he disliked being compelled
pushed outside his autonomy
by an anonymity contained within him
that Is without respect or deference
to the thing it thrives inside of
the thing that without
the trapped parasite
might cease to exist
he wasnt sure it would die
it could realise suspended
animation
a fertilized
encapsulated egg waiting on preferable conditions
laying dormant patient beyond
any febrile sense of time or urgency
simply persisting
he wasnt too sure
he was any different
he was any different
1350, Sunday,
20 9. 15
“I wonder if revelation comes not
like light to the eye but as an imposed ordering of that part of the self so
deeply interior that it is anonymous” pg149 Doctorows
City of God
