7.8.25

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YAJMnZ8QkmY

Christian Dominion over their children



  an embryo is not a person
IVF in vitro fertilisation is a choice
                                   or
otherwise
            My babys name is Sex not that they would say

Theyre a byproduct of unthinking passion fucking  not that they would say

    hed say Ooops

he used condoms
                    was virulentlyagainst women ingesting chemicals he would not  if they were available
it may be
 
so Ooops
            wouldnt knock on his door eighteentwenty years later

I think youre my Daddy

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Are You My Mother?  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QdegazRWMv0

he stood on a cobblestone streetcurbs made of coarsemined limestone slabs and watched four blackjacketed black slacks booted men dismount a horsedrawn freight wagon brandishing long T-handled meat boning hooks

they dropped the tailgate

inside lay a man handsbound behind his back  ankles trussed   floursack over his head
                                                                                                 he writhed
men said something he couldnt distinguished
                                                 respondent laughterloud   coarse
they yanked him out by his shoulders 
                                         he landed on his back
they screamedMOVE
                           he unable  wormwiggled
savagely they hooked him pullindragginim in one direction then another
                                                                             bloodcurdling screams
shook the hooks free
                       rehookedshrieks   shook
savagelyslashed
                    rehooked


    it is hard to move in opposite directions at once



they moved him in four directions
  
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wending his way from something obscure   misty as far as he was concerned  the only way to fly

    “Thal ob Pirling . . . lay in the distant past”
                                                        Wha 
he was impatient
been needling him  this the second day
                                                conceded  Googled     Valley of Pirling
Pirling is not a real place  Oz
                                      an archaic verb  to twist, twine, spin, revolve sounds like wending

had he been patient maybe hell learn 
                                         Thal  was a clue         a valley

which may have sat on top his head  nestled    warmed the tips of his ears
                                                                                     Ja?
Ja
     Neanderthal
fossilised remains found in the Feldhofer Cave of Neander Valley THAL in Germany 1856 CE

although  even if he were patient Pirling would still have thrown him
                                                                          Thal ob Pirling 
that was an obsession of Adalbert Stifler a Bohemia-Austrian writer of the midNineteenth Century who was an early exponent of the German refined or poetic realism


this he learned from W G Sebalds essay To the Edge of Nature which Sebald kicked off with a quote from Franz von Baader
                      Seeing and thinking are two different things,/the one does not explain the other.

observing

researching
his process

binds the pair closer
                       and while he wend his way he read this astonishing sentence  accusation

It is well known is it that a pronounced pedagogic talent often goes hand in hand with repressed paedophilic desires.

know many teachers pedagogues
                                      word from Greek pedo  child  agogos  leader
also known as pedagog
                          dissecting
prefix
       pedo-  paed-  pedo-   means child

ped – agog

paed – agog

child – agog
              child eager child curious . . . to hear  to seesheesh

which then introduced him to ego-syntonic
                                              adjective compatible with the ego  conscious self-concept suddenly hyphenatedcaffeinated up the yinyang
                                                   thoughts wishes impulses behaviour are ego-syntonic when they form no threat to the ego can be acted upon without interference from the superego
                                                                                              noun  the moral component of the personality that represents parental and societal standards he pitched those long ago
determining personal now youre talkin standards of right and wrong moral immoral conscience  aims   aspirations

    if he were a dog hed be looking for a waterbowl  hopefully the water would be cool


he did warn he was wending
  
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https://www.psychiatrictimes.com/view/psychopathology-and-personality-traits-pedophiles

https://www.msdmanuals.com/professional/psychiatric-disorders/paraphilias-and-paraphilic-disorders/pedophilic-disorder

Chautauqua to wrap ones head around

                                                                   credit Ezra Klein  hats off to Mahmoud Kahlil

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A2BLU3Gy3YE

0911,  Thursday,  7  8. 25

been reading in bed at least a hafhour
                                       moral imperative crowded him niggled him distracted him
tugged at his attention which he rather it didnt as he read W G Sebalds Silent Catastrophes
appropriate

    whats an imperative

                             something  essential   something  urgent
moral

         action actions which afterwards is are deemed good  a betterment for all concerned and sadly  unconcerned
moral

         realise immoral things are being done in Americas name  federal state governmental actions blatantly cruel  “credibly” deemed insufficient
                                                  ratchtedup  depraved

one scalding reason why people hide their identity behind ski masks
                                                                                   I'm only following orders.
as Nuremberg defendants defiantly protested
they dont want to be ostracised


immoral things done by Americans

cant miss the forest for the trees

 

Shes unrecognisable

matching socks paired by blind people
                                         they dont need to match to function
In what capacity?

Capacity?

For what purpose?

Right?Wrong?dependent on what?
                                            FUCK

when fucked so many many times  how does one know when its love

guessin round midnight,  0000,  Wednesday,  6  8. 25
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