he smiled as she rolled around
the corner in the pickup
itd been a physical dayhe sweat
like a pig but in the back of his mindsmiling as he was smiling now he knew
that she loved his smellhis musk smiling how she liked to lay with him for a
while before she let him shower
then shed put fresh sheets on the
bed for them to muss up that night after beers after dinner after talkingplaying
cut-upswatching a film maybe porn just to prime their gizmos
she protested I don’t have a
gizmo . .
. . OH you do And you go apeshit
when Im at it
shed screw up her face then concede Then it’s your gizmo; I
got another name for mine.
as she rolled up he saw she wasnt
returning his wolfsmile Whas up babe he
asked as he walked out onto the street to the drivers side to give her a kiss
I’m sorry.
Gimme a kiss Ive been thinking of you all day long to get
through it and I want a kiss before we fall to fix whas troubling you Awright
Alright, baby.
they kissed deeply a kiss that promised more and more kisses gentle touches and strokes and embraces
he climbed in beside her had to love a woman who could drive
stick Now love an Im not making light of it but whasda hubbub bub
she smiled immediatelythe
concern momentarily evaporating from her face Bub. I love when you call be Bub, when you call me pet names.
Aw baby cant help myself I love you inside an out Now lets get that glowerthat odd doom off your face Aint nothing we cant handle together
I love you.
An thats a foreboding start I love you too
she cast a quiet look at him
Just say it tell me whasup
I found an cassette in the glove box and driving over I threw it in. she sniffed I couldn’t stop listening to it. I knew you didn’t leave it; you wouldn’t have left it in the truck.
I think you don’t know it exists.
he watched her face as she
spoke her strength falling away Yawanna pull over let me drive
No. I’m okay. I . . I don’t want
you to think I violated our trust, your trust in me.
You wouldnt Not knowingly
No. Not knowingly.
Then youve done nothing wrong
The tape .. listening to it . . I couldn’t stop myself – she suddenly pulled the truck over to
the curb and began to weep – I feel terrible. It was terrible. I don’t know why
she made it, why she would make such a tape.
She
She My wife
Yes
Yes.
It’s heartbreaking. I couldn’t stop listening, I
couldn’t stop feeling, feeling the emotions in her words, how she spoke, cried. My
heart began to break. Then I stopped, had to stop, turned it off.
he looked at the dash
he could see that the cassette flip
was depressed the tape still in the
machine
Im gonna run it back to the beginning babe that way theres no new surprises for you .
.
. . I’m so sorry!
Its awright
I’m terribly sorry.
Its awright baby
I’m terribly sorry for you. For
her.
Sawright love Its awright
Pull over to the side of the road
Pull over to the side of the road
when she had he reached over and turned the
key in the ignitionkilling the engine
he dropped his hand onto hers in
her lapshe grabbed his with her other handheld onto him as if he was going to
go leavedisappear
they sat like that looking into each others eyes
he leaned towards her I dont have
a clean handkerchief for your eyes he
wiped the tears from her cheek with his thumb
There love Itll be fine Itl be fine
Fine
Muhmy heart
aches
Ssh Itll be fine
Let the water still Remember Let it still until you can see your face in it Breathe
Concentrate on your breathyour face reflecting in the water Quiet Quiet
Quietly Sssh
When youre ready start the tape
when she finally played the tape the
sun was setting the amberhue filled the cab
lighting her beautiful face highlighting
her hazel eyes prying at its green
flints she was so somber sober
finally playing the tape snippets of songs his wifes monotonous voice deadpan over refrains other times obliterating lines grimdesperate bites
accusations
You don’t love me.
How
can you love me?
after several minutesminutes of torment he stopped
the tape . .
.
. There’s more.
Yes You heard more
Yes.
And it continues on like this
Yes.
I dont think we need to listen to
any more right now
No.
No
Are you okay
Are
you okay?
I am
Youll remember I told you she was rendered rendered by prescription drugs
Who you heard wasnt the
womanwasnt Cece who I married
You heard Cece a product a terrible misfortunate product of chemical violation therapeutic violation
The psychiatrist prescribed
The psychologist went along with
it
As I told you I we the girls had no recourse not according to the legal papers Cece signed as they wanted and they then recorded and filed Legally nice and tidy
They had their docile addled guinea pig
Please dont listen to what she says and condemn her
They broke her
Cece then was a broken woman love They broke her like a porcelain doll
she began to cry I feel so terrible for her, for you, the girls;
that you two endured what you did.
Perhaps not appropriate but thank you Thank
you Its many years ago now
Nothing
can change it
Nothing
he took her chin in his hand gently turned her head to face him he
looked in her eyes I have you in my life
I love you
morning, Day-between-Two-Ts, 12 6.
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