role models mentors  heroes

                               ZIP

there was no one he aspired to follow  in their footsteps chuckled

                                                                            Gawd you abandoned me when I needed you most

laughed

punchline

           “ . . . times when you (saw) only one set of footprints . . . I carried you.”

Same size feet?

You realeyes . .

. . Nice

          Realeyes

Thank you

            You realeyes thas evidence

Committed to paper

                     Yes

It can be used against you

   Or for me

How do you see tha

Wha do you see

If there is a Gawd

Im incorrigible

             If   He ought to let me return to whence I came

Whence  Wheres tha

No clue

You confound me

Yet yastick around

Its a good group

                  Yare charismatic

A character

Cant take a compliment

From a cast of shehes heshes

                                 Be selfcongratulatory  Ya know I need no thanks

Selfishsufficient

I like it like it

Have a  dare I dare we

Dare you

            puzzled him

 

    We have a role model mento . .

. . Stop

Hero

Woudya STOP

they cackled

2022,  2sday,  27  8. 24

1400, day-between-2-Ts,  28  8. 24

https://www.geneseo.edu/~heap/footprints.html

he was hassling him again about the difference between an intellectual and a genius

Ive told you my view

Yeah well . . I’ve forgotten.

No you havent Youre being a pain in the ass

                                                But expecting you to be I looked up intellectual

Open the quote An intellectual is a person who has a lot of knowledge and prefers to think about things on an abstract or theoretical level rather than a practical one. Closed the quote

   We done

You’re crazy abstract.

Doesnt make me an intellectual

                                   Im curious  Unquenchably so

Because you’re always sitting around on your ass writing, reading, or readingwalking, walkingreading, whichever way you say it.

I don

       I do it

A fuckin’ recluse.

So says the social butterfly

                              You coudnt do wha I do

I wouldn’t want to.

 

Coudnt Be honest

                     Wha I do isnt everyones cup of tea an it neednt be  Each his own

So get off my back

    Recluse.

Anesthetised ascetic

Anesthetised?what the hell?

With thought

Social butterfly inside my head

                                 Imagine moths at night ghosty  madly flutteringround a lighted bulb

Thall give you some idea

    Some    Idea

1224,  Saturday,  4  5. 24

1229,  day-between-2-Ts,  28  8. 24

walking into his condo livingroom bookshelves to the ceiling a ladder to get at the top two

Have you read all these books? she asked

A goodly portion  Mind you Ive collected them all my lif . .

. . An avid reader. You touted that on your resume.

I did

It was . . . . particular.

Thought you were going to say peculiar

I wa . .

. . But then you thought to be kind

                                     Thas nice but unnecessary

Unnecessary?  That’s curious don’t you think?

No

    You neednt worry about hurting my feelings I havent any

she burst out laughingdidnt cover her mouth that appealed to him more than shed know hed compliment her

                                                                                                              gathering her wits  Ohmy, you’re serious.

I am

      Since were fresh you should know you can say anything you like or dislike  Be honest  No need to look over your shoulder

Speak  Freely

smiled sheepishly

                      Fresh.  Refreshing if you really mean it. I’ve negotiated a string of . .

. . Who are not me

                    You have my condolences

    Condolences.

Unfortunately  my experience   the majority is not representative of me

                                                                             They have nothing to offernothing I could want

she tipped her head aside like a little bird very appealing

                                                             Friendship.

I have very few friends anwha friends I have live way across the country

                                                                              Mines an ascetic not religious lifestyle  An ascetic atheist

Stick tha in your pipe Tolkien

Tolkien?

Yes Cellar door

                 Phonaesthetics He declared it the most beautiful word in the English language Im at war with him

He wrote The Hobbit, The Lord of the Rings trilogy.

Thas the guy

               I liked The Hobbit

And given all these books . . . do you have them?

I do In paperback

                    I prefer hardbound gesturing to the shelves but as you can see I also have a lot of books scifi early  tha arent

Pulp fiction

I see.

I don loan them

You do not?

See a book youd like to read See the table there  Thats the reading table

Like at a library.

No Librarys loan books

You’re funny.

Youve no idea

               Im a scream

    If I may, you said you’ve read many of them, but not all.

Not all

And the ones you haven’t read . . .

 

a question  hed let her ask in her time

The ones you haven’t read.

    Yes

Why do you have them? Keep them?

I buy books to read

                      Books keep me company

1022,  2sday,  27  8. 24

1046,  day-between-2-Ts,  28  8. 24

Ben Harper  Excuse Me Mr.  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJjsEyW5l6M

the alarm disliked it with extreme prejudice clock woke him at Fourfortyfive

shaved

        Managements earnest suggestion  who knew they bothered with what he looked like  his departmental work was peerless 

heard the coffee machine start

showered

dressed

entering the kitchen turned on News radio

as a bagel toasted he poured himself a bowl of Cheerios topped with Grape-Nuts sliced banana tumbled blueberries

filled his thermos with black coffee poured himself a cup

SAT

breakfast finished News hadnt irritated him too much  he relaxed  looked out the window through wisteria into the grassy courtyard at the rear of the condo

                                    finished his coffee

going to stand to do the dishes his legs didnt work

                                                     his ass  numb

bottom of the coffeecup  grime   wasnt grounds

he licked the end of his pinkie swiped it tasted it

                                                   bitter

his wakeup was drugged

he swallowed his coffee in good faith without scepticism

                                                                    preferred C to K didnt need to be remindedunderstood KEPT

his scepticism     

Christ

        wasnt Six yet

he didnt concern himself with being poisoned

    by someone he loved or cared for

someone

           who had access to him

 

it would have been awfully nice to get back into bed

                                                         even if he was dressed made him chuckle

0510ishness,  Sunday,  10  2. 08

0923,  day-between-2-Ts,  28  8. 24