there comes a time when I dont care
equates to fearlessness
a kind of fearlessness hed seen in
fightsin their eyes and for it he didnt stop
beating them until he was pulled off
the simple fact of the matter he didnt know where their I dont care might
take them and he was damn sure their uncaring wasnt going to interrupt what he
cared about
might be a cold way to relate
unless youve seen it
he hadnt seen it in awhile
then he saw it again
it was as grotesque as he remembered
he saw it looking back at him in the
mirror as he shavedthe grimace the
cruelty an exquisite efficient cruelty if it wasnt beat down
Whawas he thinkin
If it wasnt beat to death
there was nothing he had to lose
when you have nothing to lose youre formidable
youre a freak
he remembered his fatherinlaw the
only time he askedhe said he wouldnt ask but this once When were you most afraid during the war
When I saw a kamikaze smash into
one of our destroyer at Iwo Jima. Then I knew we were fighting an enemy who wasn't afraid to die.
Liberatinghuh? he musedhis fatherinlaw
looked through him The Japs werent
afraid to die.
That was horrifying.
Horrifying
Yah
more horrifying to see it in his own reflection
but then maybe it manifested
itself at exactly the right time
times were ugly
it was a good time
to be fearlessnessto have nothing to lose
he was happy those he loved were
deadhappy they wouldnt have to
see it in his eyes
ice cold comfort
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