen on ones belly unable to rise despite cajoled
                                                                   Com’on boy
Com’on up uP UP  UPya go   Com’on boy


   it disregards his cajoling
                                    flaccid souredwood   BOO ohBoo

1651,  Saturday,  15  2. 25
1234,  day-between-2-T’s,  26  2. 25

      I

1.  coud
              indicate possibility

2.  shoud
               indicate obligation  duty correctness   criticising someones actions  

3.  woud
              (mood)  indicating consequence of an imagined event

4.  ought
      to
          indicate duty situation correctness   criticising someones actions  

thinking I coudve woudve shoudve oughtve he wondered which was correct

I coud do tha

I shoud have done tha

I woud have done tha

I oughta have done tha


   wha might have been done wasnt hadntbeen important to his consideration
                                                                                     in fact
he didnt remember what he was thinking when he challenged himself
tossed the gauntlet down

                               mebbe
it was

Woudya commit murder

No.  Never.

So ya woudnt coudnt shoudnt oughta kill yourself

Hold up. That’s not murder.

Killin something someone anyone is murder

Not myself.

Youre not someone anyone

No. I’m me.

So youre still on the table

Regarding my exit strategyyeah.


   Huh  Okay 

1658,  Saturday,  15  2, 25
1155,  day-between-2-Ts,  26  2. 25

bomber sat in the window in the sun
                                          warm

he couldnt resist

had to pet him

bomber saw him comingdidnt resist

                                            as he scratched the top of his huge orangetabby head
bomber closed his eyes


scratched

scratched

scratched


scratched  rhythmic breathing
                                    scratched
                                          scratched
                                                                 scratched
suddenlyquieteyespoppedopen
                                his expression  asif I had disappeared
No Im right here
                 scratched his head  Right here Im right here


he closed his eyes again

   scratched



he hadnt intended a session
                                ahwell  so be it  as he scratched he humoured himself reseeing bombers eyesPOP
 
1458,  Saturday,  15  2. 25
1019,  day-between-2-Ts,  26  2. 25

viscerallyspat in concert
                          had dialed up Amazons The Monkey Man
end of the opening fight sceneLAUGHED
                                           it was like him to injectintegrate fiction into his life
spat reductively
                  it was like him to become embroiled in things outside himself outside his sphererealm
couldnt stopbrakeHEELmotherfucker himself from becoming involved


   Yah. The boy’s got heart.
                               Although yadthink hed see this ain’t his game.

Hmm  he overheard


understood

still

   still
         a valuable lesson learned
he recalled fighting Golden Gloves name seduced him 
                                                      got his bell rungmebbe  one   two  too many times
he had been good combative
                                just not goodenough

YesYES YES    Tha was the difference

seemedYes seemed infinitesimal

queer how close by numbers  by degrees    by pedigree
                                                             he could hear it  was that close to the ceiling
made him feel like a bitch
                           BITCH Nah
No  Not a bitch
                    Definitely not
SOUNDS LIKE WHERE YOU WERE GOING               

I wasnt fuckyou

interloping Mariachi

I wasnt talking to you

Who then

To myself

Were yourselves


   they were right

wasnt conceding
                   Ill let ya know when I want your two cents

We cant promise you tha

I know
        But in the future try   Awright


   Try

Whas all I can ask





not a bitch
            he felt badly   his skills  a day late dollar short
close
       but no cigar

2159,  Twosday,  25  2. 25
0936,  day-between-2-Ts,  26  2. 25