I
died
nothing
special
everyone
dies
I
died unfortunately in a hospital
Ill be sure to finagle it
so that doesnt happen
when I do
I
was old
dying
old isnt special
old
age eventually gives you that
something
will fail
something
would when youre old
she
rose from my bedside as if she hadnt expected it
she
was gentle caressing not believing
then
shocked to her core and panicked
I
made a promise to her and kept it
I
would be with her until I died
and
I did
the
panick shuddered her
tears
swelled in her eyes but refused to fall
she
tried to say to me I love you
but
the words stuck in her throat wouldnt come out of her mouth
she
shook me
I
didnt revive
not
that I wouldnt have if I could
I
would have done anything to save her that
but
dying didnt save me that
dying
took everything I was
and
then some
I
couldnt console her when she needed me most
her
knees buckled
she
fell across me
but
I was cold
death
makes you indifferent
her
maudlin moan began
her
mouth agape as my own
and
only when she put her lips to mine
very
nearly our last kiss
did
her moan break
and
echo in my mouth
she
rose up electric
she
bolted from the room trying to escape her moan
gone
to an ungodly howlNoooo
she
fled down the corridor scarcely ahead of it
it
was lit subdued
to
her right were broad spaced windowpanes
moonlight
poured through them and
lit her strobe-fashioned
her
panicked run to the end of the insensitive wooden hallway filled with her howl
at
the end of the hall was a door
she
crashed into the door
knocking
herself down but not out
beyond
the door was a patients shower
and
as the door shut against her howl the shower filled with it
she
spun the knobs
the
water sighedthen roared
she
threw her head under its sparkling stream and collapsed in the stall
then
then the tears came
her
sobbing choked the howl
I
put my hand on her head to console her
she
put both her hands atop mine and held it
my
dead heart was breaking
I
survived that
that
was all I could do
I
told her I was in her heart
I
told her in a strong voice for the last time I love you
and
then I left
I
left my hand under hers
death
cant steal love away
0022 Friday 1 6. 2012
transfigured
1500, Day-between-Two-Ts, 30 11.
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