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he rolled a fattie harkening back to the days when grass was cheapwhen it wasnt modified by freaks for genetics all the freaks are getting out of handoutrunning our ability to process even consider what the long term might be an might be not what theyre purported  were reacting were not proactive not braking  Slow it down muthafucker  slow    it     down

hitting it deeplyholding it in breathlessly he remembered Frank  dead now  shot himself in the head when he was diagnosed with cancer  Frank worked at Phillips with him a liquor store  Frank always carried a few joints in his pack of Camels  Man hed say I remember when the shit grew wild in empty lots around Chicago. I’d pack up grocery bags with it and hide em in the garage. Somehow my old man always sniffed em out. Ya a dumb nigger or wha? he’d say, whyya always baggin up weeds an hidin em in the garage? Yaint that dumb or are ya, nigger? My old man liked his booze. He’d get his high on and toss my bags in the incinerator in the alley, burn em, and I’d have to go out again and just pick me some mo.


exhale



opening a bottle of beer finishing the joint he sat down to watch Planet Terror an make his way to Death Proof  a twin-bill for the evening reminding himself of all the twin-bills he took in at Drive-Ins an missed some of the first an sometimes all of the second the great B-films that played flickering lights on their bodies painting them as they laid inside his parents stationwagon playing with each other plied with grass an a lil something to sip

he dug that Rodriguez and Tarantino set their hands to grindhouse their vision of over-the-top xploitation  they reminded him of Russ Meyers Faster, Pussycat! Kill! Kill! Rosario Dawson done up like Tura Satana anfool if ya dont know who she was yare shaky an might follow Franks exampleLOOK HER UP! or Warhols Frankenstein or rather Flesh of Frankenstein  to know death you have to fuck life in the guts he wasnt fuckin a gall bladder an while these bits roiled an twisted in his head like a wax bolus inside a lava lamp he injected into it imitation is the sincerest form of flattery Colton  then one-upped by Wilde that mediocrity can pay to greatness  then into the mix he slathered Vanilla Ice blatantly drafting off Bowies an Queens Under Pressure  xploiting its bass line(while insisting he had bought it outright)  that hadnt dawned on him until he wandered into a liquor store in California that was playing uninspired cannedmusic overhead  the bass line began  in his head he heard Under Pressure  then Ice Ice Baby Ice commencedDafuck  he usually he heard what he heard  this was the first time he was fooled  he didnt listen to Vanilla Ice  his daughters did  which they now tried to deny as they tried to deny Ricky Martin  Comon Martin was talentedhe stayed in the industry far longer than the white rapperYo  if one was inclined to bestow onto Ice  rapper  that was his act rather than his life  to livin the life sez Wilde  sez Wilde   he agreed with the elegant satiric or satyric homosexual 

when the girls come to his house an flip through his CDsthey ignore his hundreds of vinylstoo lazy to turn a record over  flipping through themhes sure they conspired they always find Ice an Martins CDs an holding them up they say Gee Dad you certainly have an eclectic taste in music  he had   theyd smile knowing full well the CDs were theirs 

Hmm he wonderedopening another beer when he croaked would they finally take them for themselves



muthafucker just crushed a disembodied testicle under his boot
                                                                AwChrist  hed almost forgotten



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