he and his father were talking about the crime books they readHOW  VERY   GUY

Jaysus

            too precious to let go

 

phone rang  his father 

                         Hey Da

Son. called him nothing else but son

Thanks for calling me back

You bet. I was on the pot, not smart to terminate an exodus.

laughed

                Exodus  Fuckin Biblical   I agree absolutely

You called. said fuck

Ja

    Ya dialup Patterson in your head

I did.

Is he alive

Patterson? I believe sohaven’t heard otherwise he was just on a morning talk show the other day.

   What a stupid question.

Good to hear good to hear

                                     Ya know my guyIrish noir writer Bruen    Ken Bruen

Yes, yes, I recall.  You're smitten.

Ass bit hard  Ja

I find it . . pleasant . I’m happy . . we share reading crime novels.

Spillane.

Spillane?

You kept his paperbacks on top your upright dresser  I saw

You saw?

Ja  I read

             Methinks ya thought I was too short

Must have.  Read.

                            Don’t tell your Maw.

Whas it worth old man

A shakedown?

Jawha the hell

Jimmy’s.

Still Italian roast beef green peppers

Still.

Cold beers

Beers.

    Consider yourself shook

pleasant laughter between them

Im sorry to say Bruen died March Twentyninthhad no  fuckin idea

    An the thing tha  frosts  my  fanny

                                               Text message  :  :   He died March Twentyninth.

 

  :  :  Jaysus  Could have tendered his death with a little more decorum

 

I havent heard from him since

laughed  happy Da pickedup on his black humour  

                                                 I’m sorry to hear that, son.

Thanks Da

             Figured youd get it

I am sorry to hear.

Thank you

                       I'm reading a new author. Griffin.

Cop  PI

No no. A lawyer.

                 he burst outnear hysterics  screaming in his headWOW

A lawyer

Yes.

Hows tha goin

It’s . . different.

Gotta tellya Dayoull forgive me   An attorney . . .

Yes.

I gotta tellya  A cop a PI   Ja

                                Attorney

Attorney blows me away

                              he chuckled

his father chuckled

contagious

            full on HARHARs thirtyseconds

 

    JAYSUS   as Ken Bruens Jack Taylor woud say

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    When was the first time yaever laid eyes on a Playboy

                                                                           let it lingerhang  in the air

 

 

that was his intent but it seemed to be buddys thought too

                                                               maybe his question would dissipate into thin air

Playboy

         First time

I’ve no idea.

You have no ideaya must have   some idea

No. I don’t.

                     I . didn’t have a sordid childhood.

Ya blew it

                Ill take the compliment though

Take . . the complimen . .

. . Wasnt he laughed wholeheartedly bellylaughed

                                                                   No    Not a compliment

You know it wasn’ . .

. . I woudnt have had yours for all the green tea in Japan tired of China gettin all the creditcooptin all the tea in China  Spreadin it around   Oolong Probably Chinese too  Wha tea is from elsewhere  India

I don’t know.

With your gentil upbringing was pretty damn sure youd know tea

Stop.

Jawhell due to my sordid childhood

                                        Eight nine a single uncle my Maws second to youngest brother number eleven of twelve siblings

Cat was cool

I loved him

             Think of all the sixtysix cousins he related best with me

May have perverted me according to youya had  wha   one uncle in throwing distance one aunt three cousins

Slim pickins

No wonder straightlaced straightjacketed

 

                                                  When didya masturbate for the first time

Summer before seventh grade

                                 Larry a buddy he flunked he told me I didnt hurt myself Ya just beatoff.

Fuck did he laugh

shaking his head dismallycondescendingly  Jesus.

 

    Youre not gonna saycant remember Id think thad be so fuckin memorable 

Jacqueline Susann Valley of the Dolls held hands with Mickey Spillane Sharon Tate played Jennifer North Tony Polar her boyfriend fucks her while shes talkin on the telephone  Mygawd seein it in his head

Almost hit the ceiling

 

Nothing

When yasee a Playboy

When didya masturbate

I’m not saying. 

    Wha a prude wha a maroon https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SSZ1h-bydS4

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eHarmony roadway to hell  Is tha still around

                                                   I met her on-lin . .

. . Which

I don’t recal . .

. . You married her                                                                                                                                     

Yes.

But you don remember  whi  the dating site ya met her on or   ya joined so many

 

 

pulling teeth

             but he knew he was emotional inept  psychs E I isnt Emotional Intelligence

It’s different at our age.

Different

Yeah, you know. Different.

I don know

You’re yanking my chain.

I don know

Of course you know.

Three times a charm I don know trifecta insulting donning Wittgensteins bowler  Whereof  Thereof

 

    It’s . . he began slowly    He thinks hes gonna lose me    I can’t believe he doesn’t know.    Open yer mout an say    It’sIt’s . . . different than when we married    The first time    before.

The expectations then and now are total different.

If I thought about it  Id agree

You do?

I thought

    Oh.   Okay.

                         cleared his throat          Companionship

I see tha

It’s different than when we were younger.

You don want to fuck

I didn’t say that.

Yastill havent

What?

Said

 

Repeating it over and over doesn’t    the lightbulb was so bright it momentarily blinded them    Yes, I wanted to make love.

Id recommend fuckingnot mine not mine  Pitt to his kid brother in Legends of the Fall

Do you always have to be so crass so rude?

Synonymous  Pick one

                         Yes

Yes?

As you answer two questions either yes or no   Thayado to irritate me

Do I irritate you?

No

       Nothing more than confirm youre a  fuckin   idiot

Companionship

 

Ja  I spose I get tha

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had to take a breath

                           Ya got to be kiddin me

he seemed bewildered  No. No I’m not.

Broad

       Thas the only way you understood ithow old

Most of my life.

he was gobsmacked

                     Most of your life   Hips

You heard me right.

Im blownaway

What? Having ample distance side to side.  Hips.

Well   At least theres a subtle sexual contextthough you may not have realised tha until you were older too

I don’t think of broad sexually.

                                  Are you gonna say what you understood it to mean when you learned it?

Ohhellja

            A woman   Statesque

Mike Hammer kind of woman

Mike Hammer?

You didnt read Mickey Spillane growingup

    I’ve heard of him.

Wha

       Youve heardhavent  read him

No.  No I have not.

You a choir boy

                 Know I held offdidnt saddle you altar boy  Theyre the ones usually abused by Godfearin priests 

       Or

Godenabled

    Why did you read him?

I read him because I read everything I could lay my hands on my Dad read him paperbacks on his dresser snaggedem dug the lurid the flamboyant artwork on the covers

                                                                    Broads     There

Probably there I learned broad

Wha a dismal upbringing you had

It wasn’t. 

You keep tellin yourself tha

                              Jaysus  Hips

 

When was the first time yaever laid eyes on a Playboy

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Youre lyin to yourself

she was lying to herself

                       but assumed she meant well "The Bible IS the Word of God."

if he had an opportunity hed ask her why then is this question was asked

                                                                              “Who put the Bible together, and what year?” https://www.catholic.com/qa/who-compiled-the-bible-and-when

quite the game of Telephone

    over five centuries

from the Gospel of John 1:1

                             In the beginning was the Word and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.

if God was whispered

                       then Telephone one word  would be awfully hard to fuckup

she said the lie that really rubbed him raw

                                       “ . . . and because I was raised in a very conservative suburb of Dallas and I went to a conservative school, kindergarten through Twelfth grade, all of that contributed to my NATURAL conservatism.”

                              AwwEllie  Ellie Beth Stuckey   No natural there

IndoctrinatedJa

PedagogyJa

But neither natural

                     her blonde hair probably wasnt natural either but he could be wrong

he choked on the show for its entirety because he enjoyed Ross Douthats insightful piercing questions she didnt answeraddress what he asked  was political

he disliked her  why

    End Times

    Predestination

    Saint Paul women cant be a leader but they can be persuasive  “Hey, your pastor is way out of line.”

Douthat says  “. . . prominent female leaders merge with a message that seems or are intended to honestly shame men in authority in the church . . .” & “male failure?”

    “Biblical justice, not secular social justice . . .”

    her book Toxic Empathy

    “ . . . empathy that validates lies . . . affirms sin . . . supports destructive policies . . .”

    “ . . . full of empathy and mean as hell . . . I see that with a lot of progressive and is what I call misplaced mothering.”

Douthat asks her “Is there any way to nicely deport?

    “. . . I can find in the first twentyseven verses, first three chapters, eleven chapters . . . gender, marriage, value of life in the womb . . . our stewardship of the earth . . . I realize humans have dominion over the earth, not the other way around, that human beings do matter more than plants and animals or any other part of creation . . . there is very little wiggle room.”

    “. . . truth aligns with the Bible. The truth is in the Bible.”

according to the words out of her mouth

                                            shes a bimbo shes a shrill

Listen makeup your own mind: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wfhAtLf3XQY&list=PLcAMpF2bh6CVXg3ZOMQfKSqb4mxK4VKHl&index=4

on the one hour ninth minutes  he rested

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    Boredom is the hinge moment of the imagination.

                                                             attributed to Walter Benjamin

hinge moment attracted himhadnt heard it before

Googled hinge moment definition because if he doesnt write definition Google wasted his time by running his inquiry through its AI Overview he was incorrect that no longer works now he has to ignore it as he ignores Wikipedia

hinge moment

               when opportunities present possible dramautic change sometimes unsettling

boredom

          when seeing it says to himself bored dumb   a thing listless

reads it such more so

                       because

try as he may he couldnt dregup a time he was bored

                                                          I’m bored. a banal excuse

if he overheard someone say that hed give them wide leeway so wide  it be unlikely their paths would ever cross

he wouldnt let them into his life

                                 classic vampirism  the vampire must ask to be let in

banal individuals wouldnt have the opportunity to ask

imagination

              is psychedelic

one hadenjoyed without risk of endangering themselves have someone spot them

he has been a spotter

been spotted

               though spotted truth be known  people hanginround to see how he reacted to whatever drug he ingested  inhaled

    his function

                   point man

was that dangerous

isnt being first dangerous

suited his personality

since a kid did what he wanted

                                  hence his welldeveloped sense of accountability his inherent musculardisgust when people are not held to account

    

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the song  Spanky & Our Gang  Like To Get To Know You  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XWXVgDewwdI for Walter Benjamin  https://plato.stanford.edu/entries/benjamin/  who should be known  remembered