he wasnt often awakened from his sleep by dreaming  

usually the culprit is having to take a leakshouldnt have drank all that tea before bed

he wasnt usually awakened by dreams because he could manipulate hisif he wanted  rather than act in themwitness them and also react between being the witness and the actor conferees

hed been doing it for so long he took it for granted

sex dreams were a kickhe could be on the bottom he could be the aggressor and take it anywhere he wanted or he could be taken anywhere she wanted  or they wanted hed had orgy dreams where more than half the partners were him male and female

                       he woke from those exhausted and usually napped the following afternoon

but he didnt wake up during sex dreams 

                                           no coitus interruptus and no onehimself included ever got knocked up

often the bummer of sex Youre wha Awman  not Amen

his daughter had been waking him up as she did when she was a little girl Daddy. I have to go potty. You can go pottyhoney Youre a big girl  Yes. But would you take me, please?

he got up out of bed and took her every time she ever asked him

standing in the bathroomunder the coloured nightlife he watched her pee her little heart out or they talked and talked  antalked

Baby I thought you had to go potty

I do. I do.  I will.

Some time  tonight

You’re funny, Daddy. Yes. Tonight.

no matter how quickly or how long it took he was going to be there

                                                                       because

a time would come when she wouldnt wake himwhen she go to potty by herself when she was a big girl and hed miss her waking him

You’re the best Dad.

she died

he wakes from his dreams when either his dreamed-self or his dreaming-self remembers she did remembers the gift of being with her the last three months she was alive caring for her

she believed she could beat her illness

he stuffed his reality and convinced himself that she could too

he would be reeling that she died

they didnt believe she would

curiously he woke last nightthis morningthe sun wasnt up yet his bedroom windows face east he didnt hang blinds or curtains to hide it

what woke him was his dreamed-self berating someone who had given him a tablet to read  he was very direct he was evidently upset with the writer  the writer handed him the tablet 

Are you hiding from somethingfrom someone he demanded My Gawd the script Its so smallits timid The ink is faintits blue  Why as he read  WHY are you uncommittedwhy are you vacillating  Commit   JUST COMMIT 

the writer his dreaming-self recognised was backing away from his dreamed-self as his dreamed-self read and spoke  

he threw the tablet at the retreating writer

he was wakinghe was hypnagogic he heard the pages flutter as he threw the paper tablet My Gawdman he was incensed his dreaming-self stood as a mute witness That was exactly a pomegranate filled with shriveled arid fruit  seeds like stale raisins Colourless

he was awake

his dreamed-self wasnt harsh

harsh is hard for him to determine because he is severe

0702 & 1044,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  10  6. 20

Doris Day  Dream a Little Dream of Me  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h7j8wa9sWOE

Woodcreek Texas mayor Gloria Whitehead called Black Lives Matter “a threat to our life.” an insisted “I’m not a racist.”

You are Ms Whitehead  You are  “ . . our life” includes black lives  https://wgntv.com/news/calls-for-resignation-after-texas-mayor-says-she-sees-black-lives-matter-as-a-threat-to-our-lives/

five times Ms Whitehead insisted she was not a racist      

                                                        Hell  Peter only thrice denied Jesus

1734,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  10  6. 20

Ohbrutha yet another I can’t breathe. white moment which is enunciatedpronounced I can’t speak negatively about the president.

Larry Kudlow might be a ventriloquist or rather hes keenly able to speak so clearly “There is no systematic racism . .” with the presidents dick stuck in his mouth https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/politics/a-top-trump-adviser-says-the-us-suffers-no-systemic-racism/ar-BB15j2DA?li=BBnb7Kz&ocid=mailsignout

hes almost as good at it as Pence

1641,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  10  6. 20

he saw the white-nationalist hand signal JesusChristguys and girls  whacha thinkin

either hand is optional he supposed not unlike coloured handkerchiefs carried in the back pockets of ones jeans

the hand signal is thumbindex finger form a circle above it the remaining fingers are extended  looked to him  like er  well Heres my asshole I can take three  https://www.dailykos.com/stories/2020/6/9/1951844/--Antifa-buses-Panicked-armed-men-hit-small-town-streets-across-America-to-fend-off-imagined-hordes?detail=emaildkre

1540,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  10  6. 20

If I Was a Rich Man  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZtyinYpNkAU

Hey hey   Hey

Yeah.

Happy to grab your attention

You got it. What’s up?

I knowI discovered what a white personmind you an entitled white person says instead of I Can’t Breathe.

Do I really want to hear?

Ohyah yawanna hear.

Okay.

No  You have to play the game

What’s the game?

You have to repeat my statement as a question

Really?

Yesreally  Itll be funnier that way

Funnier?

Yes

What I understand then is, it’ll be funnier to you.

You can laugh

I think I’ll groan.

Comon try it on for size

Oka . . 

. . Youllplay

Okay. Yes, yes. . I’ll play.

Goody-goody

Relax. You start jumping up and down an all about, I’m walking away.

Sorry  Im exciteda little excited

Okay. Here goes.  What does a white person, an entitled white person, say instead of I Can’t Breathe.

They say “I can’t speak negatively about the president.”GET IT  an he howledfuckin howled at his own joke

as he said he would he groaned

1500,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  10  6. 20

https://www.propublica.org/article/i-cant-speak-negatively-about-the-president-says-official-charged-with-stimulus-oversight?utm_source=pardot&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=dailynewsletter&utm_content=feature

https://pandemic.oversight.gov/news/articles/pandemic-response-accountability-committee-names-deputy-executive-director

too many shoulder surgery one artificial shoulder

when the weather got coldwhen it got moist the cold and wet got inside him and played havoc with his joints fuckin uncomfortable

You’re taking a shower without me, baby?

Sorry babe Middle of the daydidnt think you might want to Im running hot water on my shoulders takin advantage of that pulsating showerhead you bought us

Your shoulders are bothering you?

Yah fuckinuncomfortable

Uncomfortable?

Yah

But not painful?

No

You ever notice you’re never in pain? You’re just uncomfortable.

I am uncomfortable

But you’re not in pain?

Pain doesnt live in my body

You’re crazy, Joe.

No Just uncomfortable But if youd like to join me  me an my shoulders would love to have you

Just you and your shoulders?

Im sure I can get everyone else on board too

he stood at the bathrooms threshold in the hall naked  Appears I have a significant Yea vote babe

she stepped out of the kitchen into the hall and laughed That is a significant vote. she reached down and grabbed his cock Howbout a raincheck? Tonight we can take a bath, candles, scented bathsalts, music . . and.

no woman he ever made love with had ands like hers

Sold

she laughedshe didnt cover her mouth I was working on dinner anyways. You enjoy your shower, love. she leaned in and gave him a soft kiss More where that came from. she whispered and winked and backed back into the kitchen

he and his significant vote watched her back away

Youre killing us

I’ll kill youse tonight!

he ran the water and showered in a lukewarm quiet spray washed his hair rinsed  it sounded like someone said something BABY You say something  NO.

he put conditioner in his hair soaped up rinsed then rinsed his hair sounded like someone said something to him BABE Talkin to me  NO.  NO  NO.  YOU feelin the roommates  NO.  he thought Huh not the roommates they were mischievous he wouldnt put it past them to try and talk while his head was underwater  Hey gang sumptin to say say it when I can hear you undisturbed without water in my ears

                                                                    No  Nothing   Not the roommatesnot their three ghosts

he cranked up the heat and turned the showerhead to massage

left shoulder  Yah   

right shoulder  Yah

back of his neckback of his head somethingsomebody was talking he heard itheard it like he could hear the sea in a seashell something was talking to him he was having trouble picking it uppicking uppicking out words a voice he listened he couldnt understandcouldnt pick up on the voice either  although it was distinctly female

shoulders again  no voice

back of his neck  no voice

back of his head Joe.

he heard it  Joe  

Yes

Joe.

Right here Im right here

I  am  too.

Who please  Who are you

Im  here.

Who Please

Im  here.

he stepped forward out of the showerspray on his head  Who please 

Please

he backed into the water and asked Youre here

Here.

0956,  Sunday,  13  1. 19

1613,  Twosday,  9  6. 20

fat man doesnt miss a trickdoes he

                                    ofcourse 75 year old Martin Gugino fractured his own skull – “he fell harder than was pushed”

Mr Gugino “could be ANTIFA” which would be eminently better than a neo-Nazi or white supremacist

https://www.npr.org/2020/06/09/873278314/no-sign-of-antifa-so-far-in-justice-department-cases-brought-over-unrest?utm_source=npr_newsletter&utm_medium=email&utm_content=20200609&utm_term=4616195&utm_campaign=breaking-news&utm_id=28916831&orgid=55

Mr Gugino “. . was pushed away after appearing to scan police communication in order to blackout the equipment.”

fat man cites @OANN the far-right wing pro-Trump One America News Network for that conspiracy tidbit – OANN shouldnt be able to call itself News when it spews propaganda  @OAPN

he wanted to take a moment to cite something that hasnt been reported amid all this garbage fatty turns 74 inside a week anif he was pushed downlanded on his back does anyone realise how long itd take him to get up off his back if he was unaided – hed squirm like an obese turtle

0936,  Day-between-Two-Ts,  10  6. 20

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m723TJbr1V4