had to clean that off the counter
he knew what it was
however having feral cats he didnt wanna think what it could be otherwise
it was slopped coffee from when he tried placing the full carafe
back into the cradle of the inexpensive Proctor Silex coffeemaker
he only needed something simplesomething that didnt
tell time have preset capabilities or could scratch his balls for him
he liked
to do things for himself
automation wasnt his
thing
he wetted a sponge and wiped away the coffee spatter There he thought now it doesnt look like a cat
shat on the counter
he thoughttalked to himself
it gave him comfort
nearly the same comfort as talking to his cats who to the best of his knowledge didnt understand
English they probably spoke French or
another Romance language
people covet comfort
they take it in all kinds of shape and manner
sometimes their comfort is destructive albeit comfortingly destructive
but who is anyone to tell another what they should or shouldnt do
when they ought to grasp that they should have their hands full of themselves
Love thyself aint a part-time gig
hed meet very few people who had the capacity to juggle
themselves and others without they or the other suffering some kind of innocent
neglect
innocent neglect
yes
he had found images of Louise Bourgeois work a new book paired her and Picasso
he wished he might have found Bourgeois works sooner and thought maybe he had otherwise something akin to her organic fashions or faux-arachnids
visited his dreams
he didnt think shed much worry about cleaning that off
the ocunter sometimes its really nice to get
ahead of oneself misstroke sit back and wonder what to make of ones err to err is human (to forgive, divine) hed stick with err there was
nothing divine in him
he could relate to Bourgeois obsessionher art
as he could relate to others
who withheld their art
who were shy
or feared it
it taking them outside that realm called normal
who the fuck wanted to be normalto be that round peg pounded unmercifully into that round receptive hole
hole
hole
it doesnt magically change into a whole unless one changes it
change is difficult
uncomfortable
it is good to recall that people covet comfort
because
some people beat other people to death with their comfort
no different than being maced with their own Mace stabbed with
their own knife shot with their own gun
he mused
was amused
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