demeaning dementia

hes been called demented

took the caller to task

You know know always pronounced enthusiastically  he wished theyd be as enthusiastic about their lives half as much as they are about his what I’m talking about.

Lemme give it a shot 

                      Derives from the Latin de to undo mens meaning mind  therefore to say a person has dementia says that he or she has a disease process that undoes their mind whereas I am demented is tantamount to saying I no longer have a mind

                     Like making grapes into winewhine

gave him awry smile Frankly I don mind

Goddammit! he snarled he snarled only because he knew he wouldnt hauloff and belt him You think you’re so funny.

he had a family pass

hed sic Mommy or Daddy on him

                                    asif Mom or Dad had any influence or sway over him

he wasnt him

however he understood his touchiness

headmittedly was becoming forgetful

he couldnt forget if he tried

                            couldnt forget the enormous bluewater glass tank the three men he knocked into it jumped in after cut their throats with a razor knife

he thought their bodies would sink to the bottom

they hung suspended like puppets

on strings of their blood

                         couldnt forget going to a rural dirt road drive-in he entered it riding a motorcycle its name was Rear View art deco signage lit with lightbulbs above the stacked words were the yellow spectacled eyeswatching eyes of Dr T J Eckleburg  The Great Gatsby he negotiated the price of his ticket  I don have a trunk to hide people

couldnt forget the albino alligator palestblue eyes that stalked him through the swamp had to be frustratingstalked  might be too strong trailed him  the big lizard utterly too obvious

couldnt forget at a distance the gleaming pearlescent airport he parked his car nearby in a neighbourhood walked to climbed its security fence snipped the razorwire crossed the tarmac and snuck aboard a Douglas C-47 a twin-engine propjob that was chartered for Marilyn Monroe who soon boarded   Hiya Marilyn   Ohgood you made it. We’re going to have a ball. he appreciated her enthusiasm

                                               couldnt forget

was abetted by a long long memory

   he was tempted to shake his brothers head and listen if a pea rattled around inside

1101,  Thursday,  19  10. 23

1158,  Reggaefriday,  20  10. 23

“Are we ourselves?

   “One of them is asking. One of them thinks this is a rhetorical question: there’s continuity of memory, and that makes a self. A self is whoever remembers being that self.

   “One of them corrects: Continuity of memory filtered through endocrine response.

   “One of them corrects: We all remember being that self, are we are not the same.” *

                                                                                            a triad

How nice he thought being only three twos a company threes a crowd he smiled appreciatively  shehes heshes couldnt resist smiled with him  Whaof my myriad they nodded  they ran circuits percolated collated were subtle ran roughshod sometimes meteoric others tumbled like tumbleweeds stumbled like bums

                                                                              a self is whoever remembers being that self . . . continuity of memory filtered through endocrine response . . . we are not the same

We are he looked across the room inside himself at the myriad he understood they helped maintainworked together with him for his bodys and psychological equilibrium equiltlibrium eustasis  tides

was dumb luck

was fortune

   spidereyed compoundedeyes faceted facile 

                                                    it took him a long timehis childhood to bring together the concerted concert consorts cons thick as thieves  inspiring  aspiring  rarely despairing

and because of them he thoughtindulged Why not rather than Why

are we ourselves

                     only if we know ourself

1430ish,  Thursday, 19  10. 23

1019,  Reggaefriday,  20  10. 23

*pg347  A Memory Called Empire  Arkady Martine

endocrine response  https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/books/NBK278995/

Uriah Heep  Look At Yourself  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nMMrazRIdx4