29.6.23


the tacky old woodslat folding chair at the edge of the streetno sidewalks was empty  itd been eight days 
                                                                                                                where was the old man  somebody not as skinny would collapse it  

he wanted to knock at the house door   

old man let a room from his granddaughterwas determined to pay his way  I’m no freeloader, I’ll be damned if I burden anybody. 
           When I’m a burden Adios mis muy buenas amigas, bueno amigos . . not bad for an old white fart.

No not bad at all

What you reading, professor?

Im not a professor

You keep professing you aint . . that makes you one.

Clever  Though you don strike me clever

I’m not, I’m a trickster, a fox, I’m adaptable. 
                                                 Until I’m not.  Not a soul knows me better than I know me, so a warning, out of the mouth of an old man, when I set my mind to something don’t stand in the way.

I don think well have a problem  I walk by  We yap  Im on my way

they yapped a couplethree times a week throughout the winter into summer

   Fack
           he went up to the door and rapped

an attractive young woman answered it

Excuse me  Arya the lady of the house he felt like a Fuller Brush salesmanJESUS

This is my house, yes. she woudnt know wha Fuller Brush was

Your grandfather sat at the edge of the street he an Id talk briefly when I passed  Is he okay

He’s gone.

his heart sunk in his chest  cleared his throat
                                                Im sorry my condolences 
Ohno  no, he’s moved.

Moved

Yes.

Why  Where

Back east. most everywhere was east of California  My aunt asked him to come live with her.

Was their friction between youexcuse me Im rude  My names Joe I live up the street

I’ve seen you walked past for years, seen you talk with Pappy. I’m Edith.

Hello Edith  Thas an oldfashion name

Isn’t it? My greatgrandmother on my grandfather’s side came west in a wagon. I got two daguerreotypes she posed for in Chicago. She was a finelooking woman, I’m said to take after her, few redheads in our family. I go by my middle name, although my default when meeting people is to my give my christened name.

If I may your middle name

Maneater . .
. . interruptingclearing his throat  I like thareally like tha  Rightup my alley

It’s Sioux, my grandmother’s side of the family.

So your Grandfather went adios as he liked to say

He did. He told me youth was wasted on the young.

He may have said tha to make himself feel better

He called my husband and I . . asexual. 
                                           He said If I had a girl with your looks I’d fuck her black and blue make her beg for me to stop, wouldn’t be able to take it no more.

He is straightforwarddidnt parse his words

No he didn’t.  But to be frank his history backs him up, my grandmother left him because he wouldn’t give her a moment’s peace. 
                     Ol’ horndog. 

I think thas Pappy Horndog  he chuckled  
                                             P H D
1320,  Thursday,  29  6. 23
1911,  Thursday
Robert Palmer  Bad Case of Loving You  (Doctor, Doctor)  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gq3MJoCUrYg


he was still in knickers

   she was heated Would you put that thing down? It’s dirty.

Its dead

Don’t sass me.

Its dead Im taking it home and burying it on the far side of the garage under the eaves

she stepped towards him

thinking she might try to take it from him or knock it out of his hands he turned sideways putting his body between the little bird and her
                    adamantly she picked that up  Im burying it 

I’m your mother, you’ll do as you’re told.

I will not

Why aren't you listen to me?

Ill listen to you when youre not wrong 


   that was the talk at the dinner table as his father accepted plates shuttled to him to place servings on
                                                                                                               youngest to eldest mother first  as he doled out food he said to his eldest You’re excused. Perhaps the next time your mother tells you something you'll as you're told.

he felt words turn in his mouth but swallowed them 
                                                       Thats unlikely Dad The same will go for you

he knew his head young teachers already were biting their tongues rather calling him stubborn difficult they withheld incorrigible 
             though had they they wouldnt have been far off the mark
if they made a legitimate argument he could be convinced but he wasnt taking what he was told as gospel  he was skeptical  and particularly so when he was told Because as a shortcut to continue a lesson

his principals were familiar
his reputation preceding him

thus his parents were also familiar with them

1420,  Thursday,  29  6. 23
Millie Small  My Boy Lollipop  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N7lCJg3WoSc


234 of course it was  time often ran tha wayconsecutive numbers rising falling 420 multipletimes a week 
                                                                                                       234 in the afternoon on Santa Cruz winding the hills on his way home

he heldup his hand up to blot the sunlight coming through his rear window so he could see the time on the dashwanted to know it to contemporise timestamp wha he was thinkin
        whahad he been thinkin 

Gawddamn
              slipped him  forgot

Shit
     contemporising isnt supposed to be hard

  Whawas it whawas it 
                            hed remember even if it caused him a cerebral hemorrhage
it wasnt the two spiked deer that ran out of the trees in front of him they reminded him of hunting  the Bitterroot  yearlings tender meat   but anything young is tasty is better is why stumblingbumbling teensex was far better than when he was experiencedRIGHTEOUSLY so  It was Insane

   hed sleep on it



a little help from his friends

Yahoo  234s just a signifier times fluid yaougtha be pliable 
                                                                 Your grandmother crossed your mind yawere watching Lawrence Welk with her as a boy Ahwonderful ahwonderful Now ah one anah two anah three 123 234  345yah    Ya got it

No thas not it  There was something else

I told you he wasnt gonna be satisfied with a pat answer 
A reasonable one

   Yakiddin me  when is he reasonable  He doesnt takes anything lying downkeeps turning the gawddamn ball in his hands like a babe 
                     Every thing is new to him

Awright awright  shaddup 
                                Yawanna tell him 
Youve got seniority
You butted in 
                Have at it all yours 
Whaif he blames me 
He wont 
          He thinks this shit up Its on him  Hell take it cuz he knows hes not the only one who contemporiseswho dates an timestamps He challenges you weve got him by the balls beat him senseless with his own thoughtwords 

   There is tha 
Thas game
              He wont challenge you 


Aheer  Ahmm excuse me

   Whasup

It wasnt Lawrence Welk your grandmother

No I thought tha unlikely although true 
                                            Im a little miffed someone or several were being dishon . .
. . No Not lying  They were onguard for your sensibilities

My sensibilities

Yessir

Theyre not sensitive Im thickskinned 
                                            Wha 

The fact tha you were thinkin three an have had time alignbe 234 like being halfway down a ski jump You rode it out But despite your enthusiasm your imagined pulledupheldoff it let you go off on your own make the leap alone 
Invigorated you lost grip of your thought 

   An I thought

You were thinking of testicular prostheses  Except . . .  heshe shehe nodded their head tentatively 

Except

Except it wasntbout filling an empty scrotum or making a pair . . .  they nodded again

Christ Woudya just say

It crossed your mind to have three testicles
AH

   AH

Awa Mother Earth goddess  She has three breasts 
                                                           Kind of dreamy 
Dreamy
          How

Your hands an mouth busy at the exact same time 
                                                       Though thas not necessarily in regards to three testicles Ya just get to oneup any guy any woman may have come across Scrawl tha an a telephone number in a Womens bathroom
Gold

Jesus
Thinskinned

   Nah Nah Im familiar with you   I hadnt thought tha

Compare tha with this
                            Cerberus 

Oh  Okay   Nicely done

A third testicle easier done less complicated than three heads
                                                                  Yasee the sense
Thaya can is all tha matters 


Thankya I appreciate your help

reiterating 234,  2sday,  27  6. 23
1159,  Thursday,  29  6. 23
Joe Cocker  A Little Help from My Friends  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eXV4WyQMHFM 


it was easier to keep a good manwoman down than they thought 
                                                                         turn off their electricity 
OFF yesterday morning at 0953hrs
called the Electric Company and via its call-in tree WHERE ARE THE HUMAN BEINGS heshe was informed there was a power outage “in your vicinity” and resources were investigating

if someone referred to himher as a resource shehed remind whoever the knuckleheadasskisser was Call me tha again an Ill hand you your ass Ive got a name

when heshe was in college class test grades paper grades were posted by ones Social Security number

shehe refused to be or acknowledge the number posted on kiosks just outside the particular classrooms lecture halls and went inside to meet the professor or contacted their office to make an appointment to speak with them

as big a campus it was hisher name got around an professors from midfreshman year forth refused to grant herhim an appointment if their attempt followed on the heels of grades posted

shehe went up the foodchain reminding each lummox tossed in their way trying to inhibit them from reaching the top dog who they eventually did that they were the employer  educators were their employees

the next year his military deferral was denied he ended up in prison for refusing to go to Nam which he believed was illegal although  an American corporate bonanza  spectacular wealth realised on the oilthe blood of nearly 54,000 servicemenwomen 
                    she ended up dropping out of school  was attractive  married a corporate exec  married up  had children whos entitlement embarrassed her but was inclinedstoked by her husband
she overlooked his infidelities an did awright


they went for a long walk with three books like watching television changing channels  

when they returnedtheir dogs hurting it was Four oclock by the windup clock power was restored

the voice estimated Fourfifteen  sharp cookie 
                                                   although they had no idea when it was actually restored 
         
0853,  Thursday,  29  6. 23
Jim Croce  I’ve Got a Name  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cadvn16N188