27.3.25


he was humming


  he didnt hum
what was he humming

                           he kept it up trying to findlocate  some recognisable word words  in it



Shit he said

                    Baby Mine  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iCgDgJsTR_w
Dumbo

he gave all the Disney VHS tapes he had to his daughter except Dumbo   and Fantasia  Nineteenforty
   why the humming
                             sitting at his desk a halfhour he saw why the hum resulted
on the opposite side of a collected piece of paper he scribbled  datedOFCOURSE he had
Friday  15  7. 05nearly twenty years ago  1230ish

on it he quoted someone
                            Flee, all is discovered.
who had he quoted
                       also wrote pg 286 after and circled it


who was he reading in Twothousandfive 

   he sat  and thought

 

halfhour later looked at the clock when he began evidently halfhours favoured him he quit thinking and went to the computer to Google Flee

                                                                                                                         found    Yes Ofcourse  asshole
Robert Penn Warren  
                       All the King’s Men
he remembered
                   a fascinating read

partial quote of the paragraph was
                                      (The) West is where we all plan to go some day. his West was inadvertent  he followed his wife because she was going evenif she had to go alone  she grewup in California   It is where you go when the land gives out and the oldfield pines encroach. It is where you go when you get the letter saying: Flee, all is discovered.

                he read the book another time since  saw both films

 

while Googling he copped three other quotes pertinent to the sloppy barrel of shit America was steeped in didnt want to breathe through his nose but also not through his mouth where he risked tasting it
                                                                                     The lack of a sense of history is the damnation of the modern world.  &  Reality is not a function of the event as event, but of the relationship of that event to past, and future, events.  &  It is human defect – to try to know one’s self by the self of another.

 

   Warren  fucking brilliant

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on the phone with his father Youre fadin on me Im havin to carry the ball   If shes there lemme talk with Sis I want to give her hell

muffled
            He wants to give you hell.

What did I do?

He didn’t say. Just said he wants to give you hell.

 

What did I do?

Hey Sis
           Didnt return my call

    You didn’t call.

I did
             Checking

On the Eighteenth
                    Sixteentwelve hours left a thirtyonesecond message

I didn’t get it.

Ya sound like a politician
                            I don remember
What country you were in when you were on Signal discussing classified war material

What?
Nothing
          You know me an politics I called to ask about the baby shower I understand High Tea was the theme   Finger sandwiches

Yes.
     We were supposed to wear hats.

Inside

Not hat hats.

Whas not hat hats

They’re called fascinators.

Fastenators

No. Fascinators.

Spell

F A S C I N A T O R.

Arya sure not F A S T E N A T O R    Fasten

No.

Its a real word
                European   Made of silk lace net

Why would you know that?

Dated a gal tha collected antique hats
                                             Was into blindfolds too
   Yeahokay. Brakes.
Chicken
             So you didnt wear a fascinator

No.

Know whaya shoudve worn

   Smart ass. What should I have worn?


A tiara
Dammit dammit  she roaredlaughed
                                                  You’re right you’re rightabsolutely right.
Coudve upstaged the entire gathering
                                       Made the poor pregnant gal feel like a peasant

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5 Man Electrical Band  Absolutely Right  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lhBm4QzEQtI

walking into the room where buddy had an eightfoot pool table foldedup gametables stacks of puzzlespulled up short  saw that he hung old family photographs artwork  onein particular  a framed poster threw him  was unlike buddy

he walked in behind him shortly thereafter carrying a tray bottles of beer tumblers of whiskey ceramic bowls containing mixed nuts pretzels
                                         motioning to the walls  This is crazy nice

Thank you. I found most of them in the boys’ closets hadn’t seen them in years. I thought they'd make the room more homey.

You achieved that
                    
                         The poster  Garth Brooks
Yes.

 

You a fan

I’m not, my wife was.
she died fifteen years earlier

Im a bit surprised its not under glass as the other pieces aresave  of course
                                                                                 The paintings
No. She wanted a frame to keep it flat.
                                             Actually . . I’m very happy she didsee the upper right?

looked saw a dull purplish stain of something splashed  beyond it samecoloured speckles

The boys were gone. New Year’s Eve. I was feeling frisky goosed her she jumped tossed her wine over her shoulder.      remembering   seeing
                                                    We daubed away what we could.

Then I started daubing her.

   Daubing

Good. Using your imagination.
                                
                                      Daubed.

 

We look at a lot of our lives through glass, television screens, phone screens.
                                                                                   Easy to lose perspective . . lack . . . scale.

I see
          If Garth were under glass  yamight not have that present memor . .
. . Yes.   Yes.
                     Every time I look at it since finding, hanging it . . .  he trailed off


Youre able to relish  again
 
   Relish.
               Perfect word for it.

handing him a tumbler he held up his  Na Zdrowie.

Heres mud in your eye

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